Bit of a muddle, but finally did it.
Neither Katherine nor her sister planned to have children, but they both dearly love(d) their brothers two.
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Well done Ann!!
Such beautiful grandchildrenā¦a lovely photo. You must be so proud of them.
Love Sue xxxx
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Beautiful little people! They will show you the way to live again.
Much love, Kate xx
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They are so sweet Helen. Brooke still has her glasses too. Itās a year now but her slight squint is improving. She can see fine without them but they are correctional.
I see your little one has pink glasses. Brookes are purple with the Frozen princesses on the sides! Bless their hearts.
I too get those awful feelings but other times I feel that perhaps when we die, we donāt know it and carry on living in a parallel universe as we were and that our children are all about us doing normal things. It comforts me to think that anyway.
Much love, Kate xx
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It is so lovely seeing photos of all your beautiful children and grandchildren. They are the reason we are all still here. xxx
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Hi Helen what a great photo, Itās like heās on top of the world,ā¦living and enjoying life.xxx
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Hi ladys been reading all your messages im back from dorset. Sad coming home and sam not here .none of it makes sense. The sea really made me calm and relaxed back to new norm my grandaughter Evie four today . Shes come round she said nanny sam can see me he knows i have a badge . And new pram bless her xx
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Another lovely little fairy princess.
She knows Sam is there, children are very wise.
Love 
to you, Ann xx
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Beautiful little girl 
ā¦Love Sue xxxx
Glad Dorset helped you relax for a little while xx
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Beautiful child Zoe. Bless her heart.
Much love, Kate xx
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Glad you had a nice time Zoe, your granddaughter is an adorable princess you must be so proud, so cute she says her lovely uncle can see her, I find if we include our precious children in everything we do as a family it helps us so much , I think Matt is always with us I canāt think he has gone I have to believe he is with us as I couldnāt go on 
on Mattās birthday we will celebrate him and have his favourite caterpillar cake, I think this helps everyone.
Take care everyone much love Michelle xxx
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Lovely photo Zoe , glad you had a calming time . Nothing like going to the sea . Yes coming home is the worst time , back to reality is the worse , I know when we used to go away Dawn would be on the phone as soon as we got in the door , wanting to know if we had a good time . Oh how I miss our chats , we would talk forever . Sending love Maddie . Xxxx
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Such a lovely photo of your beautiful granddaughter, Zoe. I think our other children, grandchildren and family keep us going.
I had such a bad night just couldnāt sleep just thinking of my Gemma and what went wrong, could I have done more, I feel as though I let her down. She must have been in such turmoil it breaks my heart. I only got a few hours sleep. I was due to go swimming this morning and nearly cancelled but so glad I went as it did make me feel better. Sometimes we have to force ourselves to carry on xxx
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Hi Zoe,
What a lovely little girl and she is right, Sam can see her. Children do have (I suppose what we call a sixth sense) because they are so open. Animals too have the same ability but as we get older in some people it does wane, but he knows and he knows too that you miss him with all your heart and he will stay around you of that you can be 100% certain. They never leave us they bide their time waiting for us. To them time is not an issue.
Love Helen
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Oh so sorry Victoria , you had such a bad night . I know when you try and go to sleep , I mind can wonder do much thinking about the last few days of our lovely children . I was on sleeping tablets off and on for quite a long time . Think what Dawn went through even after she passed ., the worse thing and I know it is morbid . How did they look after her . They would let us bring Dawn home . To think of her spending her last Xmas in that dreaded place , breaks my heart . Glad you had a relaxing day swimming , and it has cleared your mind . . Sending love Maddie xxxx
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Dear Victoria,
I am so sorry you had such a bad night, I too have nights like this knowing Matt was in pain and calling out for me, breaks my heart, we feel guilty as they are our babies and we are meant to always be there for them , but that isnāt always possible, we can only do our best which is what we did, Gemma and Matt left this world knowing how much they were loved and that we would give up our lives for them in a heartbeat, you are a wonderful mother and grandmother and Gemma was too delicate and precious for this world but she knew the love you gave her you would give to her children which is why she knew they would be well looked after when she left. 
Sending you much love xxxx
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Hi michelle everyone loves a caterpillar cake thank you for your kind words.
Hi victoria i hate night times and i know your body clocks up the wall.thats terrible we all have so many questions what ifs. Its like torture .its good you swim. Relaxing .thank you for all your support.
Oh Helen i really hope its true that our children are all around .Evie does say some strange things about sam. Thankyou for your kindness
And to all the ladys i havnt mentioned . Nighttimes my worse time so sad .this crazy world .another date coming up 25th may wednesday sams funeral how can it be a year .its like torture .its so real now .im so angry with the world
Sending you all big hugs .i dont know where i would be without your support 
zoe xxx
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Hi maddie yes coming home was awful. It really made it real .i sort of thought sam would be here . Thank you for your kindness much love zoe xx
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Good day everyone I hope the day brings more relief than the day before. Jim that was full of helpful information and hope for the future. I got up this morning, went and got some coffee and I went for a walk in the park. After my walk in the park I have a special place that I go and sit and look out over the lake and just reflect and cry. The weekends are the hardest for me because I used to do some things with my son. If I sit in the house I start getting down so I at least try to get out a little on the weekends. Baby steps.
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Hi Racy,
Itās difficult getting through the days when you spent alot of time with your sons and daughtersā¦isnāt it?
At the moment, with all the nice weather, Iām really struggling when I see all the young men walking about in their shorts, t shirts and sun glasses. I feel so resentful that theyāre all alive and Andrew isnāt. My partner tells me I shouldnāt keep being like that but I canāt help it. It just overwhelms me 
Love Sue xxx
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