Thank you, I hope you do too
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Yes I saw someone who hasn’t seen me since Vic passed and I’ve lost weight. Because I’ve always been big they thought I had been on a diet or jabs. I said no just a grief diet.
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That would be lovely Sue we can put the world to rights 
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Good night Sherbet10
Wishing you a peaceful night’s sleep
All the best
Tom 
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So sorry your day has been so challenging, I cry every day still, it is exhausting. I do hope you have a more peaceful night
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Night night hope you sleep well
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Goodnight everyone x
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Hi mitzi1
That sounds fantastic that I would go to if I had some one to go with not.on my own it would get me.out off my home and enjoy some dancing wish we had something near us that did that
Sarah
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Night Helen I hope you’re day was good. I was able to get out with my friend and actually ate quite well too, as my appetite isn’t good at all. I’ve had tears tonight, in here alone it’s hard. I hope to get some sleep later 
. Have a restful night x
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Goodnight All hope you all get some sleep tonight
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Night night Sherbet, I hope you sleep well
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Goodnight @LJ.G
Glad you got out with your friend today. I hope you manage to get some sleep tonight.
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Thank you brummy. Yes it is such a strange process with all those twists and turns and definitely more downs than ups. Unusually I’ve had a good day, feeling well and content, until I tried to put the duvet cover on the duvet! I’m not tall, have poor eyesight and little upper body strength and live in a bungalow so can’t use the stairs to throw the bottom of the duvet over. It was a job Barrie snd I used to do together so just one of the hundreds of ways he wasn’t there today. I could laugh about it afterwards but at the time I just felt rage and distress , my poor little dog under the bed probably wondering what he’d done wrong. He has forgiven me and we had an outing together soon afterwards. But no wonder I’m often tired, so much emotional energy being expended. Let’s hope for a restful night and for you.
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My husband also died on the 17th October. We had been married for just over 37 years. He was the love of my life, we laughed, joked around, talked the hind legs off a donkey. We were just always together. I’m now lost, I get angry because he has left me. He was only 59 so shouldn’t have left. We were suppose to grow old together so I know how you are feeling. The hurt just doesn’t go away xx
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Hi Loveyababes, I’m sorry to hear that you are feeling so hurt. We are in a similar situation, my with died on Christmas day after two years of cancer treatments. We met at 18 and had been married almost 40 years. My wife and I had seven years until retirement and we had lots of plans. Now I have none, just surviving is a struggle but I was blessed to have been loved by such a lovely woman. Not everyone gets to know true love. Wishing you all the best
Tom
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Sorry for your loss, you sound very much like we were, my wife had to medically retire in her early 20s. She developed Asthma which went absolutely haywire, some of her attacks scared doctors. So I became her carer, I was able to continue at work as a milkman, although I would have liked to stop work to be there 24/7. 17years ago things changed drastically when my back ‘went’ in the space of 3days I went from fine, to struggling to put one foot in front of the other. I ended up signed of sick long term and eventually after failed physio & surgery had to stop work. We became each others carers as I could do the things she needed help with & vice versa. January 30th 2024, the day after her 50th birthday, which she’d not been well enough to celebrate, she was admitted to hospital due to dehydration. The next morning she text me to say she’d tested +ve for flu, so minimal visiting and as I also had a cold I was query flu too, so that was me not going in! Next morning she text me again to say they were moving her to ICU, then Friday morning the Dr looking after her called to say I needed to go in, she didn’t think the way Rachel’s breathing was that she’d got long. Half an hour later we got to her bedside, I hadn’t been overly worried by the call having been called into hospital a few times over the years. When we walked in I knew it was different this time she was on a Nippy machine but her blood oxygen level was still only 50%. At 12.05pm just 2hours after we got there she slipped gently from this world to the next.
I understand fully when you say about being angry, that you were supposed to grow old together & now your alone, without the part that completed you & all the future plans & dreams gone. We’d been together since a month before her 15th birthday when I was just 19, we’d known each other much longer as her brother was my best friend! Her Mum worked out once that we probably met for the very first time when she was 3! They used to live in the same road as me and there was a street party in 1977 for the children in our road, it was held in their back garden as it was big and her Dad ran a mobile disco so had the equipment for the party. I’m rambling on again so as you can see I can talk the hind leg off a donkey too, as could Rachel!
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Well that’s me awake at the ungodly hour of just after 5am.
This country living lark isn’t all it’s made out to be.
It only takes one of the crows round here to start and then the other 200 of them join in and it’s not your beautiful birdsong.
What a din..!!!
You can also guarantee anytime now the local farmer will start his tractor doing god knows what but enjoying himself waking all n sundry.
I’ll try for another hour just to put myself in a better mood for the day.
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Oh… and just to top it all the friendly pheasants have decided to join the chorus…
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Morning Sue
I’ve been awake since 4 at the moment it grey out but meant to be another warm sunny day.
Which part of Wales is your son’s caravan in? Yes I live in the country it’s dawn chorus but also mixed with a new neighbours noisy car exhaust that starts up every morning at an ungodly hour.
Hope you have a good day xx
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