Hi Jacky
Good to hear from you. I love hearing from both you and Rachel and it is very comforting that you are further down the road on this long journey of grief. I also enjoy hearing what you’ve been up to.
We had a nice couple of days in the Lakes (despite the rain!!). No we don’t have a camper van - not sure I could cope with driving one of those! We stayed at a vegetarian B & B in Ambleside and really enjoyed it, although everything feels a bit strange at the moment and everything had to be booked in advance - no wandering down to breakfast when you feel like it and we had to pre-order breakfast. We went on one of the steamers on Windermere (which I love doing) but that had to be pre-booked and you had to stay in your allocated seat and wear a mask all of the time, when we used to go up on deck when we wanted and could move around the boat. But that is life in these strange times.
Do try and persuade your partner to go back to golf. I am enjoying it more than I thought I would and am not quite as bad as I expected, and even occasionally hit a good shot (actually very occasionally). Our coach was very good and very encouraging. We are playing a proper game tomorrow but I think I should take a torch with me as I expect to go round in about 24 hours!
I’m sorry to hear that your NHS meeting was unsatisfactory. Although the Coroner’s Inquest was upsetting at least it would have given me the opportunity to ask questions had I been at all unhappy with Mum’s treatment. We were very lucky and I only have praise for all the NHS staff that cared for her - and me.
Oh I didn’t know that you had a “not so secret” admirer. How flattering! But a bit difficult as you said.
I’ve just had a counselling session on the phone and cried buckets as usual. I started about 30 seconds into our conversation today - what am I like. I never knew I had so many tears to shed. I hope it does me good. Its certainly exhausting.
Happy Birthday for yesterday and hope you have a great time in Hathersage.
Stay in touch.
With much love Helen xxx