When they are not sat next to you anymore it is hard I find myself looking for him when I’m out or thinking he will be home when I come back
You take care I I send you a hug back x
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@Pam14 i torture myself too he was always outside cleaning our cars and tending to the garden .I so wish him being outside now and my heart breaks to pieces again
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I miss my angel 24/7 every breath I take 
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After 4 days at home alone, quiet & non-speaking, glad to be going to the office today to be with people again 
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I am retired so have nowhere to go any day but to be in my lonely house x
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Sending you hugs and healing prayers xx
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Life can be so cruel at times least you go a second time with baz I was only getting to know Steve as was only 3 years I wish I had more time with him we were meant to get married so sad he doed suddenly from a bleeding ulcer and he was a diabetic aswell Just remember they Will always be with us and protect us x
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They will always be in are hearts we will always carry them with us .it is a cruel world we have to cherish the memories sending hugs to all x
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@Eveybabes yes I know we had a lot more time than you did but the loss of my one true love has absolutely devastated me . I will never be the same person I was when he was by my side . I’ve lost all my confidence, physically I feel very unwell and my mental health has taken a battering . Life seems pointless. We were going to get married this year , so I feel like I’ve lost both a partner and a husband if this makes sense . I feel very cheated by life xxx
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Same here Pam 14, being retired was something to look forward to as a couple but on your own its just a chore xx
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Yes it is we planned to do so much together x
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Sending big hugs x
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I totally agree with every word you said 
Take care everyone x
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Yes I totally get you I’m the same I wish i had more time with my fiancé but he left too soon his diabetes and ulcer took him I tried to help but was too late I feel anger and guilt it’s ripped me apart took me 2 years to except my mum passing and that was 13 years ago don’t think I’m ever going to get I’ve losing my angel 51 is so young
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Yes @Pam14 and @Georgi . I had retired at 55 and he didn’t work much so we were so happy that I did only a couple of shifts to keep us going out and being together more . It’s horrific that he went when I was 56
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Can’t sleep, all kinds of things running in my mind so overwhelming!
At the beginning of 2023 we thought we had worked so hard all these years and were blissfully happy and now it’s time to work less and play more so started preparing for our plans to semi-retire in 2024. He suddenly passed away in May! My whole world fell apart, I’m now semi-retiring alone and trying to live the life how we used to live for both of us, carrying on doing what we used to do together, alone for both of us. My love, my angel I miss you so much and I hope you are happy and at peace wherever you are - I miss you so much my love
It’s the first anniversary of his passing on 2 May and I just can’t bear to be alone in the house so going to spend the day in Paris with my girlfriend who kindly offered to accompany me for which I am so grateful.
Take care everyone x
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@Angel1309 im so sorry for you it’s the same for me in may 22 . I am at work tonight love . Sorry you can’t sleep . I am on mitazipine it knocks me out for about 10 hours . I was always up now without it . Glad you have someone to support you . I have my son
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I miss my beautiful wife every moment, gone at 49. I crave her company, her advice, her love. She was always there to help others despite being in pain. She is no longer in pain but no longer here. For her to remain pain free I feel I must accept she can’t be physically here with me - that will be a daily battle - putting her peace before my wants. Im failing at the moment but I’ll try again today. So many lessons are becoming clearer in the home we shared, every single item on the walls, on shelf’s, in drawers and written in notebooks has a memory behind it. She lived those years as best she could and created memories with me that only I know about. Thank you my sweet Nicola for sharing those precious 31yrs with me, I feel blessed but so so sad. You will never be forgotten. Time to sleep now x
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When he went, half of me went with him. I now live my life in semi-darkness and cannot see any light. I too, keep trying again each day but nothing can help me. One friend told me that I had been cut very deeply, that summed it up. This wound will not heal.
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@Eveybabes I think we all wish we had more time don’t we ? 20 years for me and that’s not enough . My mum died 2 years almost to the day prior to Baz and the double shock is almost too much to bear . Losing my mum took many months of terrible grief and severe anxiety- Baz helped me through this time . Just as I was starting to feel slightly better and begin putting my life back together, Baz died very suddenly. I’m heartbroken by life
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