Thank you x
Dear all friends here.
I was very low yesterday again, no idea what has brought it on but probably the prospect of Christmas without our Lisa.
Jemma said yesterday that whilst setting up for her open studio Christmas event this weekend, she kept remembering the first one which had been Lisaās marketing idea. She was doing wreath making demonstrations and selling her wreaths and table decorations. Jemma said she was thinking o her the whole day and felt Lisa would be pleased with what she had done.
I guess Lisa was her helping her and guiding her . They were very close.
Their love for us comes to us in so many different ways.
Hope you are all doing OK today.
Love to all.
Kate xxx
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Lost my beautiful daughter 15th July.& I canāt imagine life without her . She fought this horrible pancreatic cancer. Only diagnosed Xmas went through the big op . Triple whipple.fior 6 months she did all she could to hang on but wasnāt to be .
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How terrible for her and for you. Life is so unfair. None of us expected to be talking on this site but here we are.
Our younger daughter Lisa picked up a virus on holiday in Majorca and as she had an underlying lung condition it literally wiped out her lungs. 54 days on an ECMO machine and then she got a blood infection so there was nothing they could do. At least on the machine she could sit up and speak, albeit very quietly, we saw her every day although they put her in a coma for the first week.
That time was precious, she could watch her wee girl playing in the hospital room but in the end I knew she was slipping away from us. 25th July 2019. Seems so far away now. The Mumās on this site have been so good for me and hope we can help you through this terrible time.
Take care dear and keep posting.
With love, Kate xxx
So sorry for the loss of your. Darling girl , when they fight so hard to stay with us The same thing happened to our beautiful Dawn, she fought untill her poor body had enough . Like Kate says life is so unfair. What did we do to lose them so young . Take care Maddie xxx
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Hi maggie i hope you find some comfort in this site.so sorry about your daughter .cancer i hate that word my sam had sarcoma a very rare cancer . He found out jan 13th passed 27th april 4 months .such sadness for all the mums and dads that have lost there children my sam. Was just 25 .this site has given me great comfort .i felt so alone .but people here understand and i thank them so much .keep posting we all sad take care zoe xx
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Thanks for your lovely message. So sad Sam was so young. Lives ahead of them xx
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Hi Deborah
You have been on my mind while I was going through the days around Scottās anniversary.
How can it be a year since we lost our wonderful children.
Thinking of you
Anne xxx
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Hi Anne
It doesnāt seem possible does it. I still canāt accept that it has happened. We had a remembrance event for her last Saturday and so many people came. Her dad hired out a restaurant and it was packed. It was so heartwarming having all her friends and family there. She is still so loved. She would have been in her element there, socialising and having a laugh. It is all so heartbreaking and I am really not coping . I have been thinking of you too and wondering how you are coping
Deborah 
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Hi everyone .i had covid booster thursday .and have had flu like symptons all weekend .feeling very sorry for myself . Just want sam .whys he not here.why was he taken just 25 .never hurt a soul . So need him back where he belongs .why has this happened to me and all you lovely people .its so unfair love to you all zoe xx
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Hi Zoe sorry you are feeling poorly, I had the Moderna booster and was ok but I have heard a lot of people have been ill with it. I am Missing my son so very much to especially as Christmas gets nearer, dreamt I saw him going into a shop last night ran after him to give him a hug but woke up in floods of tears before I could get to him. I seem to be crying at the drop of a hat these days especially when I go shopping. I thought 2020 was an awful year with Covid I thought 2021 would be much better, I could never have imagined loosing my son. I am dreading 2022 every month it feels he is further away , a new year ā¦I wonāt be able to cope.
Hope you are better soon , but I feel we will never get used to being without our boys tho .
Love jss xx
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Zoe, it is so hard, I feel your pain. My daughter passed away from cancer aged 33 in 2015. She was a teacher, she worked so hard and lived for her husband and little girl. It is brutal and you will be asking yourself the same things over and over again for a very long time. It is only people who have experienced this intense loss can fully understand.
Take care
Love Chris xx
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Hi Zoe I had my booster and felt so ill . I know you want Sam back it is a very dark abyss at the moment but I know together we will get through this dark time and we will never forget our children but we will be able to smile at memories xx
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Hi Zoe, I had my booster (pfeizer) several weeks ago and was very poorly for 3 or 4 days. If I am not well I become very tearful these days. I think the grief bubbles just under the surface and when we are Iāll it at a low ebb it resurfaces. I hope you feel better soon. Much love xxx
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Oh jesss i know my lovely its too hard .no one knows what tomorrow brings . We all could never dream that we would loose our children .i feel so sad and angry .you poor thing dreaming and then waking . Think of you every day much love zoe x
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Yes chris your right its alonely place .i think people think 7 months now i should feel better .im sorry you lost your beautiful daughter .this life not fair thinking of you all . It makes it feel i can say what i like on here .xx
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Thank you for your support .yes we all in this horrible place .how are you doing ajth love zoe x
Hi victoria your right .and i feel if i sit in .its all to much .very down thank you gor taking time to reply xxzoe xx
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I had flu jab 4weeks ago & have been poorly since. Been for Covid tests negative. My family think am pushing myself to much when am totally broken over Laura. According to my lovely daughter. Iāve lost my anchor. We used to guess who would win strickly as that is how she danced . Sheād danced from being 4yrs old . Fabulous gymnastic too . Just watching these programs the tears r streaming
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Funeral for my son tomorrow itās over 4 week . I canāt stop crying broke down in shop today . But the support of you all is helping so much love to to all and I hope one day it will ease for all on the site
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