I’m definitely going to ‘be more Roy ‘!!
Love his attitude
Romy xxx
Girls , 9 days on and I am still in bed!!! Seeing a consultant tomorrow! Just had about enough!
Enough of been alone, enough of been bedridden, enough of pain. Just ENOUGH!!
I gave enough of been oositive
Enough of trying to pretend I am coping well! I had enough
I am so tired so alone
In the past few days I feel like a cat - they come leave my breakfast and lunch organised then I spend my day alone and in the evening someone come and give me dinner!!
I can’t get out of bed without pain
It is so draining!!
The thought of a long weekend fills me with dread!! I found out lately that my children so helpful etc find that they want their weekends doing nice stuff and … here I am
Last weekend I spent so much time alone that I really was very very low
I wosh d I had died with Jack!!! At the moment I am finding life so awful!!! I used to think that life was good, I had joy in my life,
How can I make things better?? I don’t think I can - I think it will be this horrible living for ever more
I am so tire so tired
Sadie xx
Aw Sadie I wish I could help you. I think the pain and the grief together are causing you hell.it doesn’t help that others are alone too because it’s your personal hell. I’ve spoken to no one today my family think I don’t need anyone to help and I have cried most of the day. I get wonderful support on here and I don’t know what I’d do without it. Perhaps it’s time to ask your gp for some help to help with your loss and not just treat your pain. Keep writing there are no easy answers but we’re here for you…K xx
So sorry you’re still in agony and no further progress in having positive treatment. Hope the consultant sorts out some good treatment tomorrow and gets you back on the road to recovery.
Blessings and thinking of you Sadie
Jen☆
GP probably gives antidepressant and that makes you numb!!
Are you ok without speaking to people?
I need company !!
Yes, this forum helps , helps a lot
S xxx
Sadie no I am so lonely sometimes I phone the Samaritans just to hear another voice. I take anti depressants and honestly they don’t make me numb. I can drive, and do what I have to with no ill effects. They also help the panics and don’t make me drowsy at all. It’s worth considering. K xx
Thanks kate , I will speak to the doctor tomorrow.
When I am active , I always make the point to go out and talk to people, but that is also exhausting!! At the moment although I crave company I wished I could jus disappear!!
Willbtalk to doctor tomorrow
S xxx
Oh Sadie
That’s horrible for you
No wonder you are feeling so down …on your own and in pain
I don’t know what to say
It’s my friend’s funeral tomorrow and we are all anxious and upset
I don’t think I am any use to you tonight babes
I am all over the place in my mind myself
Love you lots
Message you tomorrow
Romy xxxx
Sadie, it’s just crap that you’re in so much pain as if losing Jack weren’t enough!!
If you can get the consultant to deal with the pain I think the spirit you’ve shown over the past months will begin to return.
I know how much you need company so being housebound is a nightmare for you.
Any friends you can ask to come make coffee and keep you company for an hour or so during the day.
Don’t think about the weekend till it comes , something might turn up to make it better.
It won’t always be this horrible you will have better days even if they won’t be the same as with Jack.
Wishing you a better day tomorrow.
Big hug
Xx
Dear Romy - tomorrow will be a very sad day
I am sending love and that the angels stay with you
Sadie xxx
I love you girls!!
Thank you thank you
Sadie xxxxx
Thank you babes
You are very kind
Sending all my love and hope the pain goes soon and friends /family come and keep you company
You hate being alone
Keep posting on here
Xxxxxxx
Thank you ladies I really appreciate you all taking the time to reply … underneath my wedding ring I have Gary tattooed very small … it’s the only tattoo I have and have had in 38 years .( I’m not really a tattoo fan on women but each to there own ). it was my compromise to Gary as he had Michelle the whole stretch of his arm and On his chest . and my name under his wedding band … maybe in case he forgot lol… I’m really looking forward to the kids having a good time … and your all right we need the break … while we are away Gary’s birthday and Father’s Day fall on the same day … 21st June … so that will be a tough day … love to u all x
I am so sorry you are feeling so rubbish,you might be alone physically but we’re all with you in spirit.Let us know how you get on tomorrow,and for what it’s worth modern anti depressants/anti anxiety meds do not make you feel numb,they enable you to function,I was on the point of a complete breakdown and i’m not saying I feel great now,but I am back at work and coping to an extent.Don’t rule anything out that may help us through these toughest of times.Thinking of you and everyone,Corinna xx
Katie if you just need to talk to someone anytime you can phone the Silverline which is open 24/7 and is manned by volunteers, mostly ladies who know what it is like to lose someone you love. They are very kind and understanding. J xx
Thank you so much for your kind message. Iwill certainly keep that number handy. Kxx
Do you know the number?
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I googled it
It’s 0800 4 70 80 90
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Girls! Today is the best I have felt in 10 days
I have no pain - I can move ok -
I will have an MRI on Saturday - and the doctor seems to think that maybe a the sacro joint affected a disc and this is why I had pins and needles !! So I can be normal! Having no pain makes such a difference
Thank you to you all that helped me so much ch during the past few days Sadie xxx