The sofa has been my bed many nights. Whatever helps xx
It really is upsetting especially when inside we falling apart , they havnt got a clue how the pain we feel , ill be 60 next week i was supposed to be going away for couple off days but my cousin she gave backword but that was only when i asked whats is time etc arrangements, she just said or i carnt go now ! Yesterday i cleaned my car inside and out even waxed it ,then this morning a little white fether on my back light i smiled and thought my hubby giving me his approval for a job welldone
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@Tinatina
Well done on cleaning your car
Your husband was definitely giving you the thumbs up. 
Sod your cousin. I’m so sorry you’ve been let down by her.
Love, hugs and strength to you
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Thankyou i believe so too , it really good to talk on ere people understand how i feel because you all feel the same way , i feel as if my friends think i should be trying more to get on with my life but its not that easy as you all know they still got husband’s i feel so alone we used to go places as couples but no more , i live for my kids and grandkids they keep me going but i put a coping face on when they are with me them have meltdowns when im on my own , i dont want to worry them i want them to get on in life x
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I’ve been sat in the garden with some off the family today enjoying the sunshine .my Steve used to love sitting in the garden enjoying the sun it’s so hard doing the things we liked to do on my own 
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I am finding it so hard to do anything without him.
Big hugs x
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It is very hard isn’t it he loved being in the sunshine and he loved having the grandkids round and I had the little great grandson running round the garden today steve never got a chance to see him walking there is so much that they will miss
Hugs back x
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Totally agree xxx
My daughter had her first baby yesterday and I did alot of tears this morning knowing he wasn’t here ( well on earth) to celebrate with me .
Miss him so very much .
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No I didn’t but keep looking for them tonight so fingers crossed
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Congratulations @Elite , I’m sure he’d be a proud grandad.
I didn’t see the Northern lights yesterday but I’m going to try again tonight, I think I may be too far south
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I’ve taken a few photos but doesnt really look much. Looked better through the camera. Like you I just wish Roger was here. We’d have probably walked to more open ground
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WOW !!
Stunning photos. Thank you for sharing them with us
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I had that same feeling back in February when our youngest grandson was born, it was hard and a mixture of feelings. It was also a traumatic birth his head got stuck for quite some time and baby was stressed, when they eventually managed to get him out his body was limp and he had stopped breathing, midwives whisked him away to work on him and thankfully succeeded. I am convinced during that spell he was gone that he met his Granda and other family members because he is always really interested in looking at my fridge/freezer doors as they are full of photos of of our grandkids, his Granda and great grandparents on both sides and he always looks intently at the fotos of those who have all passed, and the ones of great grandparents are when they were young as are the fotos of myself and husband ! He is fascinated and even smiles when looking at them, true or not I get comfort from the thot he has met them on the other side xx
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So sorry in my haste to relay my story I forgot to say many congratulations on the birth of your new grandchild, it will be hard for you & your family but it will ease in time, and the new baby is something to focus on to ease your pain xxx
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Hi Georgi,
Tfanhs do much for kind words. Mum and baby doing well thank you.
We have to take comfort and note signs that those we love so much are still close and watching over us. Xx
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It sure does bring comfort to think they are near and can see the special things that are happening even if we cannot see them xxx
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Totally agree on the single part my friends are your single again now and in time will maybe meet someone to love 
I was like are you insane I’m not interested only been 10 month and today would have been 4 years together i west both our engagement rings together and to me we are still engaged Shame we never got to walk down the aisle he passed suddenly but I will never forget him or what he done for my girls and myself xx
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People can be insensitive luv im going away friday till sunday with 4 friends in one of their static caravan will be nice to get away but it hard putting a brave face on pretending i coping ok just so im not giving doom and gloom vibes out i dont want to spoil it for them , its been 18 months for me my husband unexpectedly died at age 59 been together all our Adult life from age 17 , lifes so hard without him all my friends have still got husband’s so i no longer fit in coupes box to be invited out , its mad because we can have our families and friends around us but yet still feel so lonely xx
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