Hi Deborah it’s 7months since losing Laura am still crying everyday.don’t think it will ever change wish so much to be with her miss her so much. Hate every day having to get up & face another day . Sending love & prayers to you 
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Zoe I hope you manage to get to sleep tonight. Put your radio on tomorrow maybe Sam can arrange his song to play , wouldn’t that be great when you are celebrating . It will be bitter sweet but I hope the grandchildren help you through it . Thinking of you . Hugs jss xx
Hi jss .thank you for your kind words. Hope your doing as well as you can be .i always think about you.i cant really believe its sams birthday tomorrow .miss our superhero so much .the bravest boy i know . Big hugs zoe xx
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Thinking of you today on Sam’s birthday (Happy Birthday Sam) your lovely boy will be with you every minute of it… .With love to you and your family on this special day. Marina xxx
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Thinking of you all especially today, Zoe. Celebrate and honour your Sam’s life and we are all here behind you. I will raise a glass to him later and enjoy having your grandchildren around you … they can be such a blessing on days like this 
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Happy heavenly birthday to Sam , , . Have a beautiful day with your family Zoe . I am sure there will tears and laughter. Thinking of you Maddie xxx
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Thinking of you Zoe, Sam will be close.
Brooke just said the most beautiful thing when we were coming over to ours in the car.
She said ‘Do you know Granny, when I go to sleep at night I feel I am still in Mummy’s tummy’
She must be near her baby when she goes to sleep. I am sure of it.
Sam will be sitting with you today Zoe. Our love for them ensures that.
Love and hugs,
Kate xx
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Oh Kate that is so sweet . I am sure Lisa is watching over her baby girl . And children can sense it more than we can . Love Maddie xxxx
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Bless her beautiful girl xxx
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Hi ladies just want to thank you for all your kind wishes .and for helping me through this nightmare. Yesterday went well tears laughter.balloons .cake and vodka . But today i feel so very sad cried all day . Just want my boy .cant stand it its not fair its all wrong .it hurts so bad love zoe x
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Dear Zoe, well done for getting through the day and making it nice for your grandchildren. You have them to live for and they are so worth living for. This is for you xxx
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Ps Zoe so sorry you have had a bad day and hope tomorrow is better. Sleep well xxx
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Hi victoria thank you so much .your so thoughtful .how are you .your always up late like me .sending you a hug xxx love zoe 
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Hi Zoe. Well you got through the day and it sounded a great one. Sam would be proud of you. The come down the next day is awful but the weeping is actually a good thing. We feel completely drained afterwards but it gets it out.
Hope you feel better this week. We just have to hope that the good days outlay the bad ones.
Much love, Kate xx
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Dear Zoe, when we first lost Gemma I didn’t go to bed at all for a few weeks. I am much better now but my sleeping pattern has never gone back to how it was … not sure why but I stay up very late now so always here in the wee small hours! I hope today is better for you 
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Dear friends
I’ve not posted for a while but I’ve been reading your posts - I’m so sorry for your pain and sadness
that accompany birthdays, anniversaries and of course Mother’s Day which is looming.
I’m feeling strong and positive at the moment and I wish to send that to you all. Here’s a photo of me and Henry taken four years ago…it was a Mother’s Day lunch.
I’ve found I can actually say his name out loud without breaking down…that’s a good thing…it’s not consciously done…but it’s happening and I thank him for it. I know he’s sending me strength. I am focusing totally on the time I’ve left…I’m not thinking he’s gone as he’s with me every single day.
So for me it’s easing…I hope and pray it eases for you all too.
Much love and hugs. You are all amazing.
Purple
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The come down is . My face hurts through crying hope your ok kate your so kind take care much love zoe x
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Dear Purple, how lovely to hear that you are doing so well. I hope we all reach that place of acceptance. I do understand how you feel as I feel much more at peace now. I do still have my very sad days but they don’t last as long and I am able to get through them easier. I still struggle to look at photos of Gemma though but maybe we all have our Achilles heel. That is a lovely photo of you and Henry … you look so happy together.
I too talk to Gemma and know that I will be with her again one day. That is what keeps me going, that and the love of my family and friends. Much love to you xxx
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Thanks for your kind message.
I think what’s surprised me is that I never thought I could feel like this again. I’d accepted the grief, knew I’d carry it forever but felt the weight was so heavy. I’m forever grateful that I had Henry for 30 years…I’ve seen so many posts of children lost much younger
Trying not to be complacent……I know I could still fall but as you say getting up again won’t be as difficult.
This site is so helpful and the support is amazing. I wanted to give a positive message as when Henry first died even breathing was difficult- I had a complete breakdown. 
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We are all here for each other. Not to judge but listen and give hope that our loss becomes manageable.
Much love and hugs
Purple
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