Hi @ Pakapa
Hope the weathet holds out this weekend.
Too much rain in Edinburgh thonking of visiting garden centre at easter just to watch the world go by maybe but a plant have a coffee.
Will be strange without them
Take care
Lynne Xx
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I no just mopping about just watching film Indian bike salt planes Breaking speed limits watched few years back with tina I’m saying the same things then as I am saying now but with no reply crying not going to lie to you I don’t like it being around no one this long weekend don’t help we was a way birthday next week on me own for the first time going to say I hate it thinking what’s the future holds because right now I can’t see one 63 almost our life was going to be growing old together I was robbed as weal are on here
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Even in a crowded room you still look for them and they are not there. nobody else in the family understands how you feel because they still have there family around them and I feel just left sitting here with just my thoughts
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Last night just before I fell asleep I was talking to my angel saying I wished I could see him again in my dream. I couldn’t believe he was there in my dream staying completely still next to me, so I said ‘do you know how long since I last kissed you?’ He stayed still and said nothing I started kissing him non-stop and this morning I woke up feeling so loved and comforted. Is this the power of the subconscious mind because I was so desperate to see him so much…or is he really around and watching over me?…I wonder! I guess we’ll never know! Whatever it is I am just so grateful for his presence, I miss you so much my angel 
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No sleep at all weekends not bad face book two years back opened up my tina driving our new coach to yard I was filming God I’m a mess now xx
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In garden relaxing sun out postive right now see if it lasts hope your all trying to be busy
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Same here, reading in the sunshine now. I decided to strip wallpaper this morning, then my dog nagged me to take her out, thank God for her. Ended up at a local arboretum then I went in the pub and sat outside with a drink. Until a big party sat next to me and started asking if they could take the chairs from around my table, thanks for that.
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Bless you least you got out me still in garden thinking shall I get John smith out umm tempting
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Sending big hugs & strength
Please take good care xx
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Such a beautiful and sunny day so did some gardening planting some roses, peony and other perenial on my flower bed and time just flew by. Good weather does make a difference to how we feel!
Let’s hope we see more of sunny days… 
best wishes to everyone x
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Sat on my own crying my eyes out asking him why did he leave me on my own
I miss him so much I tired going for a walk but nothing is making me feel better today
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I’m the same today. I went out in my car intending to go for a proper walk, but ended up driving miles in the countryside and just walking and crying for half an hour. Home again now and back to crying on the sofa. The only ones who get all this are you all, on this site.
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Nothing is going to make me feel better today either.I didn’t think Easter would bother me we never did much but we were together.People telling me to have a nice Easter have made it worse and a relative brought me a beautiful basket of flowers for Easter and when I look at them it just upsets me.
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Today is my first Easter without my husband and also my adult daughters first birthday without her dad. Two upset people today. Its 10 months since he died but it doesnt seem to be getting easier.
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I can’t believe that Steve died. We were totally in love with each other and inseparable. We couldn’t sleep without each other. It isnt like a break-up, I’ll never bump into him in town, and we’ll never have the chance to get back together. He is gone and I’m heartbroken. I wonder if he would be reacting like this, I think he probably would.
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@SadGirlfriend I think about if roles were reversed and in some ways I wouldn’t want her to go through the pain that I face everyday. This is my first Easter without her and whilst Easter wasn’t the biggest event in the house I missed her even more today because of the little things she would’ve done. I am however dreading Christmas and already thinking with my son that we need a plan - be it going overseas or something.
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No, I wouldn’t wish this suffering on anyone, either. Sometimes I think I need to try a bit harder and not to be such a misery, but I think he would feel the same as I do because of how we were with each other.
I also think about Christmas. My dog will be 15 by then, if she is still with me then good, but I plan to close up my house and clear off for a long time once she’s gone, too. I really can’t bear this.
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This is my first Easter on my own we always went away for a few days at Easter .My family don’t bother and don’t understand how I feel or they don’t really care send hugs to all
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