Hi Helen, Maddie and all,
Hope your operation goes well and you are soon back home Maddie and also that Cornwall is a peaceful time for you Helen. I will be thinking of you at this difficult time .
Salx
Dear Maddie, Helen, and all dear mums and dads, I hope Maddie you are making a good recovery. Yes, it is even harder when these anniversaries of our loved ones come around. I hope both you and Helen take every special care and remember the better times with Dawn and Sam. Now the Christmas season seems to have begun it is so hard to stop thinking of how Daniel used to love the run up with the lights, the wrapping paper and the buzz. Now it all feels so sad and empyty. I continue to have such vivid dreams of Daniel and he is on my mind most of the time. I canāt seem to move forward and want him back so much. I wish I had some faith that we will see him again in another realm but we all feel so robbed. I wish you all love and peace. Xxx
Hi Wynne and All, the pain just doesnāt subside does it. We all carry on with our general day to day routines pretending weāre āokā but inside, weāre crumbling. I seem to ācopeā for short periods then come down with a crash. Our children are always on our mind, just as they always were in life since the day they were born.
I visited my clairvoyant again this week and there was plenty to convince me that my daughter is around me. Details of current activity was mentioned as well as things from the past. So donāt worry Wynne about whether there is something beyond the grave. There is certainly a spiritual existence.
Love to all x
I have just lost my husband to pancreatic cancer on the 27th November. Its so awful seeing someone in so much pain that no medical help does anything. He wanted to live so much and I canāt bear the pain without him. He was my life
Dear friend, My heart goes out to you and I know the agony of losing your husband is unbearable. Please try to surround yourself with good people, lean on them and share your thoughts. Daniel our gorgeous son last his life to this horrendous cancer and he too fought so hard to keep with us. The pain was too awful and I continue to have flashbacks of seeing him trying to cope. People on this site have helped so much and now what you are feeling. It is especially hard at this time of the year. Everyday I continue to weep and keep asking whyā¦ Do what ever you can to get you through the day - walking, hot baths and sleeping if you can. Sending the biggest hug. With love to all. Wynne
Hello All
Bir, you are right like you Sam is all around me, and I take great comfort from that to know that we will meet again. I talk with Sam all the time and in my head quick as a flash I get answers back. I know he is none too happy with his brother.
Yesterday I walked through the door and realised that this is it, no more will I see Sam in this life and I broke down. But all I could hear in my head is mum Iām fine Iām hereā¦so I draw my strength to carry on.
with love Helen
Hi Helen, I was thinking of you on the anniversary of Sam. I hope you got through it and weāre able to remember the happy times. I know it is not easy, it brings with it sadness and itās difficult to bear. Why do we have to go through all this, rememberingā¦ When that realisation hits, as it does again and again, that we will never see our children again here with us is so painful every time. As you say, we try to get through as best we can.
Christmas is now looming. I continue to feel that I am just an empty shell.
Take care everyone x
Hello Bir,
Christmas is looming and I for one canāt wait for it to be over, and then to get past the New Yearā¦and carry on, I like you look around and see people enjoying themselves. All I want Christmas Day is a nice meal something on the telly and curl up. I am waiting for my daughter in Law to let me know if I can see the grandchildren over Christmasā¦as she said in her text āsorry I was out in London last night just on my way back nowā thank you thatās really kind (in reply to my text of what we have bought Stanley and the twins!) Will sort out planner later and let you know So much going on!"ā¦this is because my son Geraint wonāt speak or apologise for
what he said and shouted back in August to both myself and my friend who were looking after his daughters which we always did every Thursday afternoon. Now he ignores me and my husband. So much for the Christmas spirit! So I will soldier on and do the best I can, and yet I know Sam is here with me.
with love Helen
Hi All, this is my first Xmas without my son Ryan who was 24 when he passed away in March this year. Me and my younger son went to visit a medium last Sunday as my son was sceptical and OMG she validated so much to me and more. So many current things that have been happening that are important to me. I have no doubt our loved ones are around us and I do feel Ryan and he does give quite strong signs every now and again. I was told to keep talking to him which I always do especially when I am in the car on my own as they find It comforting to hear our voice too. I hope that this brings you some comfort, I was very sceptical before he passed away but so many things have happened and have been validated that there is no way I can be now. I know he will is with us and will definately be at Xmas to help get us through it x
Hello Tess
I am so glad that Ryan has let you know he is around, it is comforting for them and us to know that we can hear them. I talk to Sam all the time and hear him and I know he is all around me.
With love Helen
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Hello Tess,
Thank you for posting. That is so comforting. My daughter passed away in February and I miss her so much. I have been thinking of going to see a medium also so you have inspired me.
Take care xxx
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Hi Victoria, I hope you find comfort from this as I do. Ask around for recommendations so you know you are going to see a good one. Good luck and let me know how you get on if you do go!xx
Thank you Tess,
I donāt know anyone else who has been to one but I will look into it. I may go to a spiritualist church and will let you know how it goes.
I have found that since thinking about it I have felt Gemma closer to me but that might be coincidence.
xx
Hi Victoriaā¦I think you are like me,desperate to see a medium to hopefully get some hope that our children are still around usā¦but finding it difficult to go about finding one that is genuine,for if you are the same as me I am a very sceptical and i so want to believe they are still with usā¦
Keep searchingā¦Marina
Dear Marina,
You are right ā¦ I am desperate to know that Gemma is still with me somehow. Sometimes I get fleeting feelings that she is but then they vanish. It is difficult to know how to find a genuine medium as I donāt know anyone who has been to one but I will keep searching and will let you know.
With love xxx
Hi Victoria, what area are you from?x
Hi Tess,
Iām from Oxfordshire but woukd be happy to travel to see a good medium xx
Hi Victoria, the one I saw was on the outskirts of Luton. Let me know if you are interested and I can pass on her details. X
Dear Tess, I am interested. Woukd you mind private messaging me with the details please.
Thank you.
Take care xxx
Dear Marina, Helen, Victoria and all dear friends, And so Christmas Day has come and gone. For us it was a very hard day but I did feel that our boy, Daniel was with us but how we missed him. It breaks our hearts as we try to make sense of what has hit our family like some shattering earthquake. I wonder how you all coped. We visited the site where some of his ashes lie and the tears fell like hot raindrops. Somehow I know we have to keep going but I am glad that Christmas is over. For us this time will never be the same. I send the biggest hug to each and everyone and so dearly wish we did not have this suffering. With love Wynne