P sending a big hug x
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@Heartsand
Sending a hug.
Mine was August too. I agree I’m emotionally coping a lot less well than I did earlier. Can’t sleep as I feel so anxious.
We got married on my birthday so how I’ll cope with that when it comes round next year I’ve no idea.
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@Mbg
Sending a hug for living. Know what you mean about flowers.
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Good morning.
I wish there were words that could help us but I just can’t find any, apart from sending my love and loads of hugs to you all.
I seem to be getting worse instead of better. There are certainly more tears now than a few weeks ago. I just cry at the drop of a hat. I, like you all, love and miss my husband so much. I can’t see it ever getting any better, despite what some people tell me.
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I was the same last year lost my husband in May 23 and couldn’t send cards and miss his name off so I didn’t send any, every little thing sets you off, in January I have my husband’s birthday and our anniversary, its just so hard. This xmas Ive felt worse than last yr and really wanted to spend it on my own but couldn’t bring myself to say that to my son and his family as I spent last yr with my daughter and her family xxx
Take care and just take each day one at a time thats all any of us can do xxxx
@Georgi i can’t believe the similarity we have at first I thought it was me writing my love . I lost my Andrew in may 23 too and it was his birthday / our anniversary in January. It still seems unreal . I hope you get through these difficult months . I am going abroad again I can’t cope here at Christmas without him . My hugs to you
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This time of year brings many challenges. How to get through all the family festivities when there’s an empty hole left by the one that ought to be there. My wife loved Christmas so much. She hosted right through, always making sure everyone felt special.
Then dementia meant she couldn’t figure out the cooking, present giving, social chit chat. All too much. At least in the care home she was waited on, made to feel a little normal again and had people round her who ( including me) wanted to make her feel loved and safe.
I’ve just come from her grave. I know she’s not there really but I always feel close to her somehow and I cry that I miss her so much. No wonder people tell of the temptation to throw themselves in the grave as well. It so bloody final.
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Sending a big virtual hug 
Hang in there. You are not alone we understand what you are going through.
sending a big hug
Hugs to you too! That sure is weird xx We were married 47 yrs, and yes its really hard and can’t see me “getting over it” anytime soon, as they say “grief is love with nowhere to go “ so will be with us always !
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I find myself looking at the photos and little videos I took of Bridget in the care home in 2019 to 2013 and it brings it all back how much I wanted to care for her. From the head of a school department and wiping the floor with me at Scrabble , to not knowing me, being confused about her world, having to be washed and dressed and fed by others and generally helpless.
But I look at those photos and I see a woman I would’ve died for. If by some miracle I could’ve swapped places. But then she would be grieving over me.
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I just focus on the thought I will be with my husband when it’s my turn to go. I am not a religious person, so if thats just joining him in the grave or in spirit as long as I’m with him thats all that matters xxx
Sending a hug xx
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@Georgi i know I will be with him again one day . That is all that keeps me going . Such love you have is an ache for them
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I hope very much that my angel will be there to greet me with love and a big hug when my time comes 
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My second Xmas without my fiancé plus my birthday the 27 so not looking forward to Xmas at all but trying to put on a brave face for my children. And his daughter
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I too wish that for myself and all of us xxx
I know its very hard,I hope you can have a little bit of fun with your kids on the day xxx
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A big hug
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Sending love to everyone xxx
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It’s my second Christmas to finding it harder than last year
Sending to all
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