Dear Deborah
I hope you’re on the mend now and so sorry to read you have been in hospital.
Those uplifting moments when we get a sign are amazing….So infrequent for me I’m afraid.
Sending you love and healing prayers.
Purple
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Hi lovely friends. Well some of you will know that today is Lisa’s birthday. She should have been 33. We have been OK really and we’re invited to close friend’s for dinner this evening and we had a champagne toast for her birthday.
We had a great night, laughed a lot and we were upbeat the whole time.
Good friends know what’s needed and when.
Love to all.
Kate xxx
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She was there for you. Sending love and hope you recover soon.
All my love.
Kate xx
Dear Deborah,
I am so sorry you have been so poorly and am hoping you are getting better , how lovely to hear about your sign from your lovely daughter 
I was only thinking yesterday how we hadn’t heard from you and Anne for a while and then tonight saw your post, sending you a big hug 
and lots of love
Michelle xxxx
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Dear Kate,
Have been thinking about you as you were approaching Lisa’s birthday, it doesn’t get any easier but with the love from family and friends and of course your lovely Lisa by your side you have done it sending you lots of love well done us mom’s have to be strong because if we weren’t everyone else would fall apart .
Love Michelle xxxx
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Dear Kate
So glad to read you were able to celebrate Lisa sand all she means to you. You really inspire me
I’m so grateful to have had 30 years with Henry and I hope I can celebrate his birthday in October the same way.
As you say, close friends are amazing.
Love and hugs
Purple x
Hello dear Kate , I’m so pleased you had good friends with you to celebrate Lisa birthday. I am sure Lisa was there with you glad you were having a nice time. . It will Dawns birthday on Thursday , will get her her the usual sparkly balloon , , I can’t believe Johns X-ray appointment is on the same day , and luckerly our friend is taking him as we couldnt believe he has an appointment about the same time . I was dreading going back to that hospital on her birthday even after nearly , well it’s 4years 7 months today , and it’s still feels raw … Sending love to you and all . Maddie xx
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Dear all, I’m so pleased that you celebrated Lisa’s birthday so beautifully. I am sure she was there with you. As Michelle said, we mothers can not afford to fall apart. That is so helpful to me and being there for my family had kept me going through the last 3 years, although not easy.
We have had 3 family members suffering with Covid in the last few weeks including our grandson, Ethan, who ended up in hospital. Now his mummy has also caught it from him. Thankfully they are all on the mend now but we have not seen them for a few weeks. Take care everyone xxx
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Oh my goodness! I do hope your Grandson and his mummy recover quickly.
Lovely to hear your positive words.
We all keep each other going.
With love, Kate xx
Thank you Kate. Ethan is a lot better now, he was taken into hospital for X-rays and had a camera down his throat. They kept him in for just over 24 hour observation.
Tiffany has had both vaccinations and thankfully had a mild case xxx
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Hello Victoria , so glad your lovely family are on the mend , such a worrying time for you . It’s just another hard time you are going through. Thinking of you Maddie xxxx
How lovely Kate
So glad you and Alan got through and yes you’re right good friends are an absolute treasure.
Love Helen
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Hello Debotah,
So glad that you are now feeling a bit better. Your daughter was there with you quietly giving you the strength you needed to come through. Those moments are ines we cherish
Love helen
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Hi Helen
I felt her presence in my room it was very comforting. Since I’ve been out though I seem to have gone right back to the night that she died. I’ve been feeling like I haven’t moved on at all. That feeling of deep despair and grief hits me when I wake up every day. I think it is because I am so low at the moment. Does everyone else go through this at times? Today I feel that I just can’t carry on.
Love Deborah xx
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Hi Deborah I am so sorry for your loss yes I feel like that often I lost my son in December but it could be yesterday I have good days n bad days but I try to think what Jonathan would say if he saw me like that (he would come on mum you know I here with you I hope you have good days were you remember all the happy time my son like your daughter will be in our hearts and minds forever take care love Linda
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Oh my love, I really feel for you. I think that if you are recovering from such a severe infection you will feel very emotional and down. I know that last year, before covid, I had a flu like virus. On top of that we were seeing lawyers to sort out Jamie’s inheritance from Lisa as she didn’t have a will and they weren’t married. In Scottish law in this situation everything goes to the children. Therefore, Brooke would own half their home and all of Lisa’s work premises which was worth quite a bit. The stress from trying to get the judge to look kindly on Jamie was an absolute nightmare.
We were all grieving and the thought that Jamie might get nothing was hellbon earth.
Consequently I was in a worse state than at the beginning. Just in a black hole. So, yes it’s normal to feel awful a lot of the time but you will get you strength back and feel stronger and more able to cope.
Sending love and lots of it.
Kate xx
Hi tracyg i am so so sorry for your loss im totally with you they could stick there money I lost my son and 28yrs though doctors not listening to him he’s had a op and when he come home said he was in awful pain rang doctors who did nothing and he went out and got his own pain relief from God knows who and took too many which killed him I hope you get some answers you so rightly deserve my heart breaks for you take care Linda x
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Hi Kate
Thank you. I feel so lost at the moment but I am glad that i have all of you to keep me going and who understand the nightmare that is my life. I am feeling the loss of my kind gentle daughter so much and can think of nothing else. I keep getting invitations to go out and socialise with friends but I really don’t want to. All I want to do is go to bed and cuddle up to my daughter’s dressing gown. I can’t get past this feeling xx
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It’s a terrible time. We were asked out many times. Well meaning friends trying to ‘cheer us up’ . We only once accepted. It was to our first friends in the village when we moved here 30 years ago. Unfortunately there were others there and one in particular who is so self obsessed with money, she talked non stop about getting her Mother’s rings remoddled. Honestly, at one point I thought my husband or Jemma would slap her face!
I just sat there choking back the tears thinking ’ is that all you can talk about whilst I am struggling to cope.
One thing for sure, we cut loose those who don’t seem to realise how deeply cut we are. The wounds are so deep we can’t ever fully recover from them.
I hope you can eventually feel able to go out again but it’s really not a one fits all time scale.
Take your time, snuggle up to the scent of your baby. That’s what they will always be to us.
Sending hugs .
Kate xx
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Thank you Kate. Some people are so insensitive, they don’t realise that nothing in the world makes sense anymore, that material things mean so little, even food to me seems pointless. As you say the wounds are so deep that they will never heal, you just live with the awful pain. I’ve got to try and do some shopping today as I have run out of everything but can’t summon the energy. I will eventually drag myself there out of necessity. Always afraid I might bump into someone that might mention my daughter. It is a struggle that I know everyone on here has felt.
Deborah xxx
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