A long time ago she did. We have had dozens of animals over the years & mum looked after every one of them as well as she would a child.
Animals really are special.
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I listen to a lot of audiobooks, though I often have to keep rewinding them as one of my issue with my grief is that I still canāt retain very much info & feel life my memory is now like a sieve.
Reasons to stay alive by Matt Haig is one that Iād recommend. He himself reads it.
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Haha you are right there ! 
Yes thatās an amazing book. I want to re-read that one, as I read it before mum passed but itās the one book I absolutely related to. Amazing author. I just finished The Humans by Matt Haig. I understand about not being able to retain information, I was the same until recently I started reading little by little. I find that my brain canāt remember things from
Before mum passed, like a mental block.
The Midnight Library by Matt Haig I also thought was pretty good - listened to that on audiobook.
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Yes thatās a great one too, was my first book of his x
I first listened to it just a few months after mum passed when i was feeling incredibly low and not wanting to carry on, so i think i really identified with main character.
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Glad it helped you too. Iāve given my book to my brother but I donāt think heās read it yet. Iāve never come across a book where, like you, Iāve related so much to the main character x thereās a lot of people on Matt Haigās Instagram who talk about this book and how itās helped them 
I have started listening to the midnight library & I love it @Ally6 @ @Sienna1 
I hope it all went well giving your statement yesterday Sienna & that you can now put that behind you.
Iām in need of some joyous news @VictoriaB1 - when this year are you getting married?
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Oh brilliant x really glad youāre liking it so far. Also try (if you feel like it) reasons to stay alive x
Anna- it was a long process and I was absolutely shattered mentally, so I stayed in bed most of the morning to recover and my brain felt so heavy. I will be contacted again about it, hopefully it wonāt drag on forever. Thanks for asking x
I finished reasons to stay alive. I started it a few months ago along with a few other books about grief but the combination provided to be too much for me at the time @Sienna1.
Hopefully they prosecute the courier for stealing your TV. Itās scary to imagine how many parcels they could have been taking.
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I agree, It can be a bit much. I havenāt read any specific books on grief, although I got gifted a book on grief for my birthday 2 months after mum passed and I found it made me feel quite angry- I put it aside and never looked at it again. To me it was insensitive, like a book is going to take it away. I guess they were trying to be kind but they didnāt know what to do.
Thank you - I just hope the tv is located and I get refunded thatās my main concern x
And yes I think there are many parcels that go missing there have been some horror stories Iāve seen online !
@Anna_321 hope youāve had an ok day today ? x Iām just reading and hoping I fall asleep earlier than usual xx
I hope you can sleep too @Sienna1.
Iāve had a headache all day but apart from that the same empty, lonely kind of day that they all have become now. I wish I could fast forward to a day when I could start living again.
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Try and rest tonight, headaches are the worst especially when they donāt go away. I usually take 1 paracetamol and drink water to take the edge off, try gently rubbing your head/scalp, last time i got rid of my headache like that. I hope you feel better soon x š©·
That emptiness and sadness is just always there isnāt it, I too donāt know if there will be a day where it will become easier to manage. One day at a time x live for now itās the only way I think xxx
Iāve taken 2 paracetamol & 2 ibuprophen already 
I get a lot of headaches that just wonāt shift with otc medicines. I do have migraine meds prescribed by my dr but this is just a headache at the moment so I donāt want to use those unless it progresses.
I hear what youāre saying @Sienna1 but Iām not ālivingā. Iām just existing.
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I am new to this site. I lost my beautiful mother on New Years Day. She was kind, warm, generous and had magical qualities about her words cant convey. I am devastated beyond words and feel life is not worth living. I am 51 and have lived with her most of life. I am only child and we were a very small family. The only light in my world is my amazing stepfather. He is is as devastated as me and we are both inconsolable. My mum had oesphagal cancer, which is an evil disease. It wasnāt well managed by the hospital. In rhe end she died suddenly and unexpectedly of a complication. The last since months have been devastating and traumatic - seeing her going from a very fit 75 year old to a shell. Her passing was very traumatic too so the shock is immemse. Although we were so close, I deeply regret some of the things I said when angry and will take these to my death. Her emotions could be complicated and I wasnt very good at handling them. Help - what do you do if you feel life is beyond possible? We are trudging through step by step but i cant imagine life without her.
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@Anna_321 I think Iām going to have to listen to midnight library,
Weāre getting married in October, something to look forward to and keep me occupied with the planning.
Howās your week going so far? Xx
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