Dear Rita,
You have such a kind way of putting things over. Your words of consolation mean so much as does the positive things you tell us about yourself at this point in the process of your grief. I hope you have a positive rest of the day and thank you again for your encouraging words and support. Tony
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Oh Rita thank you for the lovely words especially about Judith.The crying does get so intense at times and I cannot stop.Love Michael x
Just had a thought about that upsetting dream last night. What if Steve was crying because he saw me cry? What if my grieving upset him? So from now on Iāll TRY not to upset him anymore. I also feel strangely close to him as a result. Also, it seems to me that Iām in a waiting room and that sooner or later weāll be reunited. In the meantime Iāll live to the best of my ability and look forward to that day. If it helps me, maybe it helps you too! Love to all my grieving sisters and brothers. Xx
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Dear Rita
I think you are remarkably strong and resilient in your posts and find them very uplifting. They offer comfort which we all need at this time and considering how fresh your loss of Steve is itās absolutely remarkable. You obviously have very strong faith. Thank you and take care. Tony
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Dear Rita thanks so much, we are all going through separation but may something else continue 
Hello ā¦broke my heart reading your posts today ā¦have had such a bad couple of days where I canāt function Tired of crying and feeling like my chest is aching ā¦in bed nowā¦my safe placeā¦got through another day ā¦bless you allā¦x x x
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Lovely post Rita.A different perspective on our daily grief. Love Michael x
Hi Michael. Mike you. Hope you are okay. Not heard from you for a while. Annie are you okay. Also x
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Morning nel not going out today but thankyou for caring howās you got my granddaughter coming later lv hugs annie x
Morning Nel ,trying to be ok but very difficult as it is for all of us.What about you? I seem to be going backwards for some reason,I am grieving more and more for Judith even after 19 weeks now.I am finding living alone without her harder than I ever imagined.I am so lonely and very unhappy with this new life .Spend most of my time alone watching tv ,I have a very good friend who sees me a few times a week and that has been so helpful to me.I do a little gardenning when I can but will wait until Spring has sprung before doing much more.Snowdrops and daffs just coming out.My Judith would have loved to have seen them again. Much love and hugs Michael x
Hi Michael I was just wondering how you were. I know how you feel. Some of my days have been horrendous just lately. Canāt seem to go forward at all. Next month would be Peterās birthday and I am dreading it. Like you I still get very lonely. It is so hard on my own. Crying is a daily occurrence I have gotten used to it. Peter always liked the Spring for the flowers and the birds. He was an avid bird spotter. Thinking about you. Love Moira xx
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I thought that after 7 months I was doing reasonably well at coping, after all I had been away on a cruise holiday on my own at Christmas and whilst there were tears at times I had managed. As the weeks after that went by I was coming to terms with not seeing Sylvia again and the tears were less frequent. Last Saturday I decided to go for a walk on my own something I havenāt done for ages, although i go to the gym to keep fit., I live in an area that is hilly so the only flat place to walk is the local park. What started as a good idea turned into a nightmare, the memories of good times walking in the park with Sylvia came flooding back even the later days when she was in a wheelchair. Suddenly I realised that I was the only person on their own in the park, it was all couples or families. I started choking back the tears and when I got home the floodgates opened and I found myself back to square one absolutely howling. To make matters worse what would have been her birthday (Tuesday) was only 3 days away. On Tuesday I didnāt want to speak to anyone and unsurprisingly the tears fell like a monsoon. I am battling on because that is what Sylvia would have wanted but this just shows that this is not a quick easy journey. There will be peaks and troughs and we just have to face up to what life throws at us and honor the memory of our loved ones by not giving in.
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Hi Moira,thank you for asking,things about the same ,bad days and very bad days,not getting any easier is it.I know how you feel about Peterās Birthday and it is my dread as well when July comes round ,our wedding anniversary and Judithās Birthday ,it will be a very bad couple of days.My crying is getting worse ,I am missing her so much especially when I see the Spring flowers coming out that she loved so much. Much love to you Moira . Michael x
Just over 6 months in, Thought I was doing quite well, have been out for meal with 2 very good friends, had my highlights put back in hair, promised Keith I would do this, then opened front door this morning and daffodils Keith planted have come through nd flowered Iāve gone to pieces canāt stop crying, itās not fair miss him so much x
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Hi
I know exactly how you feel. It will be 34 weeks tomorrow since Ian passed away. Iām not doing too well to be honest so rarely venture into the garden we worked on together. I had to though last week and there were the snowdrops, that weād transplanted last year, poking their little heads through all the leaves. All the memories came flooding back along with the tears.
Itās such a living nightmare that we have to exist in all on our own.
Take care of yourself,
Julie x
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Hi Michael, Since last June, I have passed 3 firsts, my birthday, our 55 wedding anniversary and of course Christmas. I just have to get through Peterās birthday on 15th March. It will be very difficult that one because that is when I first met him too so I will have known him 60 years. We met when I was 15 he was 18. There was only ever Peter for me and there only ever will be. He was my absolute World, and I miss him as much today as I did the day he died. Like you I am still broken hearted and I know until I meet him again it will never mend. Love to you Michael. Moira xx
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Hi Moira that is such a lovely story.You have done very well to get past those dates.Teenage sweethearts that is so lovely.I met Judith at a job interview and for me and her that was it.I will never get over losing her ,like you and Peter she was my world. I too am broken. Much love Michael x
Absolutely Bob,ups and downs all the time,mostly downs for me at present.I like the way you describe your tears,monsoon and floodgates,this is me as well.You are so right this is not an easy journey,it is still a living hell for me.My life without Judith is so empty,the loneliness overwhelms me at times and I wish I was not around.This torture is draining me of the will to live.I will be 77 in March ,I have had a fairly good life so what the heck. Michael x
Hi Julie,so glad you have snowdrops coming out as I have that Judith planted .Daffs as well coming out.She was a good gardener,no a very good gardener.I cried when I saw them as like you they reminded me of her .She spent many hours in the garden with me trailing behind admiringly.Oh how lonely we are now. Much love Michael x
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I too feel like Iām going backwards. Had a pretty rough week. Crying all the time. The new tablets made me feel like a zombie. Not worth the bother. I just feel so lonely c
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