Thank you @Jol we all here know too well how hard it is to get through this.
I am so grateful to be able to air & share on this amazing platform we all are going through the same sad journey and supporting one another through it.
I hope you will manage to get to sleep without mitazipine someday soon.
Take care x
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Same here, I crave his company, his advice, his so always honest opinion, his witty jokes and most of all his unconditional love 
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Hope you had good sleep. Take care x
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Totally agree - my whole world crumbled the day I lost him. Life will never be the same again without our beloved 
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God I went to bed early no point staying up x just woke up an reading all the messages I’m hart broken my self x to read what I have above x we all in the same boat so lost I’m going to try an have a postive day going to see if I can pack some of tina clothes in to bags take them to cancer charity shop said I’ll try my gut feeling says Umm or just leave it try every one to have a good day and think of the happy memories you maid take care all x
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Hi @ KMCG
Sorry to hear of the loss of your wife.
It is very early days for yourself and so young.
My husband passed last year suddenly at 63 but we had 38 years together so lots of memories.
You can only take one day at a time in this new life we find ourselves living in.
Take time to look after yourself
Lynne
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Hi @Martin2
Like you say sometimes you make a plan to do things but on the day you can’t do it.
Yesterday i was feeling down and full of the cold started to go through some items but stopped . The house is full of my husbands things some i have put to charity other things i cant sort yet. Nearly 10 months for me one step forward two steps back.
Today is another day hopefully soon i can try to sort out things at home.
There is no easy time to do anything only when you feel ready to do things.
Take care
Lynne
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I can’t even pack my Steve’s clothes away they are still in the wardrobe.The more time goes on the more I miss him I can’t enjoy anything anymore even when I go out it’s not the same without him I don’t like my new life
I would like to turn back to 6 months ago so I could be with him again .sometimes I wish I could just go to sleep at night and not wake up 
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I totally understand its 10 months for me and i still have his clothes in wardrobe. I cannot face it yet. I also used to wish i could turn time back. The pain is still raw
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Hi @Hazell @Pam14
Yes 10 months for me too.
I’ve tried to clear some of husbands things but ended up judt leaving on wardrobe and drawers.
I cant do it yet i feel like i wpuld be erasing him all of his possessions memories just not able to at the moment.
This new life we now have is tough and not an easy path.
Lynne x
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It is not an easy path. Our whole lives have changed. I still cant believe i will never see him again. My heart is broken forever.
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It is hard I have to push myself every day I have my grandson today it’s the first time since steve past it will be hard .But I have to remember it is hard for him aswell
Hopefully he will make me smile today x
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Hi @ pam14
Hopefully your grandson will cheer up your day.
Life on our own is so hard like ypu and others here dont ever think we get over it we just survive exist in this new world
Take care
Lynne Xx 
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I “we” have 10 year old twin granddaughters that absolutely adored their grandad and I have them after school one day a week and sometimes at the weekend. They really do cheer me up and lift my spirits . They are a real blessing. Take care every one. Ann x
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I go to bed early too every night as soon as I finish my dinner I am in my bed either reading or watching TV on my IPad usually around 6-7 pm, then fall asleep around 10-11 then up again at around 3 am that’s when all these thoughts start to run through my head keeping me awake until morning- how exhausting!
I wear his T-shirt to sleep every night, his fleece jacket to keep me warm around the house and his scarf around my neck when I am out. A lot of his clothes were given to the grand kids whatever fits them - I’ve kept the rest and have planned to put all his stuff in a special box in one corner of the wardrobe along with the outfit he wore on his last day
We are in the same boat indeed and only we know exactly what we are going through and how we really feel each and every day.
Take good care everyone x
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I’m so glad I found this forum , just to know it’s not just me feeling like I do ( horrible everyone here is going through the suffering I am ) .
I was the one who always stayed up late , wanting to watch just one more episode of whatever we were watching , now I’m saying goodnight to the kids as they watch tv as I just want to go to bed for a brief respite from the gut wrenching emptiness I’ve felt everyday since she died.
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Even though my grandaughters cheer me up I still miss my darling husband as much now as when I lost him nearly 10 months ago. I am only half a person and cry myself to sleep most nights. Ann x
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Hi @ AnnieG1
I know how you feel.
I miss my husband after 10 months and he was only 63 and i quess i always will
I feel down today as not well full of cold and have chest infection. I misd him looking after me and spoiling me now have to do everything on my own just not the same. He helped me through my cancer scare and treatment 3 years ago and now i have to face follow up appointments on my own. I still dont understand why he is gone and i hope sometime i will get an answer.
Take care
Lynne x
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So sorry for your loss. Please keep sharing on this amazing forum we are all here to share and support one another as we understand what each of us are going through.
Take care x
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Hi @ Galaxy75 it’s awful isn’t it more so when you don’t feel well and are poorly. I hope you feel better asap. The last 5 years of my husband’s life I was his full time carer so when I was poorly he couldn’t help me but at least he was here for me. Sending hugs. Ann x
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Take care of yourself it’s not nice when you are not well or you have to go to hospital on your own x
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