My son died at 47 of secondary bone cancer ,they think the primary might have been gastric. The day he died,I phoned he said his arm had been hurting all night, I knew that was his heart. My husband and I rushed to hospital , we were holding his hands .Then he said I have to go now,I said where. He said death they have come for me, then he went . I think someone did come,he was the bravest person I have ever see. He too died within 3 months of secondary bone cancer,but it was just about a week before he died that they said they found a 20mm ulcer in stomach. That is about 3 quarter of an inch.
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Hi friends old and new i feel i have to share with you my beautiful boy sams 29th birthday. I cant believe four years have passed .i feel i miss him more than ever. I wish i could hug my superhero .Happy heavenly birthday sam 
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Hi Zoe, it would have been my sons 29th birthday this coming Friday. He died 28th October 2024 from a brain tumour.
Your son has a lovely face. Xxxxx
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Thank you Ali .no one expects to outlive there children its not right is it .im sorry for your loss .such early days in this horrible journey . This site helped me through many dark days and nights take care lovely remember his always in your heart pocket
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Sending hugs Zoe, my son would have been 29 this year, he passed last year when he was 27. It does feel so wrong to lose them, and they leave such a large hole in our lives.
Thinking of all of those learning to live without a precious child x
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Thank you for sharing this, Zoe. Do you do anything to mark Samâs birthday? It is such a bitter sweet day ⌠the day our beautiful children were born which is always worth celebrating. They were here and they are ours
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Hi, I havenât been on here for a while but birthdays and anniversaries are so difficult. It will be 2 years on Monday when I lost my son, still feels like yesterday, however I am learning to live alongside the heartache we have every day. I have become so much stronger, less patience than ever if Iâm honest.
For anyone else just starting this awful journey all I would say is do day by day.
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Dear friends, old and new. Without our frienships made here on this site, i dont know how any of us could have coped.
Lovely photo of your Sam Zoe. Forever young. We had the best times with them and shared their worst. As parents they are always with us 24/7. The unforgotten.
Sending love and strength to you all, especially those who are new to this group and struggling. Someone will always answer you, no matter what the time.
Kate xxxx
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Zoe, Maddie canât get on to reply to messages but she wants you to know that she is thinking of you on Sams 29 th Birthday and all dear friends that are struggling xx
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Thinking of you and your family Zoe 
itâs this time of year again , so , so sad . Sending love Xxx
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Hello All
I lost my daughter 9 months ago to cancer. I donât think sheâs ever put of my mind for very long. I alternate between anger/sorrow/loneliness/frustration. Like many of you I slap a smile on when I face the world when actually what I want to do is slap out against the injustice of parents losing thier child.
I was reading an article recently and apparently the Sanskrit word to describe a person who has lost thier child is a vilomah.
I wish with all my heart that I did not need the support of people who are grieving for thier children. However, I do and I just wanted to say thank you for truly understanding how hard our lives are. I would not wish what we are going through on anyone. Much love to all , Jacqui
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Holly, you are in a safe space here as we have all suffered the loss of a precious child. There is no easy road but gradually you will feel more peaceful and the bad days will become less. Try and keep posting as everyone here understands ⌠this space has been a life saver for me, since I lost my beautiful daughter, Gemma.
Sending you lots of love x
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Really agree. It seems mean to be glad that you are not alone in your grief - but thatâs how it is - not so lonely, knowing other people are going through the same as you are. There are so many difficult steps and new âfirstsâ - it would have been my sons 29th birthday this Friday. We would have had his âbirthday listâ by now - very detailed and we would have been working out where we would go out to eat. I miss his kind, intelligent, patient, loving personality - dry humour and beautiful face! Sending love to all that find themselves in this painful place. xxxx
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Hi victoria, lisa,maddie ,jess,jim,nell old friends we have been on this rollercoaster ride of grief .i dont know where i would be without the help and support of you all .it makes me sad so many more people find there selfs here all i say to new friends pour your heart out no one judges on here.theres always support night and day .we all in this together⌠victoria why cant maddie come on is she ok ⌠today we let balloons of for sam and i bought the grandchildren ben and jerrys ice cream sams favourite All take care all you lovely people be kind to yourselves one day at a time big hugs
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Dearest Zoe, sending Happy Heavenly Birthday to your precious boy Sam loving the photos, it so lovely to hear from you and Kate , Victoria and all friends old and new, not sure how we have hot through these past years but somehow we have, this site was a lifeline for us all, sending love to all and our children will forever be inside our heart pockets 
xxxxx
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Hi michelle hope you and your lovely family are well thank you for your lovely comments .its mad how dates become so important in our lives. Hope our children are all at peace and in a better place .too good for this world .always in our heart pockets big hugs to youâ¤ď¸
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Hi Zoe, we are not sure why but Maddie isnât able to reply to messages at the moment. We need to get it fixed. She does read all the messages though and sends you all lots of love.
Such a lovely photo of you xx
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Hello Zoe - sending you all my very best. Thinking of you. Thank you for all the thoughts and support I have received from you and all the thoughtful people on here. The kindness and honesty is worth a lot. You were one of the first people I spoke to on here as we tried to make sense of a loss that seems senseless. Still doesnât make sense but we are keeping on with life and reaching out to people on here who âget itâ. Big hugs and love xxx
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Hi all. I was the same and had to re register.x
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