Should of said he had always excepted Dawns passing , I think men are different .
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Oh Maddie so heartbreaking. I think Sarah should come round as we more than anyone know how short life is. At least she is texting you which is a start.
Sometimes when we lose somebody it is like a bomb going off and the family splinters.
As you know, my sister completely broke off contact with me as she disagreed with the service arrangements we made for Gemma. What is wrong with people?!
I will call you later for a chat. Sending you lots and lots of love 
Thankyou Victoria , I will be thinking of you on Tuesday , I know what you will be going through , leading up to an anniversary is the worse thing ever . Our minds seem to keep going back to that awful time , when we lost our. beautiful children. Sending love Maddie xxx
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Hello Maddie,
The only words I can give you is to get on with your and Johnās life. Enjoy what you can and leave Sarah to herself, text Jessy by all means, it was John who told me stand still donāt text donāt speak to Geraint and I didnāt for getting on for 7 months, Eventually Ger and Han asked us to go up for a drink over Christmas which we did and things sorted themselves from there. It was the hardest thing to doā¦nothing but it worked. Whilst I was always the one that crept back round Ger with phone calls text etc I think he thought it didnāt matter how he spoke but when he realised I had drawn away and stayed away it worked. You and John should get on with your lives, what would Dawn say if she knew this was happening try to think what she would say to do.
Love Helen
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Dear Helen, you are so right. I did that when I had problems with Tiffany (all caused by my sister again). I withdrew from her, she realised it was a mistake and came back to me. Our relationship is now stronger than ever and I think that is because she realised what she could have so easily lost.
So take heart, Maddie. Much love to you all xxx
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Thank you Maddie, I canāt help thinking back to her last days and all the questions I have. I would do anything to have her back with me 
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Hello Victoria,
These anniversaries are so hard, I will be thinking of you on Tuesday,
With my love Helen
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Thankyou Helen for your kind words . Since Dawn has been gone we (no me) have fallen out with Sarah 5 times . I no I am very touchy and when you have no support or kind words , I I get very down and I have a drink and tell them how I feel and it has got me me into so much trouble with Sarah What Sarah husband said to me the last time we spoke was unbearable , he told me all I cared about was myself and I was selfish It sounded like he was describing someone else . Dawn would say y Mum you know what they are like. She understood , I know she is looking down , and saying Mum I am not surprised all this has happened . But I do want to make up with Sarah . The other Grandchildren hate it when we are like this . Helen I am so pleased for you that you have sorted things out with Ger . Love Maddie xxx
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Victoria , why is it that anniversaries always take us back to square one again . . We always remember and live every minute of those terrible dark days . Sending love Maddie cxx
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Hi Zoe ,how has your day been? Itās been another bad one for me again, another melt down, just canāt pick up since being knocked back Christmas . I feel I am getting everyone else down to now. I can pretend somewhat to friends but at home I just break down.
love jss xx
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Hi all
I had some memory bears made from my daughters clothing. They came this morning and I am in bits. She should be wearing them. I just cannot accept that she has gone. I just canāt stop crying. I thought that having the bears made would bring me some comfort but it has had the opposite effect. Deborah xxUploading: 20220131_103728.jpgā¦]()
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Her nickname was Smaf. My younger daughter couldnāt say Kath or Kathryn when she was little so she called her Smaf! Deborah x
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Dear Deborah, they are so beautiful and it is a lovely thing to haveā¦ so precious.
We had memory bears made from Gemmaās clothing. Mine was from her favourite dress. I am glad I have it and so will you when the time is right. Maybe pop them away somewhere safe and warm until you are ready?
Much love xxx
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Deborah,
What a lovely idea, They are really beautiful, I do hope that they can give you some comfort. This is an awful time for you, please take care Deborah, Kathryn will be so proud of you as I have said I find it easier to talk out loud to Sam tell him how Iām feeling. It is a hard road we all travel but we will get there, we have no options.
All my love Helen
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Thanks, Victoria and Helen. She loved her dressing gown and Superdry hoodies. I do hope that I will find some comfort from them soon Deborah xx
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Hi Deborah
They are so beautiful .in time you will love to cuddle them sendy you love zoe xx
Hi jss .this is the worse thing ever theres no wrong or right in how we feel or how we deal with this horrific thing that has happened . I think in the beginning time has made it worse it makes it real. Its such a hard thing to accept we think there coming back love zoe ā¦small steps jss thats all we can do xxx
They are beautiful, in time you will treasure them just like your daughter would have done, Such a lovely way to remember our children xxx
Hi Victoriaā¦I will be thinking of you tomorrow, I know these anniversaries can seem more emotional with the passing of yearsā¦xxx
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