Do you learn to cope?
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I’m 9 months without my beautiful husband , 52 years together x the pain is still the same, I nursed him for 2 years with cancer and all the terrible treatments , watching your strong wonderful man slowly deteriorate in front of your eyes , going from 14 stone to 5.5 stone , wearing nappies 
his independence stripped from him, I kept him home his wish to stay with me . Watching my children begging their dad to please go knowing I had to tell him it’s ok to go , and holding him as he took his last breath so many emotions, anger , frustration, denial, not wanting to carry on , acceptance , heartache, physical pain I hate my life , he was my everything. I carry on for my kids and grandchildren . They have their own lives to lead, I’m on my own most of the time , so called friends vanished when Dave was first diagnosed. People tell me to remember the good times, but I’m still living in the horrors I saw I cry every day for the life I had , I feel robbed , feeling jealous when I see couples together , and feeling guilty for feeling this way. Ignorant people saying to me your never still grieving, I tell them I will grieve until I’m back in my darling arms. I feel able to speak honestly on here. I want to send my love to you all and know you are not alone x
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I haven’t, no one can take the pain away. 
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I know that feeling , being in a crowd of people and just feeling lost and so lonely x
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Loneliness is the hardest thing to cope with isn’t it love x
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It is so hard, & such a shock when u lose yr loved 1.
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Lesley I have a good idea how you feel, My wonderful wife was diagnosed with Parkinson’s in1994, six years later I gave up my full time job to work part time so I could look after her, going self employed a coupe of years later. Parkinson’s slowly robbed her of mobility and manual dexterity. I did everything for my darling. How she handled the Parkinson’s and put up with me was amazing, always of good cheer and up for going out and doing things. I wish I was still helping her. …
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Hi Lesley57 , I’m sorry for the horror you had to put up with.
I only looked after my wife for about 3 months. I tried to get people to come and see her for a boost. I know they live far away and have there own lives to lead. Nobody came, which hurt because i know we would have been down like a shot for them. Then again part of me is glad as they didn’t see her as she was near the end. That final night is a nightmare which i will never forget.
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I am sorry for your loss. I know your pain.
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Some people don’t understand grief i was married 52 years and the pain of losing her will never change empty home and a empty man and that will always be my love for her I eternal send best wishes and take care x
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I’m so sorry to hear this , the same here nobody came to see Dave , but I wouldn’t have wanted anyone seeing him at the end xx I understand your feelings about the last night , I will never forget it X take care x
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Yes love the hardest and most painful thing ever to lose the love of your life X take care X
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Yes love unless you have been through this pain when you loved someone so much you can never understand X my house seems so big without him , I to will never forget X sending hugs
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I know you do love X sending hugs take care x
I lost my husband of 50 years last September. He had been fighting cancer for two years. I didn’t get to be with him when he died as the hospital didn’t give me any idea that things were that serious. He’d been sick for two days and they were going to do tests. He only went in hospital the day before and I got a phone call out of the blue saying your husband is dying. When I got there he had died.
I’m lost without him. Don’t think I accepted it for a long time. I went from being at home with my Mam to being married at 19 and now aged 70 and living alone. I miss him being such a positive person who always could make me laugh. If I think about the future it really scares me. The only thing that keeps me going apart from my two daughters and grandchildren is the hope we will be together one day.
Much love to all.x
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Heartbreaking
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thankyou very much I’m trying meet diverent group but my life as been all about my favourite and my wife i worked till 66 then stopped to care for my beautiful wife and i no friends because my mane concern was my family take good care of yourself xx
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Lesley57
I Lost my husband no sorry my husband was ripped from 1 week ago we suffered for 2 years my profile will explain to watch him in soo much pain even when we ended in a hospice nothing controlled the pain and he had a blocked small bowel and perforation apart from a tube pain management which didn’t touch the side the agitation was the worse begging for god to take him when his pain was at 10. The horror is unbearable my darling was is the love of my life age 58 didn’t deserve that ending
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I’m so sorry for your pain , yes you are right ripped from us watching our darlings suffering so much will never leave me x sending hugs x
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How do I cope I don’t want to do this I can’t do this we were so in love and everyone tells me I was lucky that he loved me soo much how stupid I don’t feel lucky I’m unlucky we should have had 30 more years the horror of what I saw for the last 3 weeks will stay forever but I never left his side that i am grateful for another long day
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