It is hard it will be my first year next week and I feel worse than I ever have
My family don’t talk about my husband there dad and grandad it’s hard isn’t it x
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@Nala … if iv given comfort to just one person that’s something. Iv been to spiritual churches too… just anything in the hope that there’s evidence they’re with us, and there definitely is. Iv been told things that no one would know apart from Jimmy. I talk about him every day to someone/anyone! . I don’t even care if they’re not interested,… to me, it keeps him alive, he’s still the most important person in my life and will always be with me. Keep their spirit alive, they may have had to leave us earlier than expected, but will be waiting for us 
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@Sable you are right they are with us . A good medium I saw told me about Andrew . Everything was right as he would say it . I am seeing her again in January. I hope he comes again . I bet I get on his nerves saying I miss him all the time but I am lost without him
@Jol …i think i talk to Jimmy more than i ever have. He’s probably saying… will you shut up! 
… I’m seeing a lady tomorrow…amedium , who does spiritual art!.. that’s another first for me 
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Just trying to be positive that there is some hope we will be reunited some day xxx
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Hi everyone, hope you are all well.
Sable as you know today is Dave’s anniversary, today the day when he left me, I am not sure what to do today, don’t feel like getting up from bed, but as you said, they may gone physically but they are still around us. Dave’s essence, consciousness and soul still around me. I believe in afterlife and do attend my local spiritual church. I had very interesting reading by a medium from Cornwall, around that time I was having so much pain in one of molar teeth, could not eat or drink, I had this problem for some time and Dave used to tell me to see a dentist, but always said to him they so expensive and no appointment, making my teeth worse by delaying, anyway during my reading with here, she suddenly surprisingly looked at me and said, “ Dave is telling me that you are having severe pain in mouth and asking me to tell you to see a dentist and don’t worry about the money”, I nearly fell off the chair when she said that, I never told about toothache to anyone, that was only between me and Dave, and I did not go because their high fees, only he knew that!! This is just one of a few other things I heard from him.
I’m going to get up to make tea, thinking what I do for the day, probably will sit around his ashes and photos, play his video and no doubt lots of tears, How did you Sable/Stuandali or others spend your loved ones first anniversary?
Wish you all very well.
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I went to the local garden centre for a walk and bought a remembrance rose for the garden. Then had a coffee and cake. I didnt want to be with anyone as it was my day to do what I felt comfortable doing.
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Hi Punto I feel the same, don’t feel like to be with anyone, just want to spend my day with him and talking to him. I was thinking to get his favourite food and watching his favourite drama or movie he recorded, they all still here. I feel like to take the car somewhere away so no one can hear me, and then scream his name out loud and cry!!
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On my husband’s 1st anniversary of his passing in May this year my daughter asked what I’d like to do so we went for lunch had a drink my grandaughter and her partner and my great grandson came we then went back to my daughters house to celebrate his life 
I so would like to go and see a medium but probably would make me feel worse if he didn’t come through reading your stories and your husband’s coming through does give me hope and like you I talk to him everyday its 18 and half months since he passed and I miss him terribly you all take care
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It was 1 year ago on the 3rd since I lost my beloved Alison.
On the day i sat with Alison at her memorial bench and reflected quietly on the year that has passed and if that awful day.
My kids came over and we had Sunday dinner together. Alison always made Sunday dinner and would have loved that.
2 days later, a picture of Alison I’ve had hanging in the living room above her urn suddenly fell off the wall and the frame broke😢 is this a sign from her telling me to carry on with life and to take the picture down and move the urn? I don’t know.
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Hi guys
I am struggling tonight, Dave’s anniversary was today, I tried to hold myself all day but failed to do! I am in pain and feel like my heart in million pieces and stomach will burst. I did everything to make it right, speaking to his childhood friend talking about him, keep going through all his photos, I feel like just going around and around in circle, can’t find any solace. I just want to feel his touch, hear his voice and hug him and say how much I love him and how he is meant to me. I’m struggling tonight, going through his clothing, smelling his essence. Feel like completely broken today, no hope or wish to live, want to join him and be with him!
I am sending this message because we all in a same boat and feel close to you then my own family, who has no idea what is feel like loosing your soulmate, your true love!
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I feel your pain it’s the Anniversary of my husband’s funeral tomorrow I miss him every day I Sit and talk to him I wrote to him. I miss him every minute of the day.
I Wish I could hug him and hear his voice once more
I try to be strong for the family
Sending hugs 
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Hi Pam14 thank you, I feel like lost my dear darling again today and all my pain and wounds open up wide. I don’t have a close family with me, so I’m own my on wondering around and again trying to find out what happened, why he has to go, how God can seperate soulmates!! I feel like it’s all over again, all the pain and grief, “ he is in heaven for the last 12 months and I’m in hail!” Feel like life I had was the life I lived with him, and is all over, no more life left, and would not have have without him.
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Hi AKM it’s a terrible thing we go through and we all do it in different ways there is know right way to grief for our loved ones I feel for you as I’ve been in the place were you are many times and it’s true family friends have know idea the pain we are going through, as people say small steps take one day at a time take care
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Well i managed to get through the 1st anniversary of losing Jimmy . His son Jack came and stayed with me acouple of nights which was nice. We went for a lovely walk and in the evening spent it with Jimmy’s life long friend Mark and his wife, one of my closest friend’s. Id be lost without them, they’ve been there for me so much. I love hearing the stories of what Jimmy and Mark got up to when they were younger . I had agood cry, I’ve cuddled his ashes, and now just have the 27th to get through which was the funeral. I’m still broken but i guess stronger.
I go every few weeks to the spiritual church. The very first reading i had was the best when i was told Jimmy was telling the medium i was writing him a book and he reads it!.. no one knew i write to him and I still do, just in the hope he’s there…somewhere
But I’m very lonely, very broken and have no purpose in life, I’m not sure who i am any more. I see friend’s… but most evenings am just home alone and in bed now by 8pm watching rubbish on tv! How life has changed 
… I’m thankful for this little group xxxxx
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Thank you sable, we all here to support each others and I am glade this little group keeps us going and connect with each other. You are not lonely, we all here with you, just come here when you feel need support. This is the group keeping me alive, talking to all of you, listening to you gives me hope and purpose.
I had a bad day today but same time the most beautiful day, I felt ever so close to my darling, my tears today dropped for the sake of love, we are lucky to have such a love in our life, grief is a reminder of that, just remember it’s a short period and then we all will join with our loved ones for the eternity.
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@AKM i went away abroad for the 1st anniversary . On the day I went to a beautiful church and lit candles for him . He has spoke to me from a medium . I am seeing her again in January
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Hi everyone
Everything you all say is so true. I’m in floods of tears every morning. I miss my husband so much. We had 10 years married but I was greedy, I wanted more. I know we will eventually be reunited (although he was married before. His first wife died, and I’m so afraid he won’t want me, although we did love each other very much) I would never do anything silly but I want to be with him sooner rather than later. My life here ended the day he died. There’s no reason for anything anymore. My life has no purpose anymore. I’ve got no family of my own and feel totally alone. He was my life and I’m just completely heartbroken.
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@Harriet4Bill … I’m the same, i have no family of my own, since Jimmy left I’m just here alone. My cat died too, she was v old so I recently got 2 rescue moggies, just so I’m not here alone! Mother and 7 month son 
…i forgot what it was like to hv a younger one… he’s driving me crazy 
I see 2 of jimmys sons often which is nice but just want him back.
The one thing I’m so thankful for… that gives me hope he’s around me is the message from a medium who told me things no one else would know!
I sooo need a purpose in life now but just no idea as to what! 
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I just want share to all my family here.
The Struggle to Continue On in Grief
Grief is a shadow, long and deep,
A silent vigil I cannot keep.
It clings to me in every breath,
A weight that whispers only death.
The world spins on, a ruthless blur,
While I am trapped where echoes stir.
Your voice, your touch, your every trace,
Are phantoms time cannot replace.
Each step I take feels lost, unsure,
Through endless days I must endure.
The light ahead, too dim to see,
Hope a stranger haunting me.
I wear the mask of moving on,
But in my chest, you’re never gone.
Your love still anchors, yet it chains,
A tender solace wrapped in pain.
How does one live with half a heart,
When all that’s left is torn apart?
The answer lies in this, I’ve found—
To carry you where love is bound.
So I will struggle, I will fight,
Through every dark, unyielding night.
For though this grief may carve and scar,
You live within me, where you are.
Ann Marie
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