@Christina47 hi
No, im not going out yet. Probably when i do ill go over to Liverpool on my own.
Nick passed away 20th April on a Saturday, so thats a difficult day for me.
Ill probably go to an exhibition, get lunch. Look round the shops and come home like what me & Nick used to do.
Im going to the Chapel of rest today to see him for the first time and get him ready.
Its still very raw 
@Loobyloo2
We have 3 dogsā¦ if we didnāt i wouldnāt have got out of bed or gone out.
I have to get back for them and their routine. Probably the only thing keeping me going.
Hi Christine 47,
Such early days and still seems unbelievable . Miss my darling so very much too.
I am sure that we all feel the utter sadness every day without them .
Thinking of all the new friends on this forum.
Hi lovely photo. I hope your dogs bring you comfort and keep you company. I have a little dog and she is lovely and keeps me company but not very good at answering me when I talk to her. Itās just over two years since my wonderful husband died and I donāt seem to be improving. I just miss him so much and still canāt believe what has happened. I miss his humour, the funny faces he used to pull, his love for me. I could go on but Iām sitting here crying now. I hope things improve in time but know I will never fully recover. Thatās not being defeatist ā¦ just being realistic. Sending love.x
He sounds like a lovely man x
I spoke to them and was very honest (in a good way), we have set a date to go back out for lunch.
Hi @Loobyloo2
Aww i think i will be the same. I cant walk the dogs without cryingā¦ missing Nick.
Ive just been to the Chapel of rest. They got him dressed. I put everything into his coffin that he loved. Couldnāt fit it all in.
He looks like hes sleeping but i dont like the shape of his mouth. He had lovely thick lips and now they look thin.
Im trying to take comfort from it but its difficult 
I think i will be the same as you and nothing will be the same againā¦ heavy heart
I come on here to read how others are coping so if you need someone to talk to just drop me a message anytime.x
I donāt think anything will ever be the same again without are loved ones .I cry every day send him messages and talk to him heās been gone for just over 6 months I didnāt get a chance to say good bye he died in are bed
Take care everyone life is so cruel x
Totally understand x
Hi Iām sorry that you are crying everyday as I find it totally exhaust you. I donāt cry everyday now but at the moment I am very down. I just donāt like my life now and find everyday a struggle. I wish for better days ahead just to make some sort of life for myself. At present itās just not happening. Take care.x
No life will never be the same again without our soulmate. I too cry and talk to him all the time.
Lifeās so cruel
Big hugs 
I agree with you about jigsaws. They have really helped me through the long lonely days and doing them gives your mind a welcome break from all your emotions. They also seem to make time fly.
Anything that helps.
I wish all of you here some peace from your grief.
I am definitely going to try jigsaws - anything to distract yr thoughts for a little while must be useful.
Thank you.
Diamond painting is good as wellā¦I have purchased a 40cm by 60cm of a personal picture of my husband and myself when celebrating our 25th wedding anniversary in Sorrento just before my husband suddenly died. It came with over 30 thousand diamonds so going for take a while with a nice results.
Aww that sounds lovely Hazel 1966.
I think I would like to give that ago it sounds like a very good way to pass the time
Yes jigsaws have got me through many long lonely days.They keep your mind occupied and the time flies.
Same here! My husband died Xmas 21 so 2 and a half years ago. Compared to how i was in the first year i know i have moved on and most people i know would agree i seem quite ok and living a reasonably happy life. Sometimes i feel like i am acting in a play and trying to be what people expect of me.
Never going to be how i was - part of a loving couple. Dont feel secure any longer - nobody to turn to who is totally in to me. I am lucky to have a loving family but its not like having my husband.
