Dear Chel,
It is very early days for you. I also talk to Gemma and just hope she can hear me. I have had signs which make me think she is around which gives me hope and we have to have hope. When she was missing and we were looking for her the policemen wouldn’t let me stay and took me back to her house. As I was getting in the car, still begging them to let me stay there, I looked up and a white bird flew right out of the trees where she was found. I turned to the police and said ‘that’s my Gemma’. I just knew.
You feel that your daughter is around and I hope that gives you some comfort and peace and as Helen says ‘they never leave us’ and they are not that far away.
Love and hugs to you all xxx
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Good to hear from you but sad that you are struggling Chel.
It was a year yesterday since our beautiful Lisa passed. We were ok, not too tearful but I think the run up to the date was worse than the actual day.
It hurts so much all the time for us Mums. That will always be the case.
I hope that coming back to this site, you will get some comfort , knowing that we are all feeling for you and understand.
With love, Kate xxx
Well done Kate! I was rooting for you yesterday. You have now passed such a big milestone and so very hard. I too find the lead up to anniversaries harder than the actual day (apart from New Years Eve).
As I am writing this I am suddenly struck by how it is hard to believe that I have lost my beautiful daughter and still carrying on. But somehow I am and so are all of you very dear friends.
We have my stepson and beautiful granddaughter, Iris, staying tonight. Because if lockdown it is so long since we have seen them and they have been missed so much.
I wish you all a good and peaceful day xxx
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Oh bless her! Princess dress. She is lovely, happy smiley little face.
Brooke is the same, always laughing. On Friday Jemma was getting her to spray the roses with a diluted washing up liquid solution as the have black spot. Well , the spray bottle starting making a rude noise and Brooke was literally laughing so much she could barely stand up. She was just in fits! What a joy they are.
Love to you. Enjoy your family staying. It’s so good to cuddle them again.xxx
Hello, everyone,
Kate i am so pleased you got through Lisa anniversary, i am sure little Brooke helped you trough She is so adorable. I hope your buisiness gets underway with lots of customers, that will keep you busy. Its funny you have a MX5 we bought a MGF a year after Dawn passed,as we needed a hoppy, and we belong to the MG club , but this year as you know not much has haooend ,but we have just started going out with a couple of local MG.John did build his own Kit car a few years ago ,the worse thing we did was sell it … Looking at flights for Inverness later in the year, ,so might get to meet up… Cant seem to settle since we came back from Devon, so trying to get away for Agust, but when i leave home ii feel guilty leaving Dawn in the garden,although we taKE part of her away with us. Does that make sense ? Sometimes i think i am going mad . . Love to all Maddie xx
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Oh Maddie, I would really love to meet you.
I am going to the Lakes on the 17th for a few days to visit my sister and staying with my niece as my brother in law is bad on his legs and is quite elderly. I just feel I must go as he is not in good health and I haven’t seen my sister since last october.
As you say, Brooke is adorable, I know we are biased but she is a lovely child. She had a play date today, they were so lovely together.
With love, Kate xxx
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I would love to come to Inverness too … I have t been since a teenager so who knows?
I hope you are all feeling peaceful this evening.
Much love xxx
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I can see that we might actually meet each other.
How lovely.
I am looking forward to Brooke coming again today.
Plus I am getting my hair cut ! Good day for me.
I just saw a quote on FB saying that when we lose someone we love we never ‘get over it’, it changes who we are and we live with it . So true.
With love, Kate xx
I was just thinking it would be such a shame if this site suddenly stopped or we could no longer message each other. I would miss you all so much. So I thought we could exchange email and/or telephone numbers so we could always stay in touch. Only if you want to of course!
My email is: [edited by admin] and my telephone numbers are: [edited by admin].
Have a good day and much love xxx
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Great idea. My mobile is [edited by admin] landline [edited by admin]
Yes, it was awful when they were revamping the website. I felt so lonely.
Take care, hope you have a good day.
Kate xx
Have just saved your numbers in my contacts and I see you are on WhatsApp so we can share messages and photos.
Lovely!,xx
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. Hi , i dont know if mine number is edited, how do i find out? Other wise i will have to get my grandaughter to do it .Victoria, will you drive to Scotland if you go or will you fly ?. hope we are still seeing you in September? Are you on FACE BOOK ? MADDIE XX
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Ok thankyou Pricilla , and thankyou for all you have done , you have been a life line xxx
I do read your messages in here i feel so lost without my Aimèe today ive just jept going back to her home here and wishing id taken her back to the hispital they properly wouldnt have done anything everything was so risky like when her lung yad colapsed they said to put a drain in was a big risk. I wish id been told in the February hiw bad things were getting. She had got through so many major surgeries. I miss everyrhing about her we was like one always together. It still dont seem possible this has happened and she is gone from here forever. It makes me have panics and i feel my chest get tight. I just wish i could go back and do things differently. But i guess we all have thought along them lines. I had talks at the hospital with her lung dr but i feel i may email and see if she can answer the questions going over and over in my mine right now. I feel guilty that we was just going along with her not getting off the oxygen in the day when we went to clinic we came out with the understanding it was a deep as she would call it. COPD causes ups and downs but i never thought things wpuld turn it seems so suddenly though i look back and can see she was getting more times she would need to have oxygen during the day. Sorry for going on x
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Hi Maddie, yes we are still going to Cornwall and so looking forward to seeing you. I was actually looking st trains to Inverness this morning but will also look at driving and maybe flying although I really don’t like it. It would be so lovely to meet up with everyone xxx
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Chel, I know just how you feel. I honestly feel that if the docs hadn’t put Lisa on the immune suppressant she would still be here today. They had taken her off them in hospital and when she was recovering the chest man said to put her in isolation and put her back on them. In a couple of days she had infections again! So the ICU took her off them and she hor much better, then the chest man said again she was to be on them! Well you know the outcome as I wouldn’t be here!
We all care about you Chel, you know that and know and have felt the same things of what if this or that but it helps us not one bit.
Be kind to yourself my love.
With love, Kate
Yes Kate you are right , , as the worse thing in the world is to keep going without our beautiful children., and we do .,as we have no choice xxx
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Hello Chel66, i am so so sorry on the loss of your daughter Aimee. like Dawn she went through so much many operations , we thought we would lose her many times, she was so strong , so when she did pass it was , i think her body ha just had enough… Takecare, its so hard i know ,but we are all here for you . Maddie xxxx
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