Such sad sad stories.
One of the hospice nurses said to me, you are expecting the end but you will still not be ready. Could you ever be?
I wanted Katherine to leave her sick body, she had suffered enough, she wanted it too even though she fought to the end.
I was with her when she took her first breath. She will always be my beautiful baby.
With her husband Michael I was with her when she took her last. That wasn’t supposed to happen was it.
As others have said, you’re in a dream, a stupor, in a film, it’s not real, not true.
But it is.
Love to all, Ann
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Nell2 n VictoriaP. You are so rite. How many times do you come across people in your circle or on the peripheral, they announce everything from.
Wedding.
Birth.
Met someone new.
Got a new job.
Engagement.
Booked a holiday even.
All these announcements deserve a . Oh wow!!! That’s fantastic.
Good luck, I’m happy for you.
That’s brilliant.
Great news.
You give a handshake.
A hug.
A kiss.
Yet one or probably the biggest event we are ever likely to suffer.
Hi Jim. What’s new ???
My son was killed.
Then this is followed by.
A big pause.
A look of total confusement.
A look of, shit!!! What do I say.
Don’t worry, it’ll get better.
Or just a plain and simple. Oh rite, errrrh sorry I’ve got to go.
If it wasn’t so sad it would be funny.
When you come on this site you see over and over again people looking for answers. Half the time they don’t even know the answers to what.!!! It’s horrible knowing that they just have to come to the realization that there are no answers.
But I have to say there is hope. There is definitely hope. I can hold a job down. I can love again. I can take up a place in life. I can carry on.
Haven’t always wanted to in the beginning. So that’s an achievement in my book.
Jim .
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So good you have hope.
Every little success is actually a huge achievement and makes our children proud. It’s a way to honour them.
Love 
and hugs to all of you
Ann x
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Dear Kate,
Thank you for your kind words and support, the photo of you as a child is so like Brooke 
amazing! The bond you share with Brooke is so precious she is the light in the darkness 
Sending you love and hugs , Michelle xxxx
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Dear Zoe,
I totally understand why you did this and admire you for doing it people don’t realise that’s your precious baby and your best friend you couldn’t leave him all alone and it helped you so much on your journey
I am thinking of you as you approach Sam’s 1st anniversary , Sam will be so proud of you carrying on for your daughter and grandchildren and on this site the way you support others you may not think it but you have come so far since those early days and we all get that those bad days still come and catch you unaware at times but you always come back fighting, take care my friend.
Love and hugs Michelle xxxx
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Dear Ann,
I am so glad you were able to hold Katherine’s hand and made sure as she passed she felt your love
When I met with one of the medics who was with Matt he told us when Matt was near the end and he couldn’t do anything more to help he sat behind him and hugged him so he would feel loved 
we share a special bond, I thanked him and hugged him and said I was with Matt when he took his first breath and you were with him when he took his last breath he has done many things for charity to honour Matts memory marathons, climbed Mont Blanc and an Iron Man challenge, we stay in touch and he will hopefully be there for the bench memorial .
Sending you much love Ann
Michelle xxxx
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Dear michelle ,
Thank you for your very kind words. I looked back and saw the picture of matt very handsome .you must be very proud .like ive said before . I would be lost without this site . Thinking of you michelle sending you a big hug . The bench memorial sounds lovely in matts honor much love zoe x
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Thank you Michelle
Matt was lucky to have such a lovely Mum.
The love you all have for your children shines bright and keeps them close.
Hugs to you all, Kate, Zoe, Helen, Victoria, Liz, Jim, Deborah,
Marina, Chris, Sue, Purple, Kath, Nell, Maddie, Jss, Lorraine, and anyone else out there. It is wonderful to know you.
Thanks for being here.
Love Ann
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And love and hugs to you too Ann xxx
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Hi Ann
Hugs to you too.
Deborah xx
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Bless you anne xx
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Hugs to you Anne xx
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Hi.
I lost my son in October. It a sudden traumatic loss for us. Grief is tough and all I can say is take the journey with it. Do some guided meditation on grief. The biggest thing to remember is without love you don’t have grief. Because you love him so much that’s why your feeling it. Yes it’s hard to see a life beyond but you have to keep in your mind that he would want you to live. Talk to him regularly. Chat about your day. Ask him to help you to live along side the grief. Emdr helped me. Also a bit of shamanic work ( not for everyone) around my connection with him. Take care
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Hi everyone, I haven’t been on here for a while, but I’ve read all your heartbreaking messages and in a strange way I’ve found them very comforting. I also lost my only son last October with a undiagnosed brain tumour. A fit healthy guy but he had his life snuffed out just like that. I’ve started back to work on rehabilitation. It’s good to have some routine back in my life. I know I will never ever be as happy again. I go up to his bedroom and kiss his urn , he should never be in there , he had his whole life in front of him it’s so cruel . Love to everyone on here, Pete.
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Dear Pete, I should have mentioned you in my list of names, but thought perhaps you didn’t come on here any more. Some people move on. But we are still here for you whenever you need us.
Love Ann
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Hi Pete, I hope you are coping back at work. After I lost my daughter, my goal was to get back to work. I managed to get back after 9 months and it helped me so much. You are doing so well xx
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Hi pete nice to hear from you .good for you .we all here .look after yourself zoe x
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Hi Pete
I don’t post alot on here as I find that writing about my precious daughter Kathryn causes me great pain and reduces me to a heartbreaking wreck but like you I read all the posts. I light candles that are around her urn each day and I kiss it and a large portrait that is on the wall. I will send a photo of my beautiful girl.
Deborah
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