I have started to do jigsaw something that I’ve never done before I find the help pass the time and they are a good distraction. Stop your mind wandering. I also tried to make myself go out for walks
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Hi @Cooki … You are doing really well , still continuing with your plans. I just don’t have any motivation to do anything . I hate this house now , it will never feel like a home again . But even me saying that . I could never move from it …it’s like every room every part of it has a memory of my happy life , when my husband was still here . Yes all purpose in life has gone . I’m a nobody in a nothing world . I do have good kids . But I try and take a step back from their lives … They deserve to have a happy life … without me being a burden …all we can do is keep plodding on . Xtake carex
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I have no close family either it’s a very lonely life ,I go for weeks without speaking to anyone except people in shops.I do small jigsaws online every day it’s a good distraction but it’s no life to be living this it’s just an existence.I know life’s what you make it but I have mobility problems so unable to get out and do much.
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I am so glad you have started Jigsaws. I had never done them before but a friend persuaded me to give them a try. I hate being on my own and find lonliness is unbearable so I am doing my jigsaws most of my time - when I cannot sleep I will get up early and do them.
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Have you tried word searches or mindfulness colouring that can take your mind off things
Hi @Pam14
Yes i chat to Nick all the time… especially if something goes wrong. I say… where are you when i need you!
Heavy heart every day 
cant sleep.
Ill have to adapt in the future.
Ive even see summer festivals… that me and nick would have gone to.
Im not going without him.
Nothing is going to be the same again 
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Nick would want you to enjoy the festivals I’m sure. Happy memories . Sending hugs x
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No life will never be the same again but I guess we have to try find are way round it all some how
We have to get though it the best way we can x
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Hi i resonate with what you say about being no one in a nothing world. I say ‘I’m Mrs Nobody’ now. I feel like I have lost my standing in the world now. I honestly hope things improve for me but it is two years and I still feel the same as the day my husband died.x
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@Loobyloo2 hi, It will be 3 years in september . How i have got this far without my husband .I really dont know ! I had totaly lost the me i was when my husband died . And i did actually like that me . I am finding now small pieces of that person are coming back .but i know i will never be the same , i will never be loved the way i was , never be somebody to someone . Never be completely happy again … the close bond that we had , has been broken like my heart . all i think we can hope for is to find some sort of peace .while we continue this life without them physically here with us . I know i carry my husband in my heart with me and always will . And i do and have to believe i will be reunited with him one day . Sending hugs ( i think we could all do with a hug ) xtake carex
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I feel the same. My daughter and her family live a good bit away from me and can only visit once in a while. I keep the garden and the house nice just for them coming. It keeps me busy but no joy or satisfaction in it for me. I do have thoughts like “why bother, whats the point” Ijust remind myself its for them. There is a dullness, an emptiness that is always there.
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At some point busy has to stop Pam. Cant keep being busy. We need to rest. And that’s when it hits us.
We have no resting state because as soon as we stop the thoughts rush in.
Thoughts are with you x
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I too lost my soulmate husband coming up to three years now .I still miss him so much not having him at home where we did everything together that is at weekends as he was still working full time even though well past retirement age as he loved his job and was a workaholic . I thought it would get better but still finding it difficult not having him to talk to and not having his support for advice . It does help reading that I am not alone in my thoughts Thank you
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Hi yes not being someone’s priority now is a hard thing to process. I think to myself sometimes that if I go out just to the shop no one would be worrying where I am if I’m out too long. Nobody checking to see if you’re alright. Nobody has your back. I don’t like it. Will never get used to not being someone’s significant other. Breaks my heart. Take care.x
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Hi what you say is so true I feel the same it so hurts
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Hi Loobyloo2,
Yr words were perfect and exactly how I feel.
I have grown up children but you know that yr partner always worried about yr welfare etc etc and that for all of us, was so comforting and reassuring.
Sending love to all on this forum.
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Yes
Significant other , got your back , held in another’s thoughts and arms . That’s why you hear such things as My other half
How do we live now like this , it’s beyond words so painful .
How do we .
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Hi Mandy,
I never feel good when I wake in the morning.
I am trying hard to reconnect and maybe make new friends. I have joined a club but I find looking at the events overwhelming. Are you getting out and about ?
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My partner passed away In January
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Hi Elite,
I was also with my partner for four years. Miss him so much
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