Sorry Michelle & Deborah,
the lady on the end in the black top and red trousers!!
xxH
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Lovely happy photos. Canāt wait till you are here nearby and we can meet. It is so hard to be the way we were .
I am so sad inside now, which is not the way I was before we lost Lisa.
This morning, when I was doing a poop scoop of the garden ( old Jeeves) he canāt hold on. Anyway, I digress. So I was up behind the dog kennel and I noticed a block on the kennel roof. When I looked, I literally nearly passed out.
Alan had got a stone to put beside the Highland Dancing pavilion with Lisaās birth and death dates and when she had dancedā¦ I knew he wanted this but seeing her name and the dates completely floored me. I was taking the dogs out and when I parked at the forest I could barely walk as my legs were so wobbly. I started off but had to take it easy till the pain passed a little.
I know you all can identify with me.
Thatās why we are here.
Love to you all.
Kate xx
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All looking gorgeous 
Kate, Iām sorry youāre feeling upset. Weāre so easily knocked for six. Something takes our breath away and transports us back to bleakness. Our new passports arrived (applied before they expired, no plans to go anywhere) We had our daughter and son on the back details as emergency contacts. It hit me I couldnāt put Joās on there. It felt like a ton of bricks and I couldnāt stop thinking about. Iām still thinking of how she canāt ever go on holidays.
Helen, your photos are lovely. Iām glad to have such good support.
Sending love
Chris
Xx
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Dear Kate
My heart breaks for you . Iām not able to visit Henryās grave because seeing the dates and his name is like a punch in the stomach. 
Iām so sorry 
Love and hugs
Purple
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Gorgeous ladies- how lovely to have them in your life. 
Good friends are worth their weight in gold.
Big hugs
Purple
Thankyou Purple and Chris for your kind words of support. Still a bit puffy eyed this morning as I couldnāt stop crying when I went to bed.
Anyway, another busy day ahead with getting the cottage here in the village ready for guests next Monday. Keeps my mind occupied as tomorrow heralds the day Lisa was rushed to hospital in Perth 2 years ago and the beginning of 9 weeks of worry and fear.
This is a photo of a friend and myself taken at a lovely hotel in St. Andrews. Jemma and I and Jemmaās friend and Mum had a weekend there in 2018. Thatās me on the right. Happier times.
Love to all dear friends. Without you I would be lost.
Kate xxx
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Kate,
You are so right something we can all identify with however long it is, I am sad inside sometimes when we are all toether I will go quiet and the next thing Jan is holding my knee under the table and Sue has put her hand over mine, and Sally says something funny and it always includes something Sam would have done or said and I laugh about that then it passes eventually. Exactly how Sam would want me to be. Not once have they left my side. All I hope is Nicola Sturgeon changes the rules so we can all come to the house and so can you and Alan
With love
Helen
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Hello Purple,
Whatever we are doing or wherever we are something will hit us like a ton of bricks. Grief is just like the ocean either lapping at your feet or cascading over you in waves.
All we can do is keep trying to stay afloat.
with love
Helen
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Lovely photo Kate,
Like Purple said friends are like gold and those that stay with us through the worst of times are certainly worth their weight in gold
xxHelen
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Me too Helen. Alan was fishing the first week of May just below that lodge where the river bends and widens to the left. He had to park the Landrover in a lay by just along the road to get down to the river.
If we canāt meet you there, we can come to Inverness or maybe meet in Strathpeffer. We will do it though.xx
Dear all, so lovely to see your photos and be able to put a face to you all. I am making a new garden so focusing on that helps. I am better when busy.
Gemmaās son, Coren, came over last night and we had such a lovely evening. Bless him he is a gorgeous young man. Gems would be so proud of him as I am. This photo was taken with Gemma just a few weeks before we lost her.
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Looking at this you would not think she had a care in the world would you? xxx
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Hello Victoria
What a beautiful young lady, and no youāre right. We never know what goes on inside.
Take care Victoria
love
Helen
Dear all,
Such lovely photos Kate sorry you have been upset about seeing your precious daughters name on the Stone, I know in time when itās in place you will feel a warmth and pride when itās in place and people just leave little things there in memory of her and it will be a comfort to Brooke ,
Love Michelle xxxx
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Dear Victoria,
Such a lovely photo and you are so right that your precious daughter would have been an expert at masking how she felt as she would be have not wanted to upset anyone but she is now forever smiling and free of the demonās and at peace, she will be by your sides always and forever 
Love Michelle xxxx
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Thank you Michelle your lovely words are so comforting. I hope she has found the peace that she struggled to find in life. āShe was too fragile for this cruel worldā. Xxx
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Sorry me again. I just found these words that I found comforting and hope you do also.
One day soon weāll meet again
How I long and pray for that day
To see your beautiful smiling face
And knowing that weāll never have to part.
I hope youāve found your place
And youāre happy, no reason to be sad.
A place where the days are endless
And thereās no worries for you to have.
But until that day Iāll hold on to you,
With the memories in my heart
Iāll try to face each day bravely
Knowing that one day weāll never have to part.
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Hi Victoria,Iāve not been on the site recently, but I came on this morning and read your verse and just burst into tears itās so beautiful even now Iām still crying when I readā¦so I just want to say Thank YOUā¦pass the tissues someone.
Marina xxxx
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