Thank you Rob05, sorry to hear that but pleased to some degree like me, you are taking it day by day & we’re surviving. Take care.
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Hi Nightwish1, well, we do have to have hope, as hard as it is at times. We each have to go through our own grief journey & all being well, come out the otherside feeling brighter 
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Hi Jim68, thank you for your kind words. It is tough at times but we all have to dig deep.
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I hear you, I get worried about things that I cannot change. Then I relax and think about how much love she had for me. I even think she knew about what her condition was as far to many scans, I suffer with lo self esteem and anxiety as well as mental health issues. I was told they thought I was suffering with adhd but I never checked out on that, so that’s the reason I think is why she never told me. I just wondered about her weight loss. We did not live together we were just boy and girl friend for nearly 20 years. I miss her so much. The other day I had a Robbin on my back fence looking into my kitchen lots of other things feathers etc. love and prayers to you 
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David13, I too get the Robin & feathers. Normally the feathers appear when i ask for a sign.
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Correct me to. My partner use to tie crisp packets into a knot and I had not seen one since her passing, I asked for a sign and later that day I was going to the shops and in the middle of the pavement a knotted packet. Coincidence I don’t no. All I no is I love and miss her greatly. to you.
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David13, wow, i do that, whater i have, sweet wrappers, wet wipes, all end up in knots. I do believe our lives aren’t the end, just like dogs lives the same. There’s more beyond that’s for sure & we will all meet them again. Keep asking for signs, i know it isn’t the same as having them here, we’d have them back in a heart beat but it is a comfort when you get that sign, whether you believe or not.
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Scamp I really do hope so that we do meet again. I can put my hand on my heart I will never let go of her. But till that day comes I will continue up holding her name. I now continue to get far away from grief and concentrate on jobs and what ever comes along. So praying for you.
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You will see a light soon. To be honest I think you are doing really well at this stage
I have days still where i won t get out of bed. I make a promise to myself that I will clean tomorrow. 9/10 , I do. Its them 50 ft waves again waiting to take me down again. I am so happy to share this with you, I am trying to change my mindset to do battle with this wave. I know for sure you will be able to do this. Scream at that wave , tell it bring it on, one day the wave will be gone and you will be left standing, braver than you were before, more confident than you were before. My 50 ft wave is still here, BUT it’s getting weaker than it was in the begining
Ive warned my neighbours they might hesr me screaming and yelling but everything is OK. They may hear profanities. It feels good, and you know what look up take a peek upwards towards the sky, is that just a tiny sliver of sunlight peeking back at you. Wanting you to feel better. The better you geel the more light you will see. Take care and look after yourself. Let me know how you get on
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Hi Lynnandy,
I am sorry you are on here. I wish you well in your fight against the wave. This morning i went on our old covid walk, around some fields about 1hour and half. I yelled out. I know we are all stronger then we think. It’s just scary feeling so empty and alone. Please let us know how you are doing in your fight. Take care
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Tyvm and ty for a lovely response. Sometimes I look at my partner’s photo and let her no I’m trying my very best to please her and keep my blinkers on so I don’t Se mr grief. I no grief has a valuable part in my process because without out it I wouldn’t appreciate how much I loved her and how much she is missed. Screaming is a good way that you have found works for yourself, for me it’s cleaning and my note book of how I’m feeling about anything. I won’t give in to grief but I tell grief bring it on because I think I’m ready with my duster and notebook in hand. Love and prayers to you.
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I know all of those feelings - you are not alone. I relied on my hubby for driving and feel it is too late for a refresher, plus all the paperwork etc., that goes on with car owning. I have managed online shopping which helps. I’m over two years on and it doesn’t get better as people tend to think you are ok after this time. We have no option but to keep going and finding something each day that perhaps if not joy, gives you a smile. It’s the worst feeling ever - stay strong.
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Hi Arti,
I managed to read for about 1/2 hour today. Which is a plus. It’s so strange how your life changes. Good luck on your journey. Unless you are on this path people don’t understand. Take care
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Thanks David, i occupy myself to distract my feelings whenni feel really bad & i’m getting there. Onwards & upwards.