Hi Maddie. I too have had days when all I can see is Lisa dying. The last breath and I said to the rest of the family ‘shes gone’ and I knew that it was indeed her last breath. My heart broke then and like you I see it time and time again.
We shouldn’t forget it but it’s so painful to think of it.
Maybe the Robin is your daughter. I remember Lisa loving rainbows and some days when I have felt really bad, I have seen a rainbow and think Lisa has sent it to make me smile again.
Who knows but it’s so hard to stay positive some days.
Btw Wynne posted this morning.
Love to you. Kate xx
Hi Kate, Oh it was the worse thing in the world to watch your flesh and blood dying, Dawn took one deep breath and one tiny one, and I said oh John I think she has gone . And those words will haunt me forever. Yes they say rainbows, robins and feathers , could be a sighn from our love ones. PS i don’t think that is the Wynne that i knew that posted , her son was called Danieal Thanks anyway Maddie xx
Hi Maddie…The January after Christian had passed away in December,we had a robin build his nest in the garage,we kept the doors open for them so they could come and go as they pleased,I used to watch them in the late afternoon they would have something to eat at the feeder than to the bird bath for a wash and straight into the garage to their little nest…and they could get quite stroppy if disturbed…then one day I forgot and closed the garage door,the following morning when I went in then was a little robin dead on the floor, I was so upset I sat down and cried, i then picked the little thing up and buried him …then the following year they came again…They do say robins are a sign, that loved ones who have passed are thinking of you…It would be lovely if this is true…xxx
Hi Marina , sorry to hear about your little robin. Wouldn’t it be lovely if they were signs from our loved ones if only we knew ? Maddie xx
Hi Maddie,
I did go on the site, yes it does make you think, no we haven’t heard from Wynne for quite a bit I’m surprised. I know she struggles, I do hope she’s OK. I seem to be doing OK then something comes along and hits me around the back of the head and I’m back to day 1. I met my friend Sally on Saturday she showed me the pictures of their holiday with their 3 children and their families, and then straight away mentioned Sam and how he and Ross (her middle son) would get up to mischief, and we laughed about them both. She is such a good friend. My other friend Dee if she doesn’t call in she ring’s “where are you what you doing”, they say that you can count your closest friends on 1 hand…I have Sally, Dee, Jean , and Janice…wouldn’t be without them. If I’m struggling I can ring any of them and John my husband he talks of Sam too (Sam was always here, he turned away from his own father) but that’s another story. I know I’m writing this and I can feel Sam looking over my shoulder, I can’t explain the feeling I just know he’s here…
with love
Helen
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I have just been out with the dogs and I could see it was raining over the fields in the distance but it was sunny where I was walking and there was a rainbow! Maybe Lisa knew I was so sad today.xx
Dear Maddie and everyone,
My heart goes out to you, Maddie and Lisa, having to watch your darling children take their last breaths. I can’t imagine what that was like for you. At least I was spared that agony as I was not able to see Gemma until the day after she passed. By the time she was found there was nothing we could do for her.
While we were searching for Gems I saw a pure white bird fly straight up from the trees and I said to the policeman ‘that’s my Gemma’. I just knew.
I have had a better day as I have kept busy at work and decided to carry on working for now. I do 2 days a week and find it helps me.
I am so pleased you had a visit from the robin today Maddie and I’m sure it was a sign from Dawn … it shows us how our lovely children have not left us completely.
I would be very interested in how you get on with the medium. I have been recommended a lady and am going to call her tomorrow.
Wishing you all a peaceful night and much love xxx
Hi, it was the worst day of my life watching Lisa passing. My own heart actually missed a couple of beats and I went very dizzy and breathless.
I stood up and walked from the room and fell to the floor howling like an animal. I cannot describe the feeling of complete devastation. I can only hope she passed without pain or fear. She was so courageous it was unbelievable how calm and focused she was telling us all what we needed to do for her.
Time will ease the pain I guess but who knows how long that will take.
Love to you all. Kate xxx
Hi yes i know how it feels was by my daughters side when she passed I held her and spoke to her I just wished she had been able to talk to me back. I too went through the the pain I can’t speak too much about it it hurts to much to remember. I havnt felt great over the weekend even though I have my mum over I’ve been very quite. Hope today is a better day for you all. X
Hi, I had a really bad day yesterday but feel much better today. I am trying to be more like our Lisa as she lived for the minute. She never looked back on things and never worried about the future. When I used to say I still had nightmares about when she was I’ll as a baby, she would say that it was ridiculous. You cant change what has gone past and I should never think like that.
She never over thought things she just got on with whatever was here and now.
So wise for her years.
Hope you feel better today.
Much love. Kate xxx
Hi Kate. Your daughter seems to have that same attitude my daughter had she would say these are the cards I’ve been delt. She would say to me when I worried come on mum stop it. Even thethat last admission to the hospital when her lung colapse again and they said about doing the talc she said to her doctor so basically if this dont work then I’m in my box. Her doctor knew Aimée was always straight to the point about things and she said well I don’t perceive anything happening to you on this admission but we will be having talks each time I see you. We had already had the talk on the Tue about not resuatating her and it would be impossible for her to have ventilation through a tracheostomy.because her lungs were fragile. I still couldn’t believe she had suddenly over just a few month got this bad. I have guilt I hold everyday that I should have taken her back in when things didn’t get better. She would say they can’t do anything I will just waste time sitting in a bed. I asked the doctor when when we went back to talk with her after she passed she said air was properly slowly leaking they wouldn’t have been able to do much for her other than palliative care. Because she had her heart problems too. I’m waking every morning feeling tearful and want to scream x
I know that feeling. We just miss the joy of their positive take on life. I miss her laugh and the funny names she had for people on her phone. I was The Mummy and her Dad The Daddy. I so remember her phone when she was at school and she had someone down as Holy Mary! It turned out it was a boys Mum who was very religious so she had this boy under that name.
She always made us laugh.
I’d you need to scream, find somewhere to do it. Maybe you need that release.
Love to you.
Kate xxx
Ya my daughter was so funny everyone loved being around her she was such a funny person it’s so unfair she had to fight with her health so much from 12wks when she had her first heart valve replace. She had 3 in total 2 other heart surgeries 3 back surgeries and 2 eye. She was so courageous be on belielf ya maybe I should go walk in the forest and have a scream. X hope you have a good day xx chel
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Dear Marina and all,
I wanted to share with you all something that happened yesterday. I was walking our dog in the beautiful woods close to where we live. I always think of Gemma then especially as she loved the woods.
I was chatting to her and asked her to send me a sign that she could hear me and send me a sign that she was peaceful and happy (I am sure you will all understand this)
Straight away I heard an owl hooting so loud very close by and this was lunchtime! I am sure it was Gemma letting me know she was around as she was passionate about wildlife and she knew I love owls xxx
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Hi Victoria…It’s signs like these that bring us such comfort,they may only last a second but the joy they bring is immense…I can read the happiness in your post that you felt at the time…Take Care…Marina xxx
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Hello Victoria
I agree with Marina they may only last seconds but they bring us such comfort. I am absolutely convinced that was Gemma, and she was telling you she can hear you not just then but every time you talk out loud to her.
With live
Helen
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Thank you Helen, that brings me so much comfort and hope xxx
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Dear Marina,
Thank you. It did make me feel happy at the time and a little later my grandson came over and started making owl noises which was v strange as I hadn’t told anyone about the owl earlier?! xxx
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I’m sure it was a sign for sure I’m happy for you how wonderful you just need to see them when it happens. I’ve had so many weeks things that just ate impossible to belief so there must be from our lives ones x
Oh Victoria, im so pleased for you I know you have been waiting for a sign from Gemma. We have had the little Robin all week, he was at my husbands feet again this morning,just like when Dawn had just passed xxx
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