@Punto
That’s good. We talked about my being here without him. We had so much planned and I know he wanted me to be happy. I need the time to make the adjustments to being no longer a couple. I’m determined I’m not going to waste anymore of my life to depression. None of us know how long our journey is going to be but we owe it to our loved ones to try to carry on, still sad at times but able to continue for the ones around us. I’ve taken a lot of positives from the few posts I’ve read and am humbled by the care and sympathy people have shown, while going through their own struggles.
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@Deb5 yes my partner was the same he wouldn’t go to the doctors either. He didn’t tell me he felt ill so I don’t know if it could have been prevented or not . It’s so sad x
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Aw … really 
why did they do that ? I dont understand it. But we were post covid too and lot of people were discouraged from going to the drs too … if you remember during covid xx
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Yeh i heard its a man thing too but its so sad to think they couldve been treated and yet they left it too late xx
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I dind it hard everyday to wake up if im honest ingo to bed hoping that i dont because i find days are very long now and im finding it very hard
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@Deb5 hi there yes I see a lot of us on here talking about the what ifs ? I suppose I’ve always questioned why Baz’ heart issues were never picked up , but he had no symptoms whatsoever. He was taking his meds for high bp and this was under control. I hate life without him .
Oh yea , having a baby in the family just gives us a bit of joy doesn’t it . They’ve called him Isaac William and he’s adorable 
he’s tiny though , unlike his dad who was rather large as a baby !!! xxx
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Is he only small - how much does he weigh? My grandson was a good weight at 8lb but they look so tiny dont they ? You forget how tiny they are? And isnt that funny : my grandson gonna be called - william arthur roy … roy was my husbands name 
had to put that in ofcourse 
my daughter adored her dad … she was a real daddys girl … xx
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@Deb5 well Isaac was 7lb 8oz so not tiny I suppose but he feels as light as a feather . That’s lovely that your daughter is including her dad’s name too .
William is so popular these days isn’t it - I think the traditional names are coming back round .
The last time I held a newborn was my nephews ! That was a long time ago too - I don’t know anyone who has a baby ! Well until Isaac . Dan , my son was 9lb 4 so definitely a lot bigger !!!
Yes a little bit of joy in our sad lives hey .
Take care xxx
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No hes not small really is he ? All mine were in the 8 lb mark. Is William popular ? Didnt know that but yeh all the old names are coming back xx
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@Deb5 he feels tiny !! He’s average weight though . He’s so cute though .
Yea , William is really popular these days ! Dan is already thinking ahead to calling Isaac iggy !! I love Isaac so I’ll call him that !
xxx
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Yeh it is average weight but youre right they seem very tiny and i suppose they are really … i loke isaac too … biblical name i named my son Joel … love that name but not seen the little sod for ages … hes so under his wifes thumb ! But we wont go there … hope you get to see your grandson again soon xx
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@Deb5 thank you - well I don’t understand what’s going on with these children of ours . I’m sorry you’ve not seen your son for ages . After seeing mine during the week, I can’t get hold of him again? They make themselves unavailable don’t they which is not right considering what we are up against. I realise they grieve too , but they do it in a very strange way xxx
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Theyre not grieving - theyre being selfish. Why cant you get in touch with him ? If hes not answering his phone he has blocked you this is what they do ! This is the sort of awful world we live in now when people cant even be bothered to even speak to a widow …
Such a sad state of affairs isnt it ? what a world !!! Xx
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What a lovely name. My 9th grandchild was born 7 weeks after Rob passed away they called him Jaxon Robert. My husband was Robert, and my sons middle name is Robert, so carrying on the name. Its sad when your kids dont answer your calls. My son and daughters all suffered with grief when their dad passed away and found it hard to talk to me as they were going through their own emotions. My daughter is doing a sky dive in a couple of weeks and has raised over 1k for the hospice Rob spent his last few hours in. He was in the paratroopers when younger, so she is doing it in his memory.
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@Deb5 yes I’m blocked again. He spoke to me after my dad phoned him - he’s now saying that as I’m due to move soon he’s not got time to help me . I despair. My own son won’t help his mother who is struggling with grief really badly and can’t think straight half the time . I don’t know when I’ll next see Isaac - apparently they’ve got things to do with a newborn. Yes I had one myself!
My DIL was very spiteful and went as far as to tell me unless I stop being so demanding then I won’t have a relationship with her or my grandson- how has the world come to this ? xxx
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I have absolutely no idea ? But i do know that some people are idiots and i have learnt that in the last 15 months at least… we just have to look after ourselves it seems and at least we got this lovely site where we can speak to other widows who understand x
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Children can be so cruel. Give it time and he will come round. It may be the pressure of a new baby and the loss of his dad that are causing his behaviour to be as it is. We all know grief can affect us all differently.
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@Deb5 well I’m getting fed up with being messed about. I asked for help as I’m moving my furniture from my flat into storage until the house is ready - that’s the plan !
He won’t spare me a few hours to get my valuable items and Baz’ things out . He knows I’m in a desperate situation. I would never have believed this of my son - he used to be wonderful xxx
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@Punto well I’m so fed up with life in general I will give him time . I fear the child will be held over me like the sword of Damocles and I’m not happy about this . Acting like a spoiled brat when he’s 31 on Monday .
I don’t care if he’s grieving, in fact I don’t believe he is truly grieving. If he was he would be capable of showing compassion because that’s what’s necessary when you’ve lost the most important person in your life . He can’t blame being overwhelmed by taking it out on me . I’m doing my best under a terrible situation and he could alleviate this by allowing me access to my grandson but he chooses not to . That is simply cruel and spiteful xx
Aw … that’s not nice is it ;( can you send a text? I not seen my son for 6 bloody months ! Hes a little sod xx
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