Such lovely and comforting words, Helen. Grief is the price we pay for love and we were so blessed with our precious children whose hearts we hold for ever. I have no doubt that we will all be reunited one day and we have to make the most of our lives until then xxx
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Oh Deborah that first year is complete mental torture and how we manage to survive it I will never know but somehow we do. Now,when i look back to those days there is very little I remember apart from taking the dogs out walking with tears streaming down my face and gardening,gardening and more gardening apart from them itās just a blur of blackness and sadness.but somehow we do get through .
Try and take comfort in the beautiful words Helen gave they are so very true.
Take careā¦thinking of you xxx
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What a beautiful photo, she looks so happy, enjoying her life, its so hard to accept they are gone.
Iām struggling tonight and realise still that I havenāt really accepted that Scott is gone. Itās too painful and I just miss him all the time
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What a handsome boy , my heart aches for you . With love Maddie xx
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Dearest Anneā¦I donāt think that we ever accept that they have left us we just learn to live along side of it, and as time goes on you will start having some good days amongst the bad ones, but even now after three and a half years I still have extremely bad days and I know they will be with me all my life, but it doesnāt mean to say I am not happyā¦ not the happy I once was, that will never be but still happy.,
I think you are doing tremendously well coping with going to work and everything else, Your son would be very proud of you.
Take care of yourselfā¦xxx
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Dear Anne,
Marina is right you have done so well and itās still so early days for you, I am 2 years 3 months I do have some good days and laugh but feel Iām just an empty shell void of emotions, just get up each day and do my duty as its not about me its for my daughters and husband, my daughters both struggle with anxiety and are only 21 so they need me so much and that basically is why am still here.
I know you feel similar as your son also relies on you, perhaps one day we will move further along and feel differently but for now we have to just keep on going and pray that things get better 
In the meantime reading all the positive posts everyone puts on here really helps me, sometimes I feel to empty to write a reply so I just put a heart this means thankyou for post and am thinking of you.
Love to all Michelle xxxx
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Dear friends, we have been away in Edinburgh visiting Jemma. It was a magical weekend in every way including the weather. However, just as we were about to get in the car to travel home, I saw missed calls from my sister on my phone. My heart missed a beat as it was a call I had been dreading for a few months. When I returned her call, she was crying and could hardly speak. Her husband of nearly 62 years had passed away in the car beside her. They had been out for coffee to their favourite cafe and were about to leave when she noticed he had got very white. She said he hadnāt felt well so she got him back in the car and set off for the doctors surgery. He passed away before she got there. Just sitting in the car, closed his eyes and passed. Although it was not unexpected as he was 88 it nonetheless left us in shock.
It brought Lisaās passing right back in front of me and I was shaking so much I couldnāt drive so we went back inside and sat for an hour till I could drive. Alan doesnāt know Edinburgh at all with regards to road layout so, although he offered to drive, I felt that it was easier for me to and I needed to concentrate.
I attach here a photo from the last few days, a perfect day think we have left a place on the log for Lisa without realising!
Love to all, Kate xx
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Dear Kate,
Lovely photo and the space on the log when you look at these photos after taking them and realise things like this they are so special .
So deeply sorry for the loss of your brother inlwaw so very sad for your sister 
thank goodness she has you to help her through her grief.
Sending hugs Michelle xxxx
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So sorry for your loss Kate , itās been such horrendous few years . We have lost 2 sister in laws this year and our niece is still in hospital after having a stroke Take care Maddie xxx
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Thankyou both. Crazy really but I had forgotten how the shock of loss can make us so drained. I slept well but feel completely exhausted today.
Love to you.
Katexx
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Dear Kate, sorry for your loss x
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Dear Kate,
I am so sorry for the loss of your brother in law. I think it brings it home to us how fleeting life can be and how important to live every moment. I will be thinking of you and your sister with lots of love xxx
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Thankyou all for your kindness. Just waiting to hear when the funeral will be as its a 6 hour plus drive so I will need to stay a couple of nights.
Love to all.
Kate x
Dear Kateā¦So sorry to hear of you and your sisterās loss itās a blessing she has you by her side ā¦
The photo is lovely combining both happiness and sadness.
Take care xxx
Hello Kate,
I am so sorry to read of your brother in laws passing, although for him an
Easier passing but such a terrible shock for your sister in law, and we all know how that feels regardless. The picture is so lovely and I am sure that Lisa was sat on that log with you, and glad to see all of you enjoying yourselves. Hope to come back up next year will let you know when,.
Love
Helen
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So sorry kate,
Meant sister and brother in law, got my in laws round the wrong way
Xhelen
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No bother Helen. Itās been such a shock although he was not great recently. I have been desperate to go and visit but there was no opportunity.
Kate xxxx
My daughter sorted out Kathryns bedroom this week and I finally plucked up courage to go in there. All her clothes are in black bags and Iāve just caught a glimpse of her favourite pyjamas which has just broken me. Iām sitting on her bed sobbing, it feels so empty and final and I just want her back. It is so hard to carry on, I feel that Iām just here for everyone elseās sake as I donāt care if Iām here or not. My life feels meaningless and ruined. How do you all keep going.
Deborah xx
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Hi Deborah, such a hard thing for you and your daughter to do so well done. The thought of Kathrynās pyjamas has made me feel very tearful and it has brought back desperate memories of having to empty Gemmaās house and all the special memories we hold dear of our precious children. Somehow we get through and often we donāt even know how we did it. I think baby steps help and being kind to yourself. Just do whatever you can manage.
I can hear how much your beautiful girl was loved by you and that will always be true. Keep her safe in your heart. Thinking of you and sending you so much love 
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Thank you for your lovely words Victoria , I donāt know what Iād do without you all on here
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