@Anna_321 have you any plans to do anything on Thursday for your mum’s birthday? This must be an extremely difficult week, it has a huge impact on us, i know that I have to plan how I’m going cope with mums birthday weeks in advance. Sending you all the love and strength to get through the day Anna 
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I agree @Sienna1 and @Anna_321
You’re mum sounds like she had a great sense of humour, I hope to god that they are up there, the 3 of them, making friends and watching down on us. I do believe in everything for a reason, I have to believe for my own sanity ladies
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@Ally6 this was so relatable to read and so sad at the same time. You have said it just how it is for me too. I have accepted that my friends just don’t get it and never will. How this pans out in the future, we will see.
Your experience of identifying different groups of friends makes so much sense. I feel that this is the way I’m heading.
Sending love and thanks for sharing this xx
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I think sometimes @VictoriaB1 just knowing we all have similar experiences helps me feel a little less alone! 
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Hi @Ally6 that’s exactly how I feel, when I see messages from this group it makes a massive difference to my life x
Hope you are ok today x
Hope everyone is doing alright x
I forced myself outside today just for a little while, I said to my partner I’m taking my brain for a walk! My body is saying F off and my brain is just numb, I needed to do something, forcefully.
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@Anna_321 I agree with @VictoriaB1, you do or don’t do what you feel like x you can always message us here anytime 
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Totally agree @Ally6
My friends and family like aunts, cousins etc, they are so far off understanding words fail me x
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Hi, ues went to see my mum she looked beautiful. Laud flowers pictures with her. Mum looked alot better than in the hospital, she looked at peace. I am now worried about dad x
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@Anna_321 was thinking of you yesterday 
how did the day go? I hope whatever you did to celebrate your mum in your own way and heart, made you feel her love xx
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Thank you for thinking of me @VictoriaB1. 
I can’t feel mum’s presence at all & that really pains me. It feels like she has completely left me. It doesn’t get any easier.
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Oh Anna I’m so sorry you feel like that, sometimes the overwhelming grief clouds everything. I don’t know about the weather in London yesterday but it was clear blue skies all day in the north yesterday and when it’s weather like that, I feel like mums sending some sunshine down xx
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It’s so hard isn’t it. 
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How are you getting on today @VictoriaB1, @Sienna1, @Ally6 & all?
I never know whether the chat going quiet is a good or a bad sign.
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Im ok thanks @Anna_321 - been to a Reiki therapy session today, so just feeling tired, and i find saturday nights the longest of them all for some reason. How are you doing today?
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Did you find the reiki helpful @Ally6?
I’m ok thanks. Though I’m permanently tired since mum died. It’s as if I can no longer recharge my batteries.
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I personally find reiki beneficial but i couldnt specifically quantify it - sometimes a few days later i have had a big emotional release because it can help clear blocked areas. In the early months i used to find i felt much closer to mum during the sessions, probably because i was more relaxed.
Im the same re energy levels, it usually takes me until the afternoon to tackle anything. Are you managing to sleep at night? At the moment im not working but im dreading the prospect of finding a full time job at some point and coping with the hours. 
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