Hello , Tracy,
i am so so sorry for the loss of your lovely son Shaun, i know how hard it is , but liike Victoria ,and Kate said we are all in the same situation ,we have all lost our beautiful children . We are all here for you ,anytime you want to talk .we all agreE this has been our lifeline . Take care Maddie xx
Oh Chell66, i can relate to everything you are saying even though today is 3years 8 months , ,i miss her every single day , i know i will never get over losing Dawn,she was my rock . Some days are worse than others ,and we do try and keeo ourselves busy , its always there .And my heart is truly broken. I know how alone you can feel ,even with everyone around you ,as there is always one person missing, and that is the person we want back so much. When we visited one of Dawns resting place yesterday ,i told i just want her back and would chop off anything just to have her back. And i am sure she must be laughing at me .I am so sure they are well and happy where they are , as we did have a sign shortly after she passed ,and told us so .So thats all we can asked for ?.Maddie xx
Hi maddie yes Iāve had sogns that almost seem impossible what kind have you had. Iāve had a few Iām my waking dreams too. But I dont sleep few hours of a night and thatās it
Hi everyone There are so many messages in this chat I wasnāt sure if I could respond, I am so very sorry for all of you they have lost your children I sadly lost my daughter Megan ten years ago she had been brain damaged at birth and we looked after her for nearly 19 years she was clever and bright and we were so sad to loose her, she had a younger brother and sister who thought the world of her and we have survived these last ten years together as a team but now and I canāt believe Iām writing this my son has also passed away aged 23 fit and healthy we are so totally heart broken and canāt understand why we have to face this all again, he and his remaining sister were so close I feel so devastated and cheated my beautiful boy who has kept me going over the years it feels so cruel to loose a child but to loose 2 is just unbearable, love to all of you may we find some peace somehow xx
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Omg! Darling girl, I am in tears reading your post. I canāt even imagine the pain you are feeling. To lose one child is bad enough. So glad you are here though. Life does seem to be so cruel. The best seem to be taken young but the criminals and worse seem to live on.
There are no answers for any of us really but we support each other here.
Take care dear love.
Kate xxx
Dear Chell, We went on the Quija board after Dawn passed,and i could not believe what we picked up. Dawn said she could see and hear us ,she said she was happy and healthy,she could hear us when she was in a coma , and she told us to get a life . We have had Robins ,feathers ,and the strangest thing of all was a clock falling over backwards ,that we just cannot understand how it would be possible , to knock it over , But sadly its all gone very quiet now ā¦ And i feel very sad ,as i keep asking her for a little sign to keep me going . Let me know what little signs you are getting / Maddie xxx
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Hello Jane 2. I am so sorry for the loss of both your children , i cannot imagin the heart break you must be going through. Now we have lost our beloved Daughter, i am so scared of losing another family member,i dont think i would be strong enough to cope . I hope you find some peace as well .Maddie xx
Well since we all are talking about signs. I think I said before that a robin comes to the cottage garden when Brooke is playing. One day it hopped straight in front on me on the path a just looked at me.
Now we are back in our garden, a robin comes every day watching Brooke playing. It was there when we planted a rose for Lisa. It sat on a ledge watching us all the time.
With love, think what you will, think it is our girl watching her baby.
Kateā:heartpulse:
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Kate ,i am convinced its a robin named Lisa . As Its happened to us many times.xx
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Oh Jayne Iām so sorry to hear your post. Itās so unfair they had there lives in front of them even my Aimee had health issues because of her syndrome but she taught every step to be here and loved the little life she had she was always happy she would always sat these are the cards Iāve been dealt.
Iāve had strange signs right from the funeral like songs playing as you enter a shop the car. Watching TV and things pop up some have been so crazy it really makes you think. She loved pocahontas one of the songs we had play at her funeral colours of the wind. Then thatās all we saw around her best friend went to Disney cruise every year aimee would ask for something pocahontas but it was always hard to find that same year her friend sent me a photo of loads of figures which she brought one home. And only last week my niece whom aimee spent so much time with. Had a little gathering for her 16th fancy dress I went as pocahontas as I knew aimee would have done so. My sister unaware I was going as that went into a charity shop and the only fancy dress outfit on the first rail was pocahontas. Things like this happen alot. But Iād give anything to sit with her and chat awhile Iām sure we all feel like that.
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Me too Maddie. It happens whenever and wherever Brooke is playing.xxx
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Hi , I had many signs from Megan in the beginning not so much now, such as a bird table she made with her dad he used to joke with her say it wasnāt good enough for the birds because they never went in there , weirdly birds starting nesting in the box The day after she passed There were many other small things, this time is so different and I didnāt see any signs for a few weeks and part of me just canāt believe, but weāve had green house glass shatter for no reason, pictures fall off the wall , tv turning on at night and all of his close friends had white feather experiences which would of been so like him to communicate with his friends first ! Iām so lost I canāt look at any photos 5 of us down to 3 itās so unfair, wishing you all well take care x
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Dear Jayne. Btw I notice you spell your name as Lisaās middle name. Not very often we see that.
Yes I too have had the white feather thing. A white feather drifts slowly down passed the exact middle of our sitting room bay window. Many times now. I hear Lisaās voice in my head saying Thankyou Mum, lunch was lovely or Thankyou Mum, today was just wonderful. So many lovely memories and Lisa was so grateful for help with her business, days out, lunches, anything, she never took anything for granted. Xxx
Hello Wynne
I read that you are on your own and I feel for you. My mom died after a short deterioration from breast cancer and throughout the three weeks and after her death my ex partner who had become my so called best friend was not there for me. I decided that I only had capacity for one lot of grieving so I cut the friendship though in reality his behaviour severed it. I find just reading other peopleās thoughts and experiences a help. You are not on your own. Please reach out.
Oh yes Jayne with a āyā my grannyās doing ! Itās my middle name but weirdly my husband is Wayne so would have been strange Wayne and Jayne !
Morning dear friends. Just needed to post as I am having one of those days where the lump in my throat threatens to surface and the tears flow. Jemma left to return to Edinburgh early this morning and I felt that longing for both my girls. I know that my longing for Lisa will never leave me but I have got used to Jemma being here for 5months. The longest time since she went to Uni 17 years ago. It was just so lovely going to the cottage and having a coffee in the garden. Now today I have been busy cleaning my car, was a bit soggy smelly and I want it nice for driving to the Lakes on Monday to visit my sister and family.
Funny, I feel better already because I have told you all how I feel today.
Hope you are all doing ok. Still hot but not as hot as some of you who live in the South. Must be exhausting.
We have missed all the bad weather and floods. No storms here they just skirted round us.
Much love, Katexxx
Afternoon to yo Kate , glad you missed all the bad weather,we are melting down here , it is so humid ,i have to keep having a cold shower ,just to cool down . I know you must hsve been very tearful saying goodbye to Jemma , Brooke is going to miss her Auntie . Its always good to talk and get things off your chest ,and its nice to know that you like talking to your friends on this site. I dont know about your car ,but thats how i feel soggy and smelly ,off to have another shower now . , Maddie xx
Haha. That was meant to be Doggy and Smelly! Anyway, today is weird here, we have cloud and 20c so pleasant enough for getting stuck into things.
Keep cool and carry on.xxxx
Hello lovely friends. So as the day progressed I had a lot to do for the cottage changeover this weekend. I havenāt even managed to get to the wee one that Jemma had been using to take the washing out of the machine. Anyway, busy busy busy. Now I realise the source of my up down up down mood today. It is because Brooke is starting school tomorrow. Something Lisa often talked about. Like ā Mum, can you imagine her starting school?ā Or, I am so excited about her starting school next year as she is so ready to go.
So here we are, my heart is breaking on the one hand, but filled with joy at the prospect of picking Brooke up tomorrow afternoon. I said we could go for ice cream so I will take her to the soda fountain in town if it has opened.
Happiness and sadness are so close arenāt they?xxx