Hi Lynne
Received, thank you & sending back hug & love.
I hope you will get through the day with peace and love whatever you do 
Sending big hugs & strength 
xx
@Ilovehorses
I know, it feels like ages sometimes and other times it feels like yesterday!
I hope you will get through the day with peace and love whatever you may choose to do.
Sending hugs and strength 
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Thank you
Hope you have a good weekend
Its always harder during the weekends
Take care
Lynne
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Hugs received thank you 
. Yes, a little relief that day has passed and now trying to focus on rebuilding the new life alone although the deep sadness is still there if not more 
somehow just can’t get over the constant feeling sorry…sorry that he is missing out on all the things that I am seeing or experiencing…sorry that he is missing out on what life has to offer…sorry that his life ended the way that it did 
I went to the grave the day before and again today chatting to him about my trip on the day and how I was missing him so much and spending the night crying on the hotel bed Every trip to the cemetery so far has been so comforting and every time he came into my dream I woke up feeling loved again - feeling his love makes me feel alive.
Best wishes xxx
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A few days ago I received a message from my online counsellor suggesting that I could make a garden memorial to honour my angel and I did just that; I wrote his name and loving messages to him along the flower bed walls and also on the four corners of the garden table - it works wonders! Whenever I am in the garden I feel his love when I am sitting at the table I feel he is sitting beside me I feel so loved - sounds crazy but I truly feel that, sorry guys I am going on a bit
Take care everyone xx
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That is so lovely x
Hi @ Angel1309
It is good that you still have dreams of him.
The stong connection energy never goes away.
I have only had my husband return on 1st Jan this year in a dream but i know he is close by.
Living this new live without them is taking some time to get used to but we have too go on.
Take care
Lynne
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I’m going to get a proper ( not cheap catalogue style but long lasting commercial style ) bench in our garden with a memorial plaque , will raise a glass to my wife many times this summer sat there listening to both our favourite tunes , will even put up with the looks from the neighbours when I play her tunes ( loudly now as I don’t give a f ) 
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I know its so hard living without them,but we have no choice, this is the hand we have been dealt and we just need to navigate it the best we can.
So happy for you that he comes to you in your dreams, I have only experienced that once in the very beginning and it was a gd experience,
Its been a long, lonely day today but weekends can be like that, hopefully weather will be nicer tomorrow and I can put my airpods on and go for a long walk,some days its hard to motivate myself to do anything x
Take care xx
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Thank you 
Hi Lynne, sadly he hasn’t come in to my dreams in the past few weeks but I would like to believe he’s still around watching over and guiding me somehow 
hate to think he’s left me for good this time . Yes life without our beloved is not what we want but we have to just keep marching on.
Sending love, hugs and strength to everyone, take care xx
Yes, I couldn’t agree more and I’m so thankful
Great idea & good on you, who cares what the neighbours might think 
(their problem)
He hasn’t come into my dreams lately 
but I still hope he’s around . Life is now hard without our soulmates but we have to keep going and hope that it will get less painful someday somehow . The problem these days is there’s too much time and not enough to do and someone to do it with so no joy - not really living but only existing day by day 
weekends are the hardest I agree
Take care & best wishes xxx
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Hi @ Angel1309
Yes weekends are hard to get through.
But the knowledge that our partners are watching over us gives me hope for the future now.
Life will never be the same and missing them never goes away but hope that we will see them in the future helps.
I had 38 years together with my partner more than half my life so that i am so grateful for.
Take care
Lynne Xx
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Hi Lynne
I totally agree with you word by word…me too I spent 37 years with my angel more than anyone else in my life and I feel so blessed to have had those wonderful years and will cherish them for as long as I live.
Big hugs xx
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Sending hugs and strength
Take care
Lynne x
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I feel you’re pain , i lost my husband 3 weeks and one day ago in tragic circumstances. I feel so lonely and empty. Everyone says take one day at a time. I know this through my own training with dealing with death in my job. But nothing prepares you for this hole left in your life. The feeling of waking up every day to feel as if he is still with you and then remembering he has gone ! Its like a big black hole and you cant get out !
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Those early days are the hardest, I won’t pretend it gets easier, (1st anniversary of losing my husband was last week) it ls just you learn to live with grief a bit better, I still shed tears every day, I still get that feeling in the pit of my stomach when I look at a foto of him, that overwhelming realisation that I won’t see him walk thru the door again.
I hope you have friends & family around you in those early days & wks because that helps ease the emptiness, take advantage of that because it does help xxx
This forum has been a great comfort to me over the last year, I don’t always comment but I go on it every day, You realise the thoughts & things you are feeling are normal we all have them xxx
Take care & we are all here anytime you need us xxx
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Thank you ! That is so appreciated and kind. I’m so sorry for your loss. The funeral is next week and im dreading how I’m going to get through it. I think it will be the realisation that hes gone and its final! That will be so hard. As at this time my mind plays tricks, as if hes going to walk through the door. Even our dog keeps looking out for him.
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