Just want my boy back,its just to hard without my lovely sam . This wicked world .why take our children its so wrong zoe xxxx
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Oh Zoe I feel your pain and I totally understand how you feel I am sitting here writing in my journal about the same exact thing with tears running down my cheek. Hugs 
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And beautiful photos he looks like a loving soul
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Bless you .its just hard . Want to hug him tell him about the day .i dont like this feeling such sadness . Do you have to work tomorrow xx
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Yes I have to work Tomorrow some days I donāt feel like going but it does help. Today was not a good day. I hate feeling such sadness I really do but what can we do? Even though I try to do little things I still have the sadness with me.
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He was racy .a very special boy.cared about life . Loved his sister and the grandchildren thought he was there superhero .we all lost without him .my poor jess she cant cope but she has three children .shes lost all motivation bless her xx
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Thats right your very brave going to work .it prob helps .the thing is racy no one knows what tomorrow brings as we know .i try to be brave .but it really hurts so bad .i hope you get some sleep .sending you a hug love zoe xx
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Yes you just donāt get over it after youāve given birth to your child and theyāve been in your life for 20 30 40 odd years you donāt get over that easily but everyone else thinks you should except the people that have lost a child someone they were really close to.
You are right about that so my mom used to say the next day is not promised to you. I hope you get some rest too maybe tomorrow will be a somewhat better day as best as it can be.
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Where do you live racy the lake looks beautiful x
I live in the US that is the park that I go to I have a private spot up on the hill and I call it my grief Hill. I go up there sometimes and just look out at the lake and sit and cry.
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Oh wow thats amazing .try sleep lovely lady xxx
So beautiful Zoe. What a lovely, caring boy. Memories!
Much love, Kate x
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Donāt know whatās happening to my message but a flag has appeared. Donāt think I said anything inappropriate friends but I think something went wrong there.
Love to all.
Kate x
Dear Racy, we have all changed forever. We just arenāt able to carry on as we may have done before. I have never been one for being with lots of people. I like to meet one to one or for coffee with a couple of close friends. I feel safe this way. I think that I would just lose the plot if I had a few drinks with lots of people who have never experienced what we have. They just donāt realise what pain we carry within us.
Take care, much love.
Kate xx
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Anyone know why my replies are getting a flag? Sue Ryder support can you respond please.
Kate x
Kate I think thereās a thing that says you can only post so many posts in a row without anyone replying.
Does that make sense?
Now that Iāve replied to your post it should be ok.
Hope youāre okā¦and everyone else.
Just having my morning cry 
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So sadā¦this was going to be such a good year for Andrew 
Love Sue xxxxx
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I know how you feel. Today was the day 3 years ago when our darling Lisa was put on ECMO life support. From now until the 25th July, so many dates will flag up in my head and I too will cry my way through the day.
Sending hugs.
Kate xx
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Hi kate this is just wicked . I know life goes on but its so cruel .i hate dates now .as you say so many memories. My thoughts are with you sending you a hug x xxx
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These significant dates are hard for us but somehow we get through them. I find that the build up is harder than the day. I am already planning how I can change my significant dates next year. I have told my husband that I would like to go away and hopefully get through it all easier. Thinking of you all today with love xxx
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Hi @Lisa_s_Mum, I think @SueDav is right, itās a technical thing to flag any potential spam. I canāt see any flags on your posts here, I hope this puts your mind at rest.
Take care
Seaneen
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