Dear All,
Just wondering how you are as we approach Easter. It used to be my favourite time of year but no longer. Gemma also loved Easter time.
Fortunately we have been invited to my brothers birthday celebration in Norfolk. I feel very comfortable with them and also very much loved.
Learning to live with my grief and the grief of the rest of my family is still hard as I am sure it is for all of us but what choice do we have?
We just do our best and survive the best way we can. Sending you all lots of love and peace xxx
Hi Everyone
I think Easter,Christmas every birthday every holiday we now approach them as just another normal few days the magic and excitement as gone out of them,but we have family around us whom we love and cherish and appreciate more then ever now and never take for granted anymore, so we put on a happy face and make these occasions the best as we can for themā¦
Have an enjoyable Easter Victoria with your family in Norfolk itās good to be surrounded by people you love and who love you.
With love to you all and hope you all have a peaceful Easter ā¦Marina xxx
Dear Marina,
You have put into words beautifully how I am feeling. The magic of those special days has gone but we can still be with people whom we cherish.
Much love xxx
Lovely words x
Hi Marina and everyone, I couldnāt agree more, it is all we can do as well as remembering our children. We can to Spain for a break and it has been refreshing. I have just visited a beautiful church and lit a candle in remembrance of our daughter and the wonderful memories she gave us.
Love to all x
Hello Marina, Victoria, Bir, Maddie and Sally
It is hard and the pain of putting on a brave face never gets any easier. All we can do is quietly reflect on the sons and daughters who we treasure and who will never leave us because they are locked solidly in our heart. In a quiet moment over this Easter I shall talk out loud to Sam and I know I will receive a reply. I know that as Sam was slipping into a coma on that dreadful day I said I love you Sam as I always did and he replied love you too, again it was always his reply ā¦those were the last ever words he spoke and I am very lucky that they were to me and when I struggle as I so often do I remember those wordsā¦he struggled to say them and they were very faint but clear enough for me to hear. I know that our loved ones are around us all the time and watch over us and because of that I cannot let him down and wallow for too long, I have to keep going.
With love Helen
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Hello, Victoria, Wynne Helen ,Bir89, Marina ,Sally, yes its just not fair what we are going through , my heart is broken thatās all I can say , and there is nothing else I can do to bring my beloved Dawn closer , we have her ashes with us from indoors , outdoors , in a grave with my husbands mum , to D isney World . Yes we are all putting on a brave face what choice do we have?Life goes on but it is a very painful life ,without our lovely sons and daughters . Hugs to you all Maddie xxxxxxxxxxx
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Dear Maddie, Victoria, Helen, Sally , Marina and all dear friends, I do hope you all managed to find some happiness over the Easter break. Some of Danielās friends spent the weekend with us so it was rather bitter sweet as I kept thinking how much he would have enjoyed their banter in the sunshine. If only one could go back in time but somehow we try to keep putting one foot in front of the other even though there is a big Daniel shaped hole in the heart. I know I will never stop missing him and craving for his presence. I decided back in July last year to try to run the London Marathon in his honour and now that day is just upon us. I am not and never have been a runner preferring a gentle stroll with a cup of tea and cake as a reward at the end. However, I will do my best tomorrow to complete the course and every step of the way I will be thinking of you mums and dads who have lost precious sons and daughters. I am well past my sell by date so will plod along and hopefully find the strength to get over the finish line. I am running for Sue Ryder who gave us such support at a horrendous time. Sending love and hugs to all Wynne
Oh Wynne, itās fantastic to hear that you will be running the London Marathon in honour of Daniel youāre wonderful son. I thank you now for having us all in your thoughts while you make your attempt. I am humbled. You will complete it Iām certain as you are determined and love will help you to reach the finishing line. Daniel will be with you all the way. It will give you a great sense of pride and satisfaction, there will be tears Iām sure. I wish you luck Wynne, have a brilliant day.
xxxx
What a wonderful thing to be taking part in will be thinking of you Wynne and Iām sure Daniel will be with you lots of love and all the very best sal xx
Hello Wynne , oh that is a lovely thing to do ,im sure Daniel would be proud of you , but donāt over do it. The things we do to keep them close to our hearts. It is so hard to know what else we can do to keep them closer, I have just found Dawns baby pictures, I am going to make a special frame to put them in , I still cannot bear to look at the other photos of her growing up ect, it took me 6 months after she passed to put the latest ones out of her ,it was just too sad looking at her lovely face.So good luck for tomorrow will look out for you on the tv . Maddie xx
Hi Wynneā¦What a fantastic thing to doā¦Daniel would be so proud of you and Iām sure he will be by your side every step of the way and also doing it for such a wonderful cause as wellā¦Good luck for tomorrowā¦Donāt forget to eat lots of spaghetti tonightā¦and donāt forget to tell us all about itā¦With love for tomorrowā¦Marina xxx
Thank you so much Wynne for what you are doing, you are an inspiration. I will be thinking of you and sending you love. Daniel, and all our youngsters will be sending you love and strength . So good you are doing it for Sue Ryder as well.
All the best for tomorrow, love Anneka x
Dear Wynne,Maddie,Helen, Saly,Marina and all friends,
Wynne you are amazing and I have no doubt you will cross that finishing line with your beloved Daniel close in your heart. I am sure he will be with you every step of the way.
We are all so proud of you.
Sending you all much love and peace xxx
Dear Wynne,
I have been thinking of you and wondering how the London marathon went ā¦ did you manage it?
Thinking of everyone today and sending love candy peaceful thoughts xxx
Dear Wynne,
I have been thinking of you and wondering how the London marathon went ā¦ did you manage it?
Thinking of everyone today and sending love candy peaceful thoughts xxx
Dear Victoria, Maddie, Marina, Anneka and all,
Thank you so much for your kind words and support. I did manage to complete the marathon although it was very hard from the twenty mile peg to the finish line. I thought of all our lovely sons and daughters which I think helped to spur me on. Crossing the line I did become very emotional as i know how much our young would have liked to have had the opportunity. I am not sure how I got the energy but felt it was from some spiritual source beyond my control. It has been a very humbling experience and has helped me in a small way to begin the healing. There will forever be the huge Daniel shaped hole in our family and in our hearts but the power of love transcends this world. I think of all of you and know the pain goes so deep for all of us. Sending big hugs. Wynne
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Well done Wynne thatās a fabulous achievement and Iām sure there was some spiritual support going on for you on that day! I was thinking of you when watching it on the TV xx
Hi Wynne, well done for completing the marathon! I can imagine how difficult it must have been but Iām hoping that the highs and lows of it all will help you on this journey we face each day. You should be very proud of yourself and also of Daniel, who was the force and inspiration behind your magnificent effort. I hope this has helped you to find a very positive way to remember Daniel. Next time I watch the London Marathon, I will certainly think of you and Daniel and how you included us all in your thoughts.
Take care
xxx
HI Wynne , well done you should be very proud of yourself especialy to get to the finish line , Danial would be very proud of you, its so surprising what we all do to keep them close to us. Like you said its a thankyou to Sue Ryder, who has helped us through an horrendous time, Best wishes Maddie xx