My husband went to work one day 8 months ago and had a massive heart attack and died instantly. He was 67 and we were waiting for the birth of our first grandchild. We had been married 40 years. The not being able to say goodbye and tell him i loved him one last time really hurts. I have just recently gone back to work part time. It is so hard still.
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Hi @ Martin2
So sorry for your loss of your Tina.
It is so hard getting through these times.
Everyone on this website knows exactly the pain heartache 
grief loneliness you are experiencing and we are all hear to listen help and advise best as we can.
Some of us are further on some of us are just beginning the life on our own but we all know it feels.
Please look after yourself stay strong
Lynne
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I will try it’s just so so hard x
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Hi @Martin2
I know sometimes it is very difficult but you must look after yourself.
I find some days worse than others, and the tears are not far away sometimes but i know that we dont know how long each of us has left but we must make the most of the time we have.
I used to volunteer for Macmillan before my husband passed and have decided to go back next month hopefully this will help me to be actively involved helping others.
I know it is early for you on this new life but you will find something to help you.
Take care
Lynne
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Thank you. I hope you have a better day today x
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Hi Lynne
It’s tiring to have to go out just to be out and no where really to go 
I think the weather plays a big part in this so let’s hope for the Spring so we all might just be able to take a (big) step forward 
I hope you have a good day in the garden today.
Stay strong x
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I am so sorry for your loss. I lost my angel to a sudden heart attack on 2nd May 23, now almost 9 months in and I am still in shock and disbelief that it happened. He was so lively and going about life planning everything from travelling to retirement to the very last minutes of his life.
Life is so cruel indeed 
Please take good care and stay strong x
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I am so sorry for your loss. I can understand how you feel when there is no one to chat, laugh or share anything with. We all are going through the same horrendous trauma - it’s a cruel world for us who have lost our beloved.
Please take good care x
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Morning @Angel1309
Hope you managed some sleep last night.
I got about 5hrs broken sleep but at least some rest.
Bit of bad night yesterday my neighbour let me know that he thought his wife who is 75 had a TIA attack and was waiting on ambulance to come. I sat with them till it came then came home. Seeing ambulance outside again brought back when they came 8 months ago when my husband passed away at home so was a bit upset and had a cry 
He has just texted me to say she is fine no attack and not sure but waiting on doctor at A&E.
Feels like life seems to be testing me these days
Here’s hoping today is a better day
Take care
Lynne x
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So similar, my angel went to work one day over 8 months ago and had a sudden heart attack at lunchtime while out walking. He was found by the roadside by a stranger who called 999 but it was too late - he couldn’t be saved.
I totally resonate with you not being there with him during his last moments really hurts. I have gone back (part-time) to work 3 weeks afterwards and these days I am still in shock and disbelief that this happened.
Our whole world fell apart the day we lost our beloved
Take care x
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There are bad days and okay days it’s difficult for us all to try and get through but I agree we must look after ourselves and make the most of the time we have left. We can’t now have them beside us physically but we still can hold and cherish the memories we had all these years together forever 
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Lovely words and so true try all and have a good weekend
So sorry for your loss. Just wanted to say - what an absolutely fabulous idea to have a ring made!! I so wish I’d thought of it. Sadly, I didn’t keep any of the ashes - I didn’t think about that at the time. Hugs, Ann
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Getting their sorry for late reply not been myself past 2 days I seem ok in front of others but when alone in my bedroom I break down part of me went with him the day god called him home he wasn’t ready to go 51 is still too young his daughter has disowned me and won’t speak ever again she will be 16 next month and so will his dog Rudi if he’s still alive poor thing although I called him a ambulance the night he passed feel so guilty I wasn’t their but from what the medics told me and what I saw wasn’t a nice sight come the end my poor angel 
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Same here, people keep saying I am doing so well - little do they know behind the closed doors I feel so hollow and empty .
Sorry to hear about the situation with your fiancé’s daughter - very sad at a time like this. Stay strong x
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Thank you this forum really helps xxx
I am so grateful to this forum - not sure how I would have coped so far tbh!
xxx
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