Oh Kate I could hardly bear to read your post. Lisa must have been the most incredible girl and you must all be so proud of her. It does make me realise how important it is for us to carry on living for them and to be here for the rest of our families. Our beloved children were unable to so we must for them. Much love to you 
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Dear Kate ,
What a beautiful brave soul your lovely Lisa was ( is), absolutely heartbreaking reading this 
she was so so very brave just as you are for getting up each day and carrying on just as she would have wanted you too and being there for her darling little baby girl Brooke 
God bless you Kate and one of these days we will all meet up and give each other a big hug in honour of our dear beloved children, keep fighting Anne and Deborah we are here for you always
Love Michelle xxxx
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Thankyou all for reading my post and being there for me and for all here.
Hope we can all meet after this covid is over.
It will be so lovely.
With love, Kate xx
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Kate I’m so sorry, what an amazing young woman you raised.
You must have been so proud of her. Its so heartbreaking and unbearable to have to let them go. I’m in awe of the people on this site still getting up in the morning and going on.
Sending my love to you
Anne x
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Anne my love, she was amazing. Jemma her sister was amazing too. She was at Lisa’s bedside with Jamie for hours every day whilst I looked after Brooke. Two amazing babies I gave birth to.
With love, Kate xx
Dear Kate and all lovely friends,
I would love to meet up as soon as we can. You have all become so dear to me xxx
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My heart breaks for you Kate.
All we have left is a million memories of all the wonderful times we shared with them. Its not enough.
Anne xx
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Hello Purple,
I have just read all the posts and what you say about if we turn up early on the other side, I can imagine Sam giving me so much stick telling me off that is why I stay around and yes we are changed as people. I too find that I am a character out of a play at times but I am lucky I can talk to my friends about Sam and they talk about him too so that really helps. I picked up something the other day that was Sam’s and started to cry its been just over 4 years so although it gets easier over time it is still there underneath.
Deborah, your load is heavier to carry with the inquest coming up. Please stay strong your daughter would want that sending you all my love
Helen
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Kate,
My heart goes out to you what a beautiful person she was. My best friends Dad has just died he was 90 had never been really ill in his life but he went to the doctor and they discovered he had lung cancer. They said we will start chemotherapy straight away. He said no please use it for someone who will have longer to live I’m 90 have had a good life. Like Lisa brave no matter what age to stare death in the face. Sam like Lisa was a very strong character and faced it head on. I know like me with Sam Kate you are so proud of Lisa and the way she dealt with everything.
With covid we appear to be going in the right direction, so lets hope we can all meet up soon, it would be lovely.
With love to you Kate
Helen
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Hi All
Your stories are heartbreaking and I don’t know how you have kept going. I shed tears last night reading your posts. Its so unfair that we have had to go through this and even more unfair that our children have suffered. I think of you all every day and your strength keeps me going for now. You are right Anne when you say we didn’t have enough time with them and I wish now that Id spent more time with my daughter. She was 40 and we spoke on the phone every day. How I miss her voice saying Hi mum. It breaks my heart every day. She lived with me for a month before the accident and im grateful for that time but it still wasnt enough. Its not just me my other daughter is on the verge of breaking down as they were best friends and her dad. I’ve just been in her bedroom for the 1st time since it happened and the pain is unbearable. I pray to God to give me some strength to carry on because to be honest I feel lost to this world. Xxx
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Dear girl, you will find the strength. Your other daughter needs you even more just now. It’s what keeps us going. Knowing how important we are to loved ones left behind. It’s what Mums do. We soldier on, heavy hearts for sure but we do carry on for them.
I know none of us thought what courage we would find faced with such tragedy. I know for myself, I have never been so scared or so brave at the same time. Minutes after having a complete meltdown when Lisa died, I washed my face and went out to take Brooke into my arms and kiss her, hold her close without a tear in sight. I have no idea how I managed to drive her back to our rented cottage, make her dinner and look after her when everyone else were unable to.
We get the strength somewhere though.
With love, Kate xx
Hello Deborough I know exactly how you feel Dawn used to ring me every night at 6 o clock she would always say hi mum .Her job was to be out on the road everyday and I used to worry about her.shewas 46 years old and she should be with us it’s just not fair.she was my rock I feel so lost without her her even after 4years my heart aches for her Iknow she would want me to get on with my life but life without her is unbearable.Take careMaddie xx
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You are all so brave . We are all so brave … my son collapsed and died in October 2019 and there was nothing on his post mortem that said why. I torture myself with all the things I could have said , should have done.
He had just moved into a new flat and we had helped him . Bought new furniture for him so that his flat was lovely . He only lived in it for a couple of weeks . He was only 36 . He was bipolar and they had recently changed his meds and he didn’t seem right . I never thought they would kill him though. I miss him desperately and can’t see the future as I want him to be a part of it . He was such a lovely , caring man . Always helping everyone and there for everyone . I will be retiring in a couple of years and thought we could do some things together , go places , have some fun . Alas it wasn’t to be and I somehow have to get through . I’ve perked up a bit this last week as lockdown bought me down further . There is light at the end of the tunnel hopefully . Stay safe everyone . Love to all , HJP xx
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Dear Helen
One thing we all know for definite is that we are going where are children have gone. They went before us which is our agony. However they are there waiting to welcome us when our time comes.
So it’s just a matter of waiting and living our lives with our loved ones this side. It’s not forever.
I still have desperate moments- 16 months on - but undoubtedly I have many more good days when I cope well.
Friends on here have been an amazing support- knowing that however I feel someone will have words of comfort and will understand.
I wonder if our children have met on the other side? Connected, because we are?
Love and hugs to everyone.
Purple xx
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That’s a lovely thought , Purple, our children meeting up as we have done here xxx
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It would indeed be a lovely thought. Their young beautiful faces sitting round a table laughing and having fun like young people should.
With love as always, Kate xx
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Oh that would be lovely if they are together all we want is they are happy and well love to all Maddie xx
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I do hope our children will be waiting for us on the other side and how glorious it would be if they have connected through us. Thank you ladies for your kind words which give me hope that I can still make something of my life. You are all so brave and loving. Thank you 
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Hello Deborah,
Kate is right, our other children do need us. For me it’s Geraint Sam’s elder brother he cannot even begin to talk about it yet and it is over 4 years since Sam passed. Eng;land were playing Wales in the rugby and that was something that John my husband and Sam would laugh and tease each other about mercilessly. John is English but Sam was born in Wales and has a Welsh father Geraint is English!! England and Wales played this weekend just gone and John brought Sams photo in to the front room to watch it…and then mentioned it to Geraint (a first) and Ger was so pleased that someone had mentioned Sam to him you could see it in his face.
I was so pleased John had done that, John is not Sam’s father but has done more for both of them that their real father ever did!!
I do everything I can for Ger, and he was awful for a time, but he seems very slowly to be mellowing and so kind to me laughing and helping me again a first!!
We all have to keep going we have no choice and for me Sam would be the first to kick my backside if I did anything stupid!! He wouldn’t want me there.
With love
Helen
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Dear all
Yes indeed - our children who’ve gone would not want us leaving here too soon.
I’m starting to picture the other side as a different country - that Henry is happy and settled there- he’s with his Dad who passed in 2013 and his cousin Oli, his Aunty Sheela and now his great uncle has joined him.
I hope he’s met your children and his great grandparents. I’m sure it’s an amazing and peaceful place where everyone is connected by love.
The postman should be delivering some Fairy 
♀ Garden
pieces today. I’m putting a fairy garden together at the front of the house for the little children that walk by. Hopefully to create some magic.
Love to everyone
Purple x
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