Kate, signs arriving out of the blue is so true. They have appeared many times for me in different forms. I’m so glad you got this even though it can be upsetting at the time, as it really does mean so much.
Take care
Chris xx
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Hello wayyn
Tracy. How are you. You can join in the conversations.
Kate xx
Kate that is so lovely , doesnt it make you feel so much better , i am so sure that was Lisa … Have a lovely day with your lovely grandaughter . you deserve it . Maddie xxxx
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Thankyou. It was certainly something. As soon as I woke up I thought I need my phone and I went straight to my saved music and played it. It was almost weird as I haven’t played it since the funeral.xxx
Hello Kate how is the bb going? So hope you get a few customers ,as i know its been so hard this year… i am sure will get a some more signs from Lisa , Ours have gone realy quiet now , i talk to Dawn all the time , and beg her for something . When she passed i felt we had so many signs, and did feel her near, but now i fEl she has moved on , and i so hope where ever she is she is happy. With love Maddie xxx
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Hi Maddie. It was very weird but nice too.
Not doing b and b at all just now. We do have a medical student coming on the 25th but we have been taking them for 25 years, doing their GP block. Not great timing as our very close friends are arriving on 26th! Anyway we will enjoy it regardless.
Hope you get some signs.
Lots of love, Kate xx
Hello all friends here. Today has been hot again but not as hot as down south. However the temperature in the sun is 35c and its 18.30. I have worked for 4 hours on a changeover and was so tired I forgot to have lunch.
So, a consequence of this is that my mood plummets and whilst walking two very hot dogs in any shade I could find , the tears flowed. A year ago today we bid our final farewell to our beautiful Lisa. The sunshine child who lit up the lives of everyone who met her. So i went to see Jemma as she is here till next Thursday and we had a glass of wine in the evening sun and talked about her business and how much she has to do because of covid. She is a lovely girl too, who dropped everything to be with her sister when she took Ill.
An amazing young woman too. So lucky to have her with us in the village since lockdown.
We will miss her terribly but she has another life and friends in Edinburgh and we need to get used to another normal.
Phew, life is so hard sometimes.
Hope you are all well and not frizzled in the heat.
Love to all.
Kate xxxx
Dear Kate, Maddie, Chris and all,
How lovely that you got that sign from Lisa, Kate. Music is so powerful and I’m sure our children use it to communicate with us somehow.
I remember after I lost my mum 8 years ago and I would feel her so close to me. Once I’m sure she was stood right next to me … I could feel her against me. But gradually after a few months it got less and less. I haven’t had such strong signs from Gemma though.
We have Charlie staying with us at the moment, such a lovely little soul he is. He has been talking about his mummy a lot this week so I chat to him about her and am finding it easier to do that.
Kate, I am sorry you won’t see Jemma so much now but you are good at keeping busy and I’m sure time will fly until you see her again.
I am so frazzled in this heat … not coping well at all!
Much love to you all xxx
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I had a sign from Stan today, I had a nice birthday too, with flowers, chocolates and cards together with a beautiful silver pendant from our Jenny and Mike. I am so very lucky, I woke up this morning with a very heavy heart, not knowing how I was going to get through the day, but I obviously did. 
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Hello Dear Kate
I did feel so sad for you yesterday.The day we all have to say goodbye to our loved ones, i think is just as bad as the day they passed,as it makes it so final. that they are not on this earth anymore.I can remember feEling so lost ,alone and angry that that she had been taken from us .And would now have to face life without our beautiful daughter Dawn… . So pleased that you have had Jemma with you so long,she sounds a wonderful daughter,you must be so proud of her .Yes we are melting here again today . We went to the pub last night for a meal with other friend ,who we have not been out with since lockdown ,and it was lovely ,then they came back for coffee and we sat in the garden,but it was still about 28c… Take care Maddie xxx
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Thankyou Madie. Yes it was worse that the anniversary two weeks ago. I just kept thinking of her coffin surrounded by the bouquets we had made. She hated funeral flowers and always said why didn’t folk send bouquets. I loved all the years I worked with her when she did retail. Very hard work at times, if course, but we laughed our way through. Later, when she rented out her premises she went freelance and only did weddings. Even then, with a baby now, we would be rushing about like mad from church to venue, transporting flowers the brides wanted moved to the reception. We were a great team and right up to the day before they left for holiday, I was helping do a wedding. I miss that closeness we had but Jemma being home has been really wonderful.
Hope you have a lovely Sunday. I am gardening but it’s just too hot just now.
With love, Kate xx
Hello Kate,
I am glad that you managed with the help of Jemma to get through the day. These anniversaries are horrible and sometimes the days and weeks leading up are worse than the day itself. I go to Cornwall in a farmhouse a few days before Sam’s anniversary and will stay for a few days after. We go with very close friends and go out for a meal and toast Sam…we always buy a pint of Fosters and have it on the table ready (it was Sam’s favourite drink). It is so hot here today, but later I will sit in the garden and John and I natter to each other, I have asked Sam to help me with Geraint, and I know he will.
With love to you all
Keep cool!!
love Helen
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I hope Sam can sort it for you. All through the carry on with Lisa not having a will and not being married, having to go to court 3times to get Jamie the estate money , I kept saying to her, for goodness sake my girl, what a mess you left your poor boy, get it sorted! Well, it did get sorted, even though things looked very bleak a few times.
Sam will do his best for you.
With love, Kate
P.S. nice breeze just now so will go and sit with Alan in the garden.x
Hi Victoria , just wondering ,did you get my private message ?
Regards Maddie x
Hi Maddie,
I did get it and replied? Sent my email address and telephone numbers. I must have done something wrong? I’ll try again! xxx
Kate, thank you so much for your kind reply, my son died last year 12-02-2019, infection which was never treated in the hospital which traveled to his heart then Septis- Sepsis shock. On life surport for nearly 4 week,s as organ failure, meningitis which resulted in brain damage, my son did come home a week later as he was,my getting the right care in hospital, my Shaun could,my walk any more as limbs were attested with the sepsis no longer use his hands, he needed 24 he care, I never got offered any help at all from the hospital just left to get on with it myself, 8 months he lived for them I lost Shaun, was admitted bk into hospital in Jan 2019, for another infection, then all of a sudden we got told they needed to operate strait away as part of his bowel had died, myself never wanted them to operate as I know Shaun could,my survive a operation, Shaun wanted to come strait home in have a party, but his dad thought he would get home afterwards, that night the doctors told us
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Dear Tracy,
I am so sorry you have had to go through this terrible time. It must have been hard looking after Shaun on your own at home. We have all lost our precious children here and do help each other so I am glad you have found us xxx
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Tracy, you have been so brave taking your son home and caring for him. It’s awful that you were left without medical help. It’s a very sad story indeed.
My youngest Lisa, picked up a virus on their first holiday abroad in 10 years. She had a rare lung condition but nobody would ever have known she had anything wrong. She worked very hard and had a beautiful wee girl.
Anyway, she became I’ll on the way home at the airport. The flight was delayed then cancelled and the were flown to Newcastle not Scotland. They hired a car and got to Perth where they stayed in a premier inn but Lisa called an ambulance in the morning as she was so I’ll she couldn’t get out of bed. A week later she was taken from there on ECMO life support to Aberdeen where she remained for another 8 weeks. We lost her on 25th Juky 2019.
You, like myself, have found this site and everyone here helps each other. It’s too hard on your own as we can’t always say everything we want to to our loved ones.
Anything goes here, no matter how strange it might seem to others who have not suffered what we have.
Take care dear Tracy, we are listening and caring.
With love, Katexx
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I hate that we have all lost our children I feel that though 2 yrs have passed and it dont seem that at all I dont feel any different. Every day I wake I wish I hadn’t. I keep going over those last months. I feel guilty every day things I maybe should have done and would it have changed the out come. I wish I could sit and talk with her. Its torture every day without her with me. I cared for her for 25yrs andwedid everything together we was never really apart even all the times she had to go to hospital mostly for surgeries they let us stay in a room together. I never felt I would lose her this early. The panic feeling is horrible. I dont want to go back on any pills I had them at the beginning and they made me feel ill. I just physically ache for my baby to be back here with me I’m lost alone even though I have a partner and family I feel alone without her.