Dear Friends. My niece bought me the book of The Boy The Mole the Fox and the Horse. Been on TV too.
It says so much about life. Our lives! Our friendships and our ups and downs.
Very lovely read.
Love to all.
Kate xx
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It is a lovely book. My daughter bought it for me for last Mothers Day and I do read through them. Such a lovely man 
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Hi, yes Victoria its lovely. One of the things that got me was the boy looking at his reflection in the water and saying we can see whats on the outside but not whats inside us. Made me think of how we all appear on the outside to other people but we are torn to shreds within.
Much love, Kate xxx
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Well I hope you got through Xmas the best you can the worse possible time ever , and I know everyone must be suffering in your own way . We have been waiting forvSasrah test results today , and they came in the worse , she has Lymnomah , she is being really strong , she doesnt want any one round here with negative outlook . But I canāt stop crying , how am I suppose to hide it . I am a week person after loosing Dawn . With love Maddie x
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So sorry to hear this very sad news Maddie.
Christmas was the worst one ever for me after losing our daughter this year and she was just 19 and she had a really rotten life since she turned 18. Our lives have changed so much over the last two years even before our daughter died, with sixteen other funerals including my dad, three uncles, an aunt, my partners dad last year, a close work colleague and friend , many other friends and close neighbours. The list of losses never seems to end. I fear there may be even more in 2023.
Our friends were so lovely to us over this Christmas period, but the pain inside was unbearable at times, Christmas Eve I was in meltdown for hours, our empty house made things just even worse.
I really donāt know how we manage to keep going on but somehow we find the strength somewhere to keep moving forward. Xx
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Omg Maddie! There are no words my love. Will be thinking of you all. Its hard to stay positive when faced with the worse news, we all know that but as long as Sarah is strong and has the strength to get through this, she will.
Sending love.
Kate xx
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Oh Joey , I am so sorry for ,you , oh so sorry , you have been through so much heartache , you are suffering so much , and so pleased you have good friends around you .Yes since we had the bad news about Sarah , I am still crying and feel guilt as Sarah is being so positive , and I snmm a total wreck whatās wrong with me , I should be the strong one one . . . . Maddie xx
Hello everyone, i havent posted for a while but i have been reading your posts and jut want to send you all a big hug. I have been up and down over Christmas but overall i would say im struggling 70% of the time. I had a call from the psychologist i had been seeing who advised me to get into a routine of getting up at the same time every day, having a shower then have breakfast before going out for some exerciseā¦ this is 2 weeks after losing my husband and my son in 2 days. I told herā¦ well thats not going to happen! Some days i cant get of bed! Iām sure she meant well but good grief, what planet is she on? I feel on the edge of despair most of the time and although i dont think im suicidal, i know im struggling greatly. Ive contacted various helplines but as yet have had no reply. Just where is all this support that they advertise because i cant get any. Thank you all for your help xx
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Oh itās so hard
I I know itās so hard , some days I just want to float away and die . Xx
My dear maddie u must be in peices its a shock . Its easy to say but you must be positive .with treatment its got good outcome .my dear friend wish i could give you a hug .my thoughts are with you and your family xxx love zoe 
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Me too Maddie, im just not coping x
Maddie you will get your strength your in shock at the moment dont be hard on yourself . It will be ok it has to be .you think oh my what else can happen .when sam was ill and jess got the tumor you think you cant take any more she had to have a big op two days after sams funeral. We get through all the crap thats thrown at us .sending you love and strengh maddie xxx love zoe xx
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It is so very hard ā¦ Elizabeth, we all cope differently and at different times. I think we should do whatever we can cope with and it is such early days for you. If it helps to spend your days snuggled up in bed then I think thatās fine. I spent a days in bed or lying on the settee sobbing. I think it is the body trying to process what has happened.
I had a bad few weeks leading up to Christmas.
Dear Maddie, such a huge shock for you all and so very hard to deal with. As others have said, it is very treatable these days. Sarah is being strong and I know you are when you are together or speak on the phone, but it is not surprising that you are struggling ā¦ hopefully you will feel better once Sarah starts her treatment. Much love xxx
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Oh gosh elizabeth she really has not got a clue has she ! As you say what planet is she on ? Not the same one as us . I gave up waiting for help after waiting a year on NHS and paid for my own, itās 18 months since I lost my son, my psychologist has helped me get through this Christmas which I was dreading . I would say just do what you want when you want for now , donāt put yourself under pressure itās too soon yet , you will still be all over the place. Hopefully you can find a better therapist . I had EMDR which I felt helpful. Take care . Hugs Jss xx
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Dear Maddie
Iām so sorry to read about Sarah.
Sheās being positive and you will too but no doubt youāre in shock. You are not weak my dear friendā¦be kind to yourself.
I hope you and John get strength from each other. Remember weāre all here for you.
Much love
Purple x
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So sorry to hear about Sarah. Itās a shock and you need a bit of time, your not being weak. You care. Xxx
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Oh Maddie, Never say you are not a strong person, you have lost a beautiful daughter which is something no parent should ever expect or be prepared forā¦so for Sarah to be taken ill particularly at this time of year is a massive shock for youā¦but thankfully caught in time she will make a full recoveryā¦Please tell her our love and prayers are with her.
Love to you Maddie be strong for your girlā¦Marina xxx
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Oh dear friends Thankyou for your support ,iknow you are suffering ,I still cannot Sarah is going through this tormant , she has never smoked, drank alwaways looked after herself . . Why should be going through this , itās just not fair . Why couldnāt it be me , . I still believe , God wants the best . Xx
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Hi Maddie
I am so sorry for Sarahās results. It must be impossible to try and be positive for Sarah. I am sure u will cope. U have come so far already. Remember we r all with u for support as r our departed. We r all here for u. I will be keeping u and Sarah in my thoughts.
Love and hugs
Pauline x
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