I had that same feeling back in February when our youngest grandson was born, it was hard and a mixture of feelings. It was also a traumatic birth his head got stuck for quite some time and baby was stressed, when they eventually managed to get him out his body was limp and he had stopped breathing, midwives whisked him away to work on him and thankfully succeeded. I am convinced during that spell he was gone that he met his Granda and other family members because he is always really interested in looking at my fridge/freezer doors as they are full of photos of of our grandkids, his Granda and great grandparents on both sides and he always looks intently at the fotos of those who have all passed, and the ones of great grandparents are when they were young as are the fotos of myself and husband ! He is fascinated and even smiles when looking at them, true or not I get comfort from the thot he has met them on the other side xx
So sorry in my haste to relay my story I forgot to say many congratulations on the birth of your new grandchild, it will be hard for you & your family but it will ease in time, and the new baby is something to focus on to ease your pain xxx
Hi Georgi,
Tfanhs do much for kind words. Mum and baby doing well thank you.
We have to take comfort and note signs that those we love so much are still close and watching over us. Xx
It sure does bring comfort to think they are near and can see the special things that are happening even if we cannot see them xxx
Totally agree on the single part my friends are your single again now and in time will maybe meet someone to love 
I was like are you insane I’m not interested only been 10 month and today would have been 4 years together i west both our engagement rings together and to me we are still engaged Shame we never got to walk down the aisle he passed suddenly but I will never forget him or what he done for my girls and myself xx
People can be insensitive luv im going away friday till sunday with 4 friends in one of their static caravan will be nice to get away but it hard putting a brave face on pretending i coping ok just so im not giving doom and gloom vibes out i dont want to spoil it for them , its been 18 months for me my husband unexpectedly died at age 59 been together all our Adult life from age 17 , lifes so hard without him all my friends have still got husband’s so i no longer fit in coupes box to be invited out , its mad because we can have our families and friends around us but yet still feel so lonely xx
That is how i feel when I’m with my family
Hope you have a lovely few days away
That is how i’ m feeling lost and alone. Cant funtion proberly sonce losing my husband 5 weeks ago. Everything seems pointless! I hate my life now, its so empty.Big hugs
What you have said about your life now just about sums up the way I feel.x
Yes everything seems pointless, life is empty with no direction - just existing day after day 
That’s exactly what it is an existence and its so so hard to get up in a morning knowing your facing another day of just existing with nothing to look forward to and the one person you would talk to about feelings like that is not here to listen 
@Georgi Sitting in the garden in the sunny and beautiful afternoon listening to my playlist then suddenly the song that we played at the burial “Jealous of the Angels” started playing - here I go again I’m so heartbroken and in pieces every time this song comes up 
so empty, so lonely and so deeply sad and broken
Everyday I dread the next day knowing it’s going to be another empty and pointless day…forever
Take care everyone xx
Me too trying to keep it together today but not managing crying again.
I know its all part of healing but just now im in pieces bo reason today just one of thesr down days.
Take care
Lynne
Yeh I always find Sundays are the hardest days to be alone & grieving xxx
We will all get through this together, we have to as we have no choice but this forum helps knowing your not the only one grieving xxx
It’s the silence that gets you and the feeling of despair at times. The grief just keeps coming when you least expect it. This journey is so hard and im only 5 weeks in. I miss him so much. When will all this stop ! 
Bless you all its so hard but 5 weeks is so raw , hopefully you got family and friends by your side , just take one day at a time sweetheart thats all we can do , i spoke to people whos lost partners for alot of years they tell me you never stop griving but you learen to live along side of it , 18 months on and i can be having a ok day then grief its just like a bolt of lightning it hits you again and again ! I find spiritual church a comfort my husband and grandparents have came forward with messages for me somethings no one chould have known , let your tears flow luv dont try to hold back sending hugs
I agree with you, I lost my Phil 8 months ago. Yesterday my older grandson went out to buy his prom suit - his Grandad would have been so proud of him as he grows into a young man. I had the back yard jet washed recently and it looks so good now - something Phil meant to do but never got round to due to his ill health. Every time I sit out there I think of him pottering around his plants and another sadness fills me up. So many things are happening and he should be here to see them unfold.
That really sums up how I feel. He should be here, he deserves to be here experiencing so many things.
Big hug,
Rose x
Bless you i know what you mean it was my 60th birthday last week i came down stairs that morning my daugher had trimmed diningroom up in happy 60th birthday my tears started running down my cheeks i said thankyou its made me feel emotional and hugged her … my hubby should be ere we got a new baby granddaughter due to be born in 8 weeks time , im excited to cuddle and spoil her but at same time i know ill feel so emotional her Grandad no longer ere to share , ive just got home from cemetery had a talk and tears with him x
Sending love and hugs 
xx