Hi Helen , Wynne and Victoria , and all, well just got back from seeing a medium, who could only be about 30years old but she did have good reviews, went with my sister in law , but all I could say was I was not impressed, nothing she said I could not relate to , when it came down to the nitty gritty she said I angry and depressed at Dawns passing , and she could not gEt through as I felt like that . What does she exspect?So it was down to me My sister in law picked up a few things , but why do go on about names who are still with us , I want my daughter, I wanted to come out after the first 5mins as I know she was not goingto pick up my beloved Dawn. yes I feel angry and bitter what does she exspect. I do not think I will see another medium . But we went to costa for a coffee when we came out and the first thing we saw was arobin , who did not want to go . I think I wll leave it up to Dawn to give us messages when she feels like it Feeling devasted as thought she would come through with thE smallest of messages that is all I wanted to me going . Oh Helen can you send me Marcus . love Maddie
Hi Maddie
I hope you get something, Marcus here for me has been brilliant. So I hope you get something. How you feel about Sarah is how I am beginning to feel about Geraint. All I can say they are both fools.
with love Helen
Hello Maddie
I have sent you a private message through this forum with my number give me a call and I can talk to you.
with love
Helen
Dear Maddie, Helen and all,
Maddie I am so sorry you didn’t hear from Dawn through the medium. I am sure she will contact you as you were clearly so close.
I am very tempted to go to a medium as I would live to hear from Gemma. It feels so cruel that our children have been taken from us and we can no longer see them, hug or kiss them. I feel heartbroken all over again at the moment.
Helen, where is Marcus based because I would be willing to travel to see him. I live in Oxfordshire.
Sending you all love xxxx
Hello Victoria
Marcus lives in Bristol.
Hi Helen,
Thank you. I may look up his details as he seems to have been very helpful to you.
I hope you are feeling okay today.
V xxxx
Hi Victoria
It’s been a bad day but then I didn’t expect anything else, we are meeting all his friends tonight who have always celebrated his birthday with him and last year and this without…I’ll do my best
xxHelen
Dear Helen and friends, My heart goes out to you on these days when the pain becomes even harder and more painful. Knowing that our darling sons and daughters are not with us is so very hard to bear. Thoughts and what ifs keep whizzing round my brain as I try to make sense of what has happened. The injustice seems too much. We are want the same thing to have them back with us and we would give everything to feel their touch and hear their voices which are so imprinted on our whole being. How to keep going, getting up every day and going through the motions. What is it all for? There does not seem to be any answers just more tears and pain. Sending a big hug to you all x Wynne
HI. Wynne, we all know how you are feeling believe me , this year I think its been harder as reality has set in and we know we are not going to to see our beloved sons and daughters. The worst is we are coming up to another anniversary which we are all dreading.How have we survived?Perhaps it is our sons and daughters willing us on . What else can we do but give up ? and believe me a few times I nearly gave in to being with Dawn , that is all I want as our other dsauther has not spoken to us in nearly 3 months. Wynne please give Helen or myself a private message as we would love to hear from you , as we have been going through this awful time , with Dawn and Sam and Danial
Dear Maddie, Helen, Wynne and all,
Like you Maddie, I have come very close to giving in just to be with Gemma but quite honestly it is the thought of my grandsons that have kept me here, particularly Coren the eldest. After losing his mummy I have become a mother figure to him and have tried to keep him going. I am so proud of him.
I am so sorry that your other children are being so unkind, it is so very unfair and I think they should be ashamed of themselves. My sister has cut off all communication with me since Gem’s funeral but I am not going to let it get me down. I feel as though I don’t care after everything else.
I have been very tearful this week I think because of winter looming.
Take care and much love to you all. xxx
Dear Sal,
I hope you have managed to get through the week. I have ordered the book you spoke about and it does look as though I will find it helpful.
I am due to start back to work on the 5th November.
Much love xxxx
Dear Victoria, Helen, Maddie and all dear friends. I know how you feel when people close to you one seem to be rejecting us. Their thoughtlessness is just so unfair. I have been dreaming of Daniel this week and the reality when I wake and he is not here remains a constant torment. Like you Victoria I dread these darker days and longer nights. This is when Daniel suffered so much. I wonder how you are all copying. Sending love and hugs. Wynne
Dear Wynne and all,
So lovely to hear from you. I always feel as though I am understood on this site.
I am not coping too well at the moment and often feel bewildered, sad and tearful. Sorry to be depressing but the shorter evenings are making me feel worse.
What I would give for one more cuddle and chat with my Gemma. I would just gather her up in my arms and try to make everything right for her. The works feels like a cruel place at the moment.
I hope you can all find some bright spots in your day.
Much love to you xxx
Dear Victoria and other dear mums and dads, I know just how you feel. The dark nights are so depressing and it feels as if the world is closing in making the sadness worse. I am crying a lot more and I know I need to move on but finding it challenging. Today of all days will be the worse people celebrating Halloween. The dreams of Daniel are becoming more vivid and I am not sure why. Sending love as always. Wynne
Hi Wynne,Victoria and all…
I think at the moment I am feeling at my lowest ebb since Christian died,for me it’s a combination of long dark nights,Christmas which I am dreading but most of all the lead up to Christian’s first anniversary which is four weeks away on the 4th December… and it’s just making me fall to pieces…it is exactly 48 weeks today since I last saw him ,we had taken him out for lunch, then did some Christmas shopping and then we took him back to his apartment…when he waved us goodbye I never knew I would never see him again…if only I could go back and have that day again…
When someone is taken so quickly and without Goodbye’s it frightens you because
you realise it can happen to anyone at anytime …it certainly has changed me as a person…
Sorry to be such a downer…but it’s how I am feeling at the moment.
With love to all…Marina xxx
Hello Wynne, Victoria, Marina and Maddie
Like all of us on here the wish for one more cuddle, one more chat, is overwhelming, I too like you Marina am coming up to Sam’s anniversary…for me it will be 2 years yet it seems like yesterday. My eldest son is being absolutely dreadful to me at the moment and has been since August he will not even look at me or speak, so everything is so raw and all too close for comfort. Unlike you all I bury my head in the dark Winter months and try to watch as much trivial TV as possible to stop me thinking…as if!!! but I have to try, when Sam was with me we would watch TV together and laugh, so each evening I light his candle and talk with him and get a reply so quickly in my head that is the way I know he is around.
with love Helen
Hello Marina
It’s natural to feel down, I am like you dreading Sam’s anniversary and also Christmas and as I have mentioned before my eldest son Geraint is not helping matters. All we can do is do our level best to get through and then get Christmas out of the way.
Love to you all
Helen
Dear Helen, Wynne, Marina and all,
Helen I hope things improve with Geraint. Surely he must realise that you need lots of love and support.
It sounds as though we are all feeling more sad with the shorter days. I too watch TV just to try and keep my mind of what is now my reality and I feel very low in energy.
I am going to try and get out more though ad make more of an effort.
Much love to you all xxxx
Hi Helen
It’s strange how Christmas can alter from being a time we used to get so excited about to one that we now dread and just wish it was over…I am so sorry Geraint is still ignoring you does he not realise or care just what this is doing to you…is there someone who could have a word with him to let him know how cruel he is being towards you…I would think when he does come to his senses he will feel quite ashamed over his behaviour.
Take care…With love …Marina xx
Hi Marina
Thanks for understanding Maddie has the same situation with her other daughter as well. Geraint will eventually realise I think his wife is trying to stay in the middle. When I take Stanley back she always says thank you to me and puts her arms around me. He just sits there and stares straight ahead and will not speak so I always say goodbye he will crack eventually I just think he’s in a bad place at the moment xxxh