Jim
Yet again you hit it right on the nail, it seems to jump up at you and wack you round the head when you least expect it . It is as you say just a reminder that it will never go away
Take care
Love
Helen
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Such lovely photos of all your Grandchildren , they are all adorable . Dawn never had any children as she could not carry them , so I donāt know if thatās a good thing or not as we donāt see her husband , and he might of not let us seen the children if she did have any , But we do have Sarah 3 , , b they are all grown up now . Have had a bit of a weepy day , as last night I was sick , so laid in my cool bedroom facing Dawns photo , thinking about everything . So I had a dream about , , which is very rare , and woke up feeling really low this morning , as it was lovely seeing her smiling in the dream . Victoria , the words you put about the Grandchildren not growing up with an aura of sadness was so right . Children should grow up feeling happy , and well done to you , I know they have that . Jim lovely words what you say is spot on , it doesnāt take much to bring back sad memories . The times Iāve thought I have seen Dawn , I only wish . Take care everyone , and hope you staying cool . With love Maddie xxx
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Dear Jim,
We can all relate to this, today I met up with an old friend and we were chatting about my son Matt and she was saying how friendly and polite he was and how much she thought of him and I just got overwhelmed as that grief got me 
much love to you Jim xx
Helen your grandchildren are adorable 
they remind me of when Matt was young he was 3 years and 10 months old whenhis twin sisters were born, it brings back so many happy memories when I see your beautiful grandchildren xxx
Zoe your grandchildren are beautiful xxx
Love to all Michelle xxxx
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Thanks to those who have sent grandchildren pics, itās good to see smiling young faces.
Jim, as usual, has wise words to say. It really helps to read of other peopleās experiences.
I feel so alone with my grief, despite my loving family.
My husband died suddenly nearly 18 years ago. It was a shock and a sorrow, but I had my three children (two sons and a daughter) and I learned to rebuild my life. Losing my son Oliver is a whole new level of grief, and I canāt share it with his dad.
I have a partner who is very kind and Iām grateful for his support - but he doesnāt really āget itā.
My other children miss their brother badly. We all try to be there for Oliverās wife and his two children, we want them to learn to be happy again.
Iām trying to focus on that. But as a parent, I canāt see any end to my grief.
Thanks for listening.
Peace & love to all. S x
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Good evening all. Jim, your words of grief jumping out at you rang so true for me today. As I was driving I saw someone across the road who looked very like my Niall and its like I went into a trance staring athim. Suddenly someone started shouting at me as I had nearly driven into someone else. I went home and cried for hours.
Maddie , Iām sorry Dawn never had children, I too dont have any grandchildren which is another level of grief to bear. But it is so lovely to see all the other posts of granchildren, hHelen, the pics are so adorable.
Michelle, I know exactly what you mean when an old friend spoke of Matt and it overwhelmed youā¦its just constant reminders dragging us back to the depths of grief.
Susan my partner doesnt get it either and I find him more of a hinderance than help. A few of the other posts Ive read have said similar too.
Hope you all manage to have a peaceful weekend. Takec care. Sending hugs xxxx
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Hi ladies .i have been with sams dad for 32 years . And if honest we dont have a close relationship. Terry had two children from his previous marriage they was 7 and 8 when we met .ive treated them like my own .if im honest ive always felt like a single parent
Sam was not close to his dad . They did nothing much together we had a caravan and most of there child hood was there me teaching Them to ride bike .swim having fun . Now through grief im so alone .even when sam was diagnosed .terry was in denial i did the hospital the care the meds i did it all
And now i want to talk about our sam he cant im so angry so alone in my grief .apart from my jess who is struggling so much . .so yes i always thank you .because i wouldnt have got this far without you all .your kind and amazing. So thankyou big hugs zoe xx
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Dear Jim. You are spot on again. Yesterday it was very low cloud in the morning. The Haar we call it off the sea. Its always a sign of a hot day in the summer. Anyway , I took Brooke to Rollerbowl as soon as it opened at 10 am. We had two games first I won the 2nd Brooke won by loads. When we came out the sun was burning the hair off but we popped to Asda for a snack as we were both hungry. When I watch her earnestly eating her snack she looks so like Lisa. Same mannerisms. So then, sun shining we went to the big park in Inverness. As I watched her running about too and fro, my eyes filled with tears. Memories of her Mummy and Jemma at the same park 30 years ago. Yes Jim, the grief just taps us on the shoulder to remind us that we can never be truly happy.
Luckily the moment had passed by the time Brooke ran back to me. That happy little face made my heart leap.
Much love Jim and all.
Kate xx
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You are so right Zoe. You and your family deserve some happy. All of us on here deserve some happy. Weāve been through enough and somehow have to learn to live with the loss of our own children. Iāve been on here about 4 months now (seems like much longer!). It has made a lot of difference - to be able to say how I feel without someone saying āitās fine, get on with your lifeā. Itās not fine and my life wonāt ever be the same. Seeing others struggle and share their story has been literally, an honour. Those ahead of me on the journey have been honest about the lifelong struggle. Honesty is better than a sugar coated dream that everything will return to ānormalā when that wonāt happen. Knowing itās tough for myself, and hearing the same from others is some comfort. Nothing brings our children back but at least acknowledging that fact helps me to not feel quite so alone. We are all in the same boat and we are in a position to support each other on this awful grief journey. Thank you to everyone whose words and support helps all of us. Xxxxx
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Nell you support everyone .we all here for each other and i know we all thankful xxx big hugs xxx
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Well! At least the sun is shining.
I have had a bit of a roller coaster day.
First I saw a post on FB that friends through the MX5 sports car club had lost their cherished granddaughter aged 4. Tragic. I cried most of the morning bit feel I need to get the courage to go to the funeral on Thursday. Wonāt be easy.
Then whilst starting a clean at the holiday cottage my friend who helps me arrived in floods of tears saying one of her daughter in laws who is just ready to deliver her 2nd baby , had lost her mother to suicide! She has 2 young siblings 10 and 14.
Then whilst sopping I had a message from a friend about a mutual friend of ours who had collapsed yesterday, had a 10 hour operation in Aberdeen and was again in surgery due to severe bleeding. What day. All these poor souls suffering.
Why is life so cruel.
Love to all, hoping for a better day tomorrow.
Kate x
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Hi Kate, what an awful day, so much bad news, I feel for you. Take care. Xxx
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Oh kate thats Wful .we get days that you hear so much sadness you think whats this life about . So hard .hope you have a better day tomorrow much love zoe
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I know Zoe, I can hardly believe that we have had 3 awful sad events today. Still waiting for news of Issey in Aberdeen. Her son, Archie is at the ARI just now so hopefully will get news soon.
My husband Alan and I were sitting in tbe garden having a glass of wine and I said to him itās mean an awful sad day. I have cried so much mu face looks like I have been box.ing.
I was saying that I canāt go through the rest of my life feeling sad inside all the time. He said, my darling itās the nature of the beast within us. Sadness is always just below the surface.
Hey ho, I reckon he is right but we all try to put on a happy face.
Hope you are all OK.
Love to all.
Kate xx
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Oh kate thats just how i feel sad inside all the time ā¦my poor jess i feel loosing sam has just hit her hard . She was sobbing all night .looked like you kate like she had had afight poor jess she said mum i always thought i would have sam to grow old with it breaks my heart . .when you have three little kids you dont have time to grieve .i said theres no shame asking doc for help . This life so hard . .im sitting here with a glass of wine one or two or three . ā¦much love everyone xxxx
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Dearest Kate, so sorry you have had such a tough day. So much sorrow at one time. I hope your friend recovers quickly. Sending you lots of love xxx
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Dear Kate,
Am so sorry, what an awful day such sadness, it does make you sad when you hear of others having such a bad time, itās easier for us to empathise as we carry this sadness around with us daily as Alan says its always there just below the surface 
I have been feeling a great sadness for a few weeks now as one of Mattās friends who was with him when he passed away as sadly taken his life, just been devastating to be honest, canāt stop thinking of his poor family and friends, why do all these terrible things keep happening, sending my love to you all and yes I too have the wine out, cheers to all and pray for happier days ahead 
Michelle xxxx
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Iām just checking in to say goodnight.
Iām very sorry to hear of Kateās sad day - sorrow upon sorrow.
We havenāt heard from Deborah this week, but I remember that it will be her granddaughterās christening tomorrow - on the same day as her daughterās birthday. It will be a sad time, but also, I hope, a happy occasion. Hereās sending love to her.
And loving wishes to all of you. x
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Night susan
Hope your ok
Big hugs xxx
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Hi Deborah
Be thinking of you tomorrow .i know there will be mixed emotions but i hope you have a good day much love zoe
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Oh Kate I am so sorry you had such an awful day. I wish I could reach out and give you a hug.
Much love to youā¤ļø
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