My 2nd xmas too and I feel the same, worse than last year xx
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Oh yes, life can be so cruel…to all of us here…
Thank you and hope you will have better days too…will be thinking of you over Christmas…best wishes.
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You feel lonely when alone…and even more lonely when surrounded by people…because the one person you want to be with is not with you 
Take good care everyone x
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Have you thought of moving, an image like that is hard to live with. I’ve just had a few days away and I felt better, as soon as I got home I knew I was going to move
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That’s so sad I am so sorry I can’t imagine how painful it must be for you.
Sending a big hug x
Friends and family have asked me what I want for Christmas. Only two things.
1 - My Bill back
2 - To be with him
Number one I know I can’t have.
Number two is not within my control.
Ater six months I am more upset than ever. Floods of tears every morning. I don’t want this life any more but feel so helpless because there’s nothing I can do about it.
Funeral directors have let me down. They told me the headstone would be ready in 6 weeks and would be up before Christmas. It hasn’t happened and they now tell me 12 - 14 weeks. That news didn’t help my mood - more tears.
I apologise to everyone for being a wimp but just can’t help it.
Miss him so much 
Love and hugs to you all 
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I carnt aford to move im only just getting by , i had another counciling session yesterday they said it will help me so anything worth a try , he asked if i had suicidal thoughts i said i would not do that to my kids and grandkids i love them too much , i told him pretending im ok in front of family and friends is absolutely exhausting, then it builds up and when alone im a mess councillor said by putting a act im ok on people carnt help if they dont know how low i am i suppose it makes sense x
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Hi, In no way are you being a wimp, we all understand what you’re going through, and are here to support each other . Its really tough for many of us right now with the approach of Christmas. We see people full of the joys of spring whilst we just want to hide away and pretend its not happening. I dread Christmas now and it holds no happiness for me as my darling wife passed the day before in 2020. Hopefully we all get through it as best we can and look forward to brighter days in the New Year
Take care
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Sending a big hug and love to everyone on here who has lost someone x it’s not a good time of the year for me x
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Big hug xx
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Your not being a wimp, we all feel these things and its so very hard coping without your soul mate especially this time of yr, I would rather be on my own this xmas but cant say that to my son and his family, but I will survive as I did last year with my daughter and her family, somehow I feel worse this year which I was not expecting !
Take care and I’m sure all of us on here will cope over the festive season the best we can and when on our own at night I am sure the tears will flow as they do most nights xx
Take care everyone xxx
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This time of the year is so hard. I lost my dearest husband in August this year very suddenly and I am finding it harder to cope now than I did say 4 weeks ago. Im kind of expected now by some to “get on with it” and apart from my immediate amazing children , Im putting a brave act on. But tomorrow is my birthday as well as the festive season and ive left my home in the North to be with my daughter and family in London. After 52 years of getting a card and a hug its just too painful to be at home and everyone I know ive said no cards just this year. Most seem to get it, i cant celebrate this year. So I hope 2025 comes around quick and is a better year.
Regards to all on here at this very hard time. Heartsand x
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Festive Season is hard for us all to get through without our beloved
Love & hugs to all 
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It is so hard. It is my birthday today. I don’t feel the same. There are flowers everywhere. I can’t look at them and see their beauty. They just remind me of death. I can’t do this new life x
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P sending a big hug x
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@Heartsand
Sending a hug.
Mine was August too. I agree I’m emotionally coping a lot less well than I did earlier. Can’t sleep as I feel so anxious.
We got married on my birthday so how I’ll cope with that when it comes round next year I’ve no idea.
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@Mbg
Sending a hug for living. Know what you mean about flowers.
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Good morning.
I wish there were words that could help us but I just can’t find any, apart from sending my love and loads of hugs to you all.
I seem to be getting worse instead of better. There are certainly more tears now than a few weeks ago. I just cry at the drop of a hat. I, like you all, love and miss my husband so much. I can’t see it ever getting any better, despite what some people tell me.
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I was the same last year lost my husband in May 23 and couldn’t send cards and miss his name off so I didn’t send any, every little thing sets you off, in January I have my husband’s birthday and our anniversary, its just so hard. This xmas Ive felt worse than last yr and really wanted to spend it on my own but couldn’t bring myself to say that to my son and his family as I spent last yr with my daughter and her family xxx
Take care and just take each day one at a time thats all any of us can do xxxx
@Georgi i can’t believe the similarity we have at first I thought it was me writing my love . I lost my Andrew in may 23 too and it was his birthday / our anniversary in January. It still seems unreal . I hope you get through these difficult months . I am going abroad again I can’t cope here at Christmas without him . My hugs to you
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