Hi Victoria
I know exactly what you mean when you say it scares you that you feel Gemma is slipping away…Today driving down a road that I had driven down many times with Christian I thought to myself that it was fifteen months since he had driven down this road and he would never drive down here again in fact he would never see this road again and that thought sent me into such a panic it was a such a strange and horrible feeling…
But our children will never leave us for they our in our hearts in our minds …we will grieve for them to the end of our lives, for the grief is the love that we had for them in life and that love is forever…
Be strong…love to you and everyone…it does help to know that we know how each of us is feeling, we are not alone…with love Marina xxx
I’m so sorry Tray really I am. My pea in a pod son left jan 2019 & I really do understand the special bond & relationship. The comfort, knowing you’re wanted & loved, feeling like life is good living with your mum. I know it & lost it too.
Hugs to you sweetheart x
Xxoo
Hello Maddie Wynne Victoria and Marina
Marina…you are right, grief is the price we pay for loving them and that love will last forever and forever our children will be around us. They will never slip away, not when they know as they do that we need them so much. All we can do is our best for them whilst we are here in this life. As I once said the easiest thing would be for me to close my eyes and not wake up but I will not put that pain on what is left of my family. Sam left me a feather yesterday it floated from nowhere on the landing down in front of my eyes. I had been to Bangkok and in the hotel where we stayed there was a little shop just selling elephants, all proceeds went to the elephant sanctuary. I wondered which one Sam would pick and was immediately drawn to a small elephant with a prostetic leg"he was called Moshu" and someone had cut off his leg and left him to die!!! but the sanctuary surgeon made him a leg. There were lots of elephants there all beautifully coloured but somehow I know Sam would have picked that one. So now it is placed by the side of his urn…
With love to you all
Helen
Hi Helen and everyone…Helen, I love the story of your little elephant you chose the right one I’m sure Sam will love it.
I just want to wish you all a peaceful Mothers Day tomorrow… I know it will bring memories back for all of us and with memories come sadness but better to have had those memories than non at all.
With Love and kisses to you all for tomorrow …Marina xxxx
Hi Helen, Marina, Wynne and all,
I also love the story of how you were drawn to the little elephant, Helen
Mothers Day is difficult for me now as I am sure it is all for us all. But once again we will ‘put our faces on’ and join in the day.
Wishing us all a peaceful day tomorrow and I will think of you all and light a candle for all our precious children.
With love xxx
Yes, you are both right…Mothers Day will be so hard. I will put out the card from Sam that he gave me on my last Mothers Day Sam always put on every card “thanks for everything you do” but when I went to see Marcus in the beginning he said “Sam is saying read the card I gave you last”…which was for my birthday and it said. Happy birthday Mum, with all my love always…that was April 2016, he died in the December…I just have a terrible feeling at that point he knew more than he was saying, so whether it’s Mother’s day, or birthday…they are all equally as bad for all of us.
with love
Helen
Hello everyone, Mother’s Day …another one of the dreaded painful days when we miss our children so much. We just want to hide away. But we can’t. As you say Victoria, we have to put the mask on. I like what you said Marina, better to have had our memories of our children than not.
Helen I do believe they are around us. Quite often near significant days such as this, anniversaries or days out, I will see a robin, usually very close. Yesterday I was walking with a friend and sure enough, not once but twice, a robin flew near me.
One thing which puts things into perspective for me is Mother’s Day for my Granddaughter who struggles not being able to give a gift to Mummy. I would be glad to triple my pain and struggle if I could take hers away.
To everyone struggling, I wish you a peaceful day.
XX
Hello Helen,Wynne, Victoria, Marina and all.
You are right another painful day coming up tomorrow , there are so many we have to go through since we lost our beloved Sons and Daughters.Have just put out the very last card I had from her, and it is just so so sad. Helen glad you got back from Bangkok safely and that Sam welcomed you back with his little feather.I am just hopingthat I might get a sign tomorrow as last mothers day, I was sat having breakfast with John, discussing how I miss Dawn and how I miss her comind round with a card , when all of a sudden my husbands phone (which he hardly ever uses ) started to play music . (could it possibly be a sign ) ,So i hope and pray the same thing happens tomorrow , then i will know . Hope you all get through the best you can . Love Maddie xxl
Hello Maddie
Your husbands phone ringing was Dawn’s way of letting you know she is around. Marcus says it takes time for them to learn their powers in the spirit world. I am so glad that happened for you.
with love
Helen
Hi bunks mum… So sorry for your loss its a pain beyond any words!!! I have not wrote on the site for a long time! But your post was directed to me directly so I wanted to reply. We both know the love of a pea to a pod and a pod to a pea and I painfully miss my mum pod! And you miss painfully you pea! I’m a daughter without her mum and you a mother without her son (physically) never emotionally!)… So I’m guessing tommorow mothers day is right at the front of your mind as it is mine… I’m really struggling I’m in tears as I write it feels so very raw. You are right knowing you are wanted and loved I don’t have that now I don’t have family or close friends I have my dog who is my world she is named after mum. I cry into her fur and know she needs me but I’m struggling to cling hang on as the pain and horrible memories feel are suffercating me. I have little comfort. I only try for my dog otherwise I could quite happily end it now. I got a balloon today that I will write on to release to for mum but it just feels and is such little to what I had with my pod and pea I used to love spoiling mum we where each others world. I just listened to the lion King song took my dreams with you and that’s just how I feel. I don’t see future without mum. I feel very traumatised by it and so very alone and scared. Mothers day is now retitled what should be day but now it’s painful to the core day… Life is very cruel and very unfair! We both know that! I send you love understanding and hugs… My god what I’d give for a hug with mum. I wish it was me that was taken I’d give my life for mum’s… No words do the pain justice. The loneliness is crippling. I just want my mum… Thinking of you bunks mum… Hope not made you feel worse! Xxxx
Morning Maddie, Helen, Victoria, Marina and all dear friends,
Yes, another hard day for us to travel through knowing that our beautiful sons and daughters can’t share with us. I really hope that somehow Daniel sends a sign. It has been a while since I have felt his spirit. I love though hearing about how others feel their boys and girls around them. Can’t believe that how many long days have passed since I heard his laugh and funny comments. All we have now is those precious memories which I hold onto and visit often. Dan always sent a lovely card with a sweet message. I have kept many of them but can’t put them out as looking through them is just too sad but I am glad others find comfort. Sending you all the biggest hug and love. Wynne x
Hi Wynne my name is Peter and I lost my son to suicide on the 13 of march.
Can I just say that I feel very deeply saddened for you as there is no greater pain than losing a child.
Can I take this moment to wish you Love and hope that you find some comfort in my words.
If I could put everything right for you I would ,all I can say is I wish you Love and peace.And hope
that one day you will see your son again.
All my love Peter x.
Dear Peter,
Such lovely sentiments. My cherished daughter took her own life one year ago and I know how heartbreaking it is.
I hope you can also find some peace.
Sending you a big hug xx
Hi to all you lovely parents just wanted to post this link that I felt strongly about today https://stillstandingmag.com/2019/04/01/a-bereaved-parent/
Thinking of you all and looking through recent posts to gain some strength after my first mother’s Day without our darling Sammo xxx
Hi Everyone…It’s my birthday the second one without Christian and I feel so down so low and I can’t stop the tears from flowing,we would normally when Chris was here be going out for a happy family meal…tonight I’m looking forward to having an early night…how life can change in seconds…
Love to each and everyone of you for I know that you know just how I am feeling
Marina xxxx
Hi Marina, so sorry you are having such a bad day on your birthday, yes I think we all know exactly what you are going through, , its just not the same anymore is it ? Mothers day was bad enough, then there is the anniversarys and then the birthdays ours and worse theirs, Dawn would have been 50 in July, and i am dreading it… Lets hope Christian is looking down on you and pehaps might send you a sign. Igoing to see another medium tomorrow with my with my sister in law, who has lost her Husband and Grandson, its only at the spiritualist church, but so desperate to get anything. Best wishes and hugs to you xxx Maddie ,
Dear Marina, we do know how you are feeling. It’s so unbearably sad that our whole world can change so completely. I am sure as Maddie said, that Christian will be looking down on you and send you a sign and I hope you are feeling a little brighter tomorrow. I am thinking of you and sending you a huge birthday hug xxx
Hello Marina, Maddie and Victoria
I know exactly how you feel Marina, it will be my birthday on Monday the 8th, but it will be my third, Sam died in the December so the one in '17 passed in a blur, '18 not much better and to be truthful this one isn’t going to be easy but I will put out the card he gave me for my 60th which he came to. The card read “with all my love always” every card I had ever had off him it would say “thanks for everything you do” but Marcus drew my attention to it when he said “Sam is saying read the words in your card”. It’s also a beautiful card one of the art deco ones from Clinton’s that I have always liked and also give to the girls in the family. So somehow I will get through talk to Sam as I do every day and just batten down the hatches…so to speak
with all my love
Helen
Dear Peter,
Thank you fo your lovely message. I feel so very sorry too for the loss of your son. This road we travel is incredibly hard and with the passage of time it never seems to get easier. I hope you have good people round you who can support and understand. Sending big hugs. Wynne
Dear Helen, Marina, Maddie, Victoria and all of us on this journey,
Yes, Birthday, anniversaries and special days seem to intensify the pain that we are all suffering after losing our darling sons and daughters. Some how we struggle to get through the day but the carefree memories of other times are so hard to bear. I get so tired of putting on a brave face and trying to look normal. I hold all of you dearly and hope some day we will see our darlings again. With love and hugs. Wynne