Dear Pauline, I also find it very difficult to listen to music now. Our house was always full of music all through the years my children were growing up but those memories are too painful now.
But as Michelle said, we have come a long way together and we should be so proud of ourselves xxx
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Oh Helen im so sorry about your dog not just a dog part of your family . And it hurts real bad take care my friend big hugs zoe 
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Thank you Zoe
I think it hit me really hard because it another piece of the chain
Love Helen
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So sorry Helen. I can imagine how hard it was x
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Same here when we lost Jeeves. Lisa adored him and we had him for 2 years after she passed. Nearly broke me tbh.
Love to you.
Kate xx
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So sorry Helen, we lost our precious dog Star end of January she was 13 and half, she had got us through the darkest of days, we are all heartbroken and like you say its another piece of our family chain, we take comfort in knowing she is with Matt 
sending love Michelle xxxx
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Hi all two years tomorrow we lost our beautiful boy. It still feels so hard to live this new life ,miss him terrible .i try so hard but im so sad but have to try because of jess and the children this life what it throws at us. Thank you for your love and support zoe
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Sending love and strength to you. The anniversaries are the worst. The pain of loss too much to bear at these times.
Hope you are surrounded by your family tomorrow.
Lots of love. Kate xx
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Thank you kate
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Lovely words Zoe, 
thinking of you and sending love .
Jess xx
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Oh Jess i think of you most days how are you .i know we found ourselfs here at the same times and your sons anniversary coming up xxx
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Hi Zoe , yes I always think about you too. I don’t post much anymore but I still read the posts. I feel Its just not getting any better and now I seem to have given up hope that it ever will. I just feel a complete failure and even after all this time some days I get out of bed some days I don’t , there does not seem anything to look forward to anymore. Like you always say it’s just not right and I have still not found a way of dealing with this new reality. A mother can never be prepared for such things.
Life kicks you down then expects you to just keep getting up. I suppose some people are just more resilient than others. Still time keeps moving on doesn’t it without our boys.
Love xxx
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Hello all dear friends , i have read all your post , and relate to all . I must admit I cannot play music anymore, as soon as I put anything on in the car all I want to do is cry . We have been out with friends today for a meal and they came back afterwards for afternoon tea and drinks . . But the last 4 months have been hell . And I had too many wines. But all I wanted to talk about was Dawn . . They were so understanding . But I know I should not have gone on about her . I do feel guilty . Nothing from Sarah , since her lovely news . , and my heart is breaking I just don’t know how she is doing , I so want to give her a hug . And I know I never will . Maddie xxx
Dear Jess, my heart goes out to you. It is still early days for you. It is 5 years since I lost Gemma and I never in a million years thought that I would be able to come this far. I hope this gives you hope. Sending you lots of love xxx
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Dear Zoe,
Lovely photos of Sam i will be thinking of you tomorrow as you remember your precious boy 
sending you love and strength to get you through another difficult day, remember he is always with you safely tucked inside your heart pocket
Michelle xxxx
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Jess i know theres no end is there .we just need a hug a chat i want sam to make me belly laugh like he used to . Always here jess to chat
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Hi michelle you always have lovely things to say thank you for uour support sending you big hugs love zoe❤️
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Dear Jess,
I dont think any of us are more resilient you just have to do whatever it takes to get through each day, in a weeks time it will be 4 years since our precious son was taken and i have only recently started to function better and take some pleasure in things, i was talking about it to a friend and refered to how i used to think of driving into a brickwall that was my everyday thought but my mother instinct as kicked in and i felt selfish for having those thoughts as what would my daughters do without me as i know they are struggling too and need their mom to be there for them, so this is what i have been doing living for them and keeping Matt’s memory alive everday we include him in everything, although he is not with us physically he is definitely with us and the signs he sends keep us going, like Victoria said she would never have believed it possible to have any enjoyment again but it is, our children would want us to carry on and they will be waiting for us when its our time, keep fighting Jess there will be better days ahead much love Michelle xxx
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Michelle is right, Jess and anyone else who is struggling. Like Michelle I keep going for my other 2 children and my precious grandchildren. They deserve to have as happy a life as I can give them,
I was determined that they would not have sad childhoods and bad memories.
And that is what I believe has pulled me through. As Michelle says, keep fighting. You have all of us here walking alongside you xxx
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My thoughts are with you today. I hope you find the strength to get through. Find happy memories of your wonderful son . Those cannot be taken away.
Much love, Kate xx
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