Hello YL, nice to hear from you, have you arrived at your destination.
Injection of coffee sounds a wonderful idea then I wouldn’t have to smell the horrible stuff. ‘Sorry’.
Funny my knee was not good for years but I took up cycling and this seemed to improve my situation providing I didn’t overdo it.
Two years ago with my back playing up I also got heel problems called Plantus something or other, not dangerous but so, so, so painful . I thought it was the end of the world, struggling with back and foot. Limping around like an old woman, which I suppose I am but like to call myself a recycled teenager. I agree with the use it or lose it saying, quote it quite often myself. 12 miles not bad. Used to think nothing of doing this distance but with Brian becoming weaker and still wanting to walk we slowly had to cut back on distance, now I’m not sure if I want to risk it in case something gives out. So keep to 5 to 8miles now. Like you I have to focus on what I can do comfortably because if I couldn’t get out I would be a useless mess. So I am more than grateful for still having my mobility. We used to cycle but when Brian started to find it difficult we sold the bikes a year ago, he then purchased an electric bike and loved it. For a few months he got back his independence. He struggled to walk up to a few months before he died. He was an inspiration, so determined. I have always thought that things happen for a reason and usually when I think back over my life this has usually been the case. Can’t come up with a reason why I should have lost Brian though.
Are you going anywhere near North Devon, Exmoor, we used to often walk here. Valley of the Rocks by Lynton/Lynmouth. Excelent walking country. Absolutely beautiful, well worth a visit, tough at times but you could manage it Really good maps available locally and everywhere well signposted by Exmoor NT. We always preferred this area to Cornwall I’m afraid. Caravan camp sites in the area.
Enjoy your holiday
Pat xxx
The pain is miserable for you Sadie
Get well soon
XXXXXXX
Hi Pat,
I suffered with Plantar Fasciitus a few years ago but just in one foot. I was told it was to do with tendons that run to the toes. I had some special insoles made at our local walking equipment shop. It took a long time to recover. Very painful.
I’m at California Cross just inland from Salcombe. One of my daughters is staying in a cottage for a week, starting today, at Outer Soar. The last time we went there she hadn’t been born. Her two older sisters were just tots and we were touring in a 2cv and camping. I got sunstroke one day and had to get into my sleeping bag to stop shivering. It’s an amazing place is Soar Cove. I’m staying on this site for four nights and will meet up with my daughter. I see her the most anyway as she lives just two miles away and she is the mother of my youngest grandson, fortunately born a few weeks before his Granny died.
I’ve got an electric bike, and I’m looking at buying another, a folding one, for my expeditions away. I haven’t ridden the bike for about 10 months as it seemed to make my knee worse but I will try again when I go home, or, maybe, if I go home. I’m going to do coastal walks when I get to Cornwall, maybe 7 to 9 miles. Much depends on the availability of buses.
I’ve just been for a walk down the lane. The hedges are on top of earth banking. I’m 6ft 4in and I reckon they were twice as high and absolutely bursting with wild flowers.
I’m not going to North Devon as we were there a couple of years ago, our last big trip together. I’m going from Cornwall to Surrey to stay close to another daughter, and to be spoilt by my granddaughters. Hopefully I will be finding out whether they will be having a sister or brother in a few months. I do like North Devon and may come back down later in the year as I have an offer of coffee and chat with a fellow forumite that happens to live there.
Somehow I’ve got to fit Scotland, West Coast of Ireland, Pembrokeshire, Northumberland and the Lleyn into this summer and autumn. I’m not sure about things happening for a reason, I don’t look too deeply for meaning. I like the idea of synchronicity and The Randomness of Things. Who knows.
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I know what you mean. Tension, worry, anxiety it doesn’t help does it. Too much for one body to cope with. Hadn’t been to a doctor for years and then I had pain in chest. No one seems bothered although I was referred to hospital but that was months ago and they don’t want to see me. I do have high blood pressure apparently but it is coming down after I changed my rubbish diet back to the good stuff. Anyway what do they expect with the things we have gone through. Fortunately physically I feel fit and well, mentally is another thing and as it happens had a rubbish day today. Been expecting it but makes it no easier. Good luck tomorrow, expect you to be skipping down the road after seeing osteopath.
In my thoughts Pat sorry to hear your struggling today too I hope tomorrow is kinder to you x
Hi All. some of you may remember me. I have been away from the forum trying to cope. But… today its such a bad day that I felt the need to say hi. next week it will be 6 months since I lost the love of my life and a month since I lost one of my dear sisters.
I feel so lonely and sad. I have been for walks but I cant stop wanting to have my darling next to me sharing these walks. Also have done his garden in a flood of tears every time and I wake up in the morning with fear of what will bring the day. Nothing seems to have changed from day one. I feel lonely when around a multitude of people, family or friends. only my behaviour changed I do hide how I feel now very well. but on my own… its another story… my sadness is now such a private time.
Hope you are all finding a way to come out of this. I keep thinking that small steps will take me somewhere don’t know where.
Love to you all. Although not always participating, my thoughts are with you all the time. (old and new members). I know well that some of us leave the forum but more will join in seeking the same comfort. Thanks to those that keep this going it has been so helpful to know that it is there if and when we need it. . Big hugs and all the very best to each and everyone. xxxx De
Hi Dee
I am exactly the same. I haven’t been on here for a couple of weeks but have been reading all the posts. I feel I haven’t got much to contribute in a positive way. I am just plodding on and it’s 18 months for me. The last couple of days for some reason have been horrid … I feel edgy and weepy and totally brassed off. I keep trying to understand why, even though I know my husband was a sick man with heart failure. The family are good but they really don’t want to see a sad me so I say I’m ok . One comment made was that I was always busy , rubbish, I just try to fill my time in mostly on my own doing the chores, shopping, dog walking etc. Although the person that said it has never even asked me what I do or how I am so goodness knows how she has come to the that conclusion, she says that, even though she has never asked me to meet her for a coffee or go anywhere with her, not even a phone call, and she’s my daughter in law… What a get out eh!
I have come to the conclusion that when we loose our partners we are on our own in every sense of the word. We can’t confide in anyone else, can’t talk things over i,e. financial stuff with anyone else and can’t talk about family issues with our children about our other children if we have an issue so we keep it to ourselves and the problems in our minds probably multiply.
Yorkshire Lad refers to our journey as a survival course… So right. I just wish I could feel content or at least get back to being the person I was. At the moment I feel as though I am just coasting along , day by day. I would love to feel content with my life but I don’t and I know I am the only one who can change it but am struggling to find out how. I don’t particularly want to join clubs but do enjoy company and have a few really good friends, some are living many miles away others local and when we chat we do have a laugh which is good.
Oh well moan over I hope you soon feel you are coping because that’s all we can do. Hugs
Jx
Hi im so sorry for your loss it’s utterly devastating im heartbreakon it’s been six months and three weeks tomorrow afternoon since my soulmate fell asleep in my arms im utterly truamatised witnesing it all happen in front of my eyes all I want is my soulmate back in my arms im destroyed mentally and physically thinking of what has happened we dreamed of growing old together everything my life has been stolen im empty and lost thinking about growing old together he was my protector your in my thoughts take care as much as possible Adele x
Today is exactly 7 months since Jack died! I feel all of he
I feel Jack’s absence all the time but today it was highlighted- my back hurts a lot - I can’t get up and how I wished he was here with me !!!
It is such a beautiful day and I here I am in bed with pay and sorry for myself
Sadie x
I feel Jack’s absence all the time but today it was highlighted- my back hurts a lot - I can’t get up and how I wished he was here with me !!!
It is such a beautiful day and I here I am in bed with pay and sorry for myself
Sadie x
Dear Sadie
It is so horrible for you
What would Jack tell you to do today babes ?
Get up ? Stay in bed ? Try to sleep ? Think of him and try and get your head around what has happened ? Do whatever gives you comfort to get through today babes
You might feel a bit better tomorrow
It is such a rollercoaster this grief thing
Sending love and hugs
Romy xxxx
Hi I am so sorry for your loss it’s heartbreaking and to know your in physical pain too I’m nearly im mentally and physically destroyed witnesing it all happen in front of my eyes it will be six months and three weeks tomorrow afternoon since my Edward fell asleep in my arms im utterly truamatised my heart goes out to you its the same here a beautiful dunny day can’t bring myself to even get out of bed no point my soulmate was my reason to get up and go on im utterly heartbreakon beyond words can describe another long day followed by another long lonely silent night full of sorrow and disbelief ahead take care of yourself as much as possible in my thoughts Adele x
In my thoughts Romy this pain and suffering is getting worse day by day it’s a beautiful sunny day we’d be out in the garden after a nice walk out where we always used to sit be thinking of tea later making plans for tomorrow all so cruelly and tragically taken away take care of yourself as much as possible in my thoughts Adele x
Dear Romy
Jack would hold my hand, put hot water bottle in my back. I can’t get up too much pain ! He would reassure me I am ok and tell me to relax
He also will tell me to se the doctor which I will tomorrow, he also would hold me! Tight.
Do bloody awful
Sadie xx
Dear Romy
Jack would hold my hand, put hot water bottle in my back. I can’t get up too much pain ! He would reassure me I am ok and tell me to relax
He also will tell me to se the doctor which I will tomorrow, he also would hold me! Tight.
Do bloody awful
Sadie xx
It’s a living nightmare with no ending we we are just existing second by second in my thoughts I hope you can get some comfort from the doctor tomorrow in my thoughts Adele x
Dear Sadie
So sorry you’re in so much pain and no jack to comfort you… I hope as the day wears on maybe the pain will ease a little.
About an hour ago I was walking on my own as frequently I do when I tripped and fell flat on my face then rolled to my side. Noone around , I’ve got a couple of grazes and a bit shaken up but it’s just crap coming home and he’s not here to look after me.
I phoned to cancel my Pilates class and couldn’t stop crying . It wasn’t about falling over or cancelling just everything…
Hope you get some positive help from your gp tomorrow.
Xx
I’m sorry to hear you had a fall that’s awful I hope your not too hurt although there’s no bigger pain that has instilled in our whole mind and body your so right home alone I haven’t been able to even make it out of bed today I’m utterly truamatised another long lonely silent night full of sorrow and despair in store I hope tomorrow is kinder to you and everyone else in my thoughts Adele x
Hi Sadie, so sorry about your back, I can sympathise. I’ve had my back so bad I’ve crawled along on the floor but Brian was with me. He felt useless as he couldn’t do anything and I wouldn’t let him touch me, as the pain was so bad. But he was there and now I dread anything like this and being alone. What happened about the osteopath, I found them much better than doctors. I was told that I could have an injection to take the pain away, but what was the use in that. I needed the cause to be cured. It was a chiropractor that came to the house to see me and he found the problem straight away and I was walking around the next day. A bit sore granted for a couple of days but nevertheless the pain had gone. I rush to him straight away now if I get that terrible pain and he put’s me right. Take care and get well soon. Pat xxxx.