Thanks for the your support
Just read this - having real bad moments - I miss him so much
Dear Shelley79
I am so sorry. You will still be in shock after the loss of your husband, George. All of us on this site understand your pain and we try and support each other as best we can. I hope that you have family who are able to also give you the support needed as we navigate this painful journey. Post and say whatever you want, no one judges. We need to be able to express our feelings whatever they are and whenever they come to the surface.
Take care.
Sheila
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Feeling so sad and lonely today. There’s no purpose to life anymore xx
Dear Kos
I can see you also live in the North East. The sun was shining down on Newcastle Quayside today, the river looked beautiful. I enjoyed a nice social distance walk with a friend but it is so difficult because it also brought out couples and we live in a beautiful part of the country and can no longer enjoy it as the love of our lives have been taken from us. My husband would have loved to be on the walk today, he loved everything about the City. Since returning home the rest of the day has just been bloody awful.
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I feel exactly the same right now. I thought I was making progress Had a decent week at work. Only a couple of meltdowns at home. I even bought some tops for work and had a mini clear out of some of my clothes.But today…it feels so raw again. I just had vaccine yesterday and I feel guilty because he should be here to get his and I shouldn’t want to live without him. I miss my lovely husband more than ever.
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I just so wish I was with my husband now. For years ago we lost our jobs, had to sell the house, then I lost my loyal little dog. Each challenge we survived because we had each other and now he has been taken from me. Just do not know how to continue on without him by my side. Every little thing that goes wrong now is such a huge issue to get over.
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How long has it been since you lost your lovely husband? I just seem to try so hard to get on and then it hits me really hard I’m never going to see, hear or touch him. Hopefully it will get easier to cope with the grief for both of us. Xx
Kos
I lost the love of my life 4 months ago. He had a cardiac arrest at work without any signs he was unwell. I have relived that day over and over and the shock of the phone call from the police to say they were sending officers to see me is still so raw. They phoned from his mobile but wouldn’t tell me over the phone. It was worst phone call of my life and the wait agonising…but I knew it wasn’t good news they had. Whilst waiting for them I phoned his work and one of his colleagues answered by saying am sorry for your loss. I will never forget those five words. My life ended that second.
I only had him for 3 and a half years but he was my everything, my soulmate and my hero. I don’t even know how I have got to this point…four months. Support from family and friends are the main reason. It’s a pain that will stay with me forever.
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So so sad today, lockdown being lifted and people being able to meet up.
All I want is to meet with my Geoff, he should be here enjoying this too.
I am happy for everyone but it breaks my heart 
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Feeling exactly the same. Everything I wanted in the future was interwoven with him. People keep telling me I can still do those things but don’t realise that the joy that would come from them was doing them with him.
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Dear Jules4
Yes I have had the same comments. They just do not get it… They still have their partners and fortunately cannot begin to understand the pain of our loss and the agony of seeing everything we had talked about and worked towards taken from us. This time last year I never imagined I would be in this position - find it hard to comprehend most of the time
Take care.
Sheila
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I know what you mean - it doesn’t make any sense. I just don’t know why this should have happened to such a good man who had so much to give. Then I begin to wonder what I did that was so bad to be punished in this way. It will never make any sense to me.
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I was ‘lucky’ in that bevause I was there when Stephen died they allowed me to sign his death certificate. The money is all up in the air. No will so waiting to see if he did an expression of wishes form.
Dear Lost82
We never got round to making a Will. I am having to go through probate but as there is no death certificate as yet and no date set for the inquest I could potentially have to wait 18 months from the date my husband died.
Would have been prepared to live pennyless to have my husband. I only needed him and am so lost without him.
Sheila
I couldn’t agree more. His daughter messaged me 3 hours after he died to ask what was going to happen about money. I couldn’t believe it.
I have found some family members - both sides - became fixated with the financial position. One insisted that he was coming up to sort. We were in lockdown and money was/is the last thing on my mind so politely told him not to bother.
When we married we had nothing and as I say I was prepared to live any life as long as my husband was by my side.
Lost82 so sorry for your loss. I have been told by my partners sons that I’m not needed any more and to go home… They’ve been arranging funeral, I was told a date… 2 days later was told the dates wrong it’s the week after… I’m getting messages asking for things, like is there an insurance policy for this. Where’s the paperwork for that??? I just feel I’m being used… I offered to sort all paperwork for them in the beginning and was told its got nothing to do with me…
Yes I find it amazing how they are happy for us to be the ones dealing with the hospital but as soon as it’s about money everyone changes their attitude.
Im blessed that his mum is very supportive
My partner fell in the river and was missing for 5 weeks… During those 5 weeks I walked the river banks every day searching for him… His kids seemed to just carry on with their lives… We’d been together 17 years but didn’t live together… Soon as he’d been found I was sent home… I don’t want or expect any of the money I just wanted to be able to be part of the funeral arrangements… I feel so lonely and like our 17 years together means nothing…