They do lift our spirits. She said today that Lisa is holding a big white daisy. We have a whole border of these in our front garden in the summer. Lisa used to love them for filling out huge mantelpiece arrangements for wedding venues.
Life is full of surprises.
Love to you dear friends.
Kate xx
Hello All,
I have been reading your posts and Kate yes men are different Alan is hurting when I sat talking with him in the deli his emotions were so pent up he was trying to be so strong.
Maddie, Dawn would want you both be happy and would be proud of you both. I am a firm believer in that our loved ones stay around us. I have experienced it for myself, I know when Sam is here I can tell. Talk out loud to Dawn ask her the question about should you and John be happy, you will get a reply and that will be a resounding yes.
All my love to you all
Helen
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Hi Helen and all you lovely people .im tryin to talk outloud to sam . In the garden on saturday i was telling him show me then where are you and the robin bopped right in front of me . My lloyd adverts now his song playing on the new one. I hope it is him saying im alright mum .because this is just t o hard. My heart aches so bad love zoe xx
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Hi Zoe I was just going to reply that I still have not yet seen the new Lloyds commercial and it literally just came on the tv. âI am giantâ, gave me goose pimples because of your Sam. I feel bad because if my boy could see me he would be so upset watching me crying all the time, but I am sure he would understand , it just gets worse , I canât see it ever getting better. Itâs feels so wrong for them to go before us and itâs unbearable. So so sad.
jss xxx
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Dearest Jss and Zoe. It is a terrible thing we have all had to deal with. At some point you will realise you havenât cried for a few days but that doesnât mean you wonât break down again when you least expect it.
We are having an ongoing bonfire in the garden after several trees having been felled after one came down in the storms.
I thought I would take advantage of this as I needed to clear out old account files etc from the Welsh dresser as we are having the painters in a couple of weeks. Of course I found old school photos of our girls, exam certificates , Lisaâs Highland Dancing certificates etc etc. The tears flowed, my stomach cramped and I sat quietly sobbing for our missing child. It never will go away it just gets easier to manage.
We will all miss our children every day for the rest of our lives.
Just keep going, little steps and donât expect to âget over itâ as so many people think we should. Itâs personal and it hurts for a very long time.
Take care of yourselves.
Much love, Kate xx
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Dearest Helen , I am always talking out load to Dawn , in fact John shouts out to me are you talking to me , and I reply no I am talking to Dawn . I am sure I ve had a reply not straight away , but sometimes sat in the conservatory a white fluffy feather comes floating down in front of us or a robin will appear. Finding some of their personal things are the hardest , I was sorting out a box of her old photos the pother day and I found an old diary of hers ? when she had her first serious relation ship , and it was just so sad . . We will never get over losing our beautiful children , itâs like they are frozen in time , trying to remember the good times is really hard , because at the moment all I can remember is the suffering she went through . And she didnât deserve it . Love Maddie xxx
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How mad is that jss . I know its the hardest thing ever . I cant believe its real . You cant help the way you feel .its heartbreaking. Its such a rollercoaster and we are waiting for them all the time but there not coming i hope we all in time learn to cope thank you all for caring xx
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Kate thank you for your kind words .your so very kind big hugs zoe xx
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Thats me maddie i can only think of the illness and the four months sam was poorly i hope this will oass he wouldnt want me sad take care zoe xx
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Yes Zoe , my husband keeps telling me off , saying a should remember the good times we had with her , and I can sometimes . But like you cannot get pass the site of seeing her suffering and taken her last breath. Take are Maddie xx
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Absolutely Kate. Such wise words.
We learn to exist with our grief. Thatâs all we can do until weâre reunited.
Hugs and love
Purple
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Zoe,
That was definitely Sam without a shadow of doubt keep talking he can hear you and listen carefully to your inner self and you will get answers.
Love Helen
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Hello JSS,
It will never get better but it will get easier to cope with. Your boy will be so sad to see you cry all the time:-
For you JSS
As I sit in Heaven and I watch you everyday
I try to let you know with signs that I never went away
I hear you when your laughing and watch you as you sleep
I even place my arms around you to calm you when you weep
I see you wish the days away begging to have me home
So I try to send you signs so you know youâre not alone
Heaven is truly beautiful, just you wait and see so live your lif
, laugh again, enjoy yourself be free,
then I know with every breath you take you`ll be taking one for me
Love Helen
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Beautiful helen xxxx
Thanks Helen xx
Two of Kathryns favourite things, the colour orange and Buddhaâs. Iâve put it in the sun room with her picture. In my mind itâs giving her something to look at. I miss her so much 
Deborah xx
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Thatâs nice Deborah.
We have Joâs photo in the living room facing towards the TV so she can watch it x
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Beautiful Deborah. Kathryn will be so pleased.
My young Polish friend sent me a YouTube of Sting singing Every Breath you take, Every move you make Iâll be watching you. I like to think thatâs what our beautiful children are doing.
Much love always, Kate xx
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Hi Kate
I am 100% certain that our children are watching and guiding us. Waiting patiently until it is our turn and we will be reunited 
Deborah xx
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