Hi @Pam14
I dont drive my husband was my driver
So finding getting about by public transport something i have to plan to get places.
I miss him so much its the not having someone to talk to mo more laughs hugs etc.
His birthday is thus month another 1st he will be 64.
Lynne x
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My husband would off been 67 this month x
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Hi @Pam14
Too young to be gone from our lives.
We all had plans retirement holidays times together. Now on my own doesn’t hold much joy or pleasure.
Almost 1 year on now not sure i can cope with another 20+ if we are living to our 80’s
Going to visit my mum who is 88 and in care home has dementia but no other illness. She has forgotten my husband but still recognises me.
Life has a habit of throwing curveballs to try me.
Lynne
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My mum has just turned 91 she blind and deaf and lives on her own she is an inspiration. She lost my dad 4 years ago x
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I totally agree it doesn’t get any easier sadly 
Take care everyone x
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I go to bed early as well, as soon as I finish my dinner up to the bedroom and put on TV for background noise and eventually fall asleep just to wake again in the middle of the night - lonely life 
Take care x
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Easter Monday today so not working! Not often that I feel contented being at home - so thankful for the sunny weather, sitting in my garden trying to make the most of peaceful time at home that I rarely have in the past 11 months.
Hope & pray that this will last forever so I don’t have to rush out to pound the streets of London just to avoid being empty and lonely.
Take care x
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@Galaxy75 im not looking forward to the date either . I hope I can go away for it . It is so hard isn’t it
It’s raining here now so no walk for me this afternoon .But my daughter came so that was a surprise x
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Thank you. I don’t have anything to do re admin as I wasn’t NOK, but I was heavily involved in the funeral arrangements. That’s all behind us now.
I took myself on a city break after the funeral, 6 weeks later. I took the train as I’d crashed my car 6 days after he died and wrote it off. It did work as in my heart stopped hurting so much and my stomach upset stopped for a while.
I read about broken heart syndrome; what happened to you?
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Yes we all need to be kind to ourselves no one really understands what we are going through except us here going through the same sad journey together x
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Nature is so beautiful isn’t it ?
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@Georgi you are right it wouldn’t change things to move . Sundays feel even more sad I agree . My husband would have been 59 this year it is so unfair
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No nobody understands how we feel they still have there partners and there families Trying to go out and make new friends is hard x
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Hi @Jol and @Pam14 yes I agree with you both. Making new friends is very hard especially when you have been in a long term relationship and now find yourself on your own. I try and get out but it’s so hard trying to start again. Take care.x
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Yes it is hard and I have given up trying to make new friends now so just chuck along wherever my heart leads me, go with the flow each day. Life is never the same, sadly, without my angel by my side 
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Every day trying to learn to be and do things by myself it’s hard but hopefully will get used to it someday somehow with the hope that my angel is spiritually by my side guiding and watching over me - miss you so much my angel
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I miss my steve and cry every day x
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Hi @Pam14
Me too its just so hard without them around and i can cope during the day as keep busy its the nights i feel sad.
Sending you hugs 
Take care
Lynne
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