I keep telling myself that but its so hard,im away with 4 friends Friday till this afternoon for my 60th birthday , im sat ere they all still asleep its been a nice weekend but at same time its hard when they constantly talk about their husband’s and their plans im happy for them but i sit in silence trying not to get upset , will i ever be happy again ? The happy me has died along with my husband x
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You can only take one day at a time and hope one day happiness will happen again for you. Like everyone on here, take one day at a time. There is no magic cure for this grief, just take comfort and support from your friends and everyone here. As we know what you’re going through and how hard the journey of grief is. 
xx
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You can be so alone and feeling so lonely and you can be surrounded by people and yet still feeling so lonely - it happens to me all the time sadly. We can only try take each day as it comes, even take one breath at a time if we have to.
Hopefully one day we will be able to adjust to the new normal living life with our beloved not physically but in our memories forever 
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Best wishes to everyone xx
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My daughter has come over from new Zealand with my granddaughter for a few weeks But it’s so hard with out my steve hes missing out on so much and it’s not the same without him.
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Our daughter was pregnant with our first grandchild when my husband died unexpectedly. He knew it was a girl but never got to meet her. My daughter also gave birth early because of losing her dad. He was so looking forward to being a grandad. It breaks my heart.
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Life so cruel sometimes i question if God exists if so why does he let awful heartbreaking things happen to good happy people, my husband died unexpectedly our 3rd granchild due in july wish he was ere to enjoy her , shes having a few complications something to do with blood not flowing as it should through cord mummy to be scan twice a week worried sick about mummy and baby and my son ,
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I was 59 when i lost my husband of 40 years. For my 60th i did nothing. A couple of friends came by but i just treated it as another day. 2 days after my 60th it would have been our wedding anniversary. Had a quite day for that too.
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I was 70 between his death and funeral last year,I didn’t do anything just hid away and the people that recognised it said I can’t wish you a happy birthday it was so hard I don’t remember much about it and don’t want to celebrate my birthday this year either.
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Hi @Ilovehorses
I dreaded Saturday, Sunday and Monday but tried to stay in - unsuccessfully of course, so ended up roaming the streets of London all three afternoons window shopping for hours.
I’ve made our garden his memorial garden (per my online counsellor’s suggestion) writing his name and love messages around the flower bed walls so that I can sit out there with him by my side. This weekend the weather was beautiful but I couldn’t bear to sit out there as planned, too painful to be alone, so went out instead and feeling a lit better afterwards.
It’s so hard to do all the things that we used to do together - alone, so heartbreaking 
take care x
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It’s such a lovely idea isn’t it to have a memorial garden - it’s a special place to be relaxing and reminiscing about our precious time together.
I hope you had a good first counselling session today - I had my sessions early on and found them to be of enormous help.
best wishes x
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Hi @Ilovehorses
You must be so relieved now that you finally got it off your chest having bottled it all up for so long. I am sorry you have gone through many losses in such a short space of time I can’t imagine how painful that must have been for you - losing one is hard enough to bear!
I hope the second season will be even better 
I have no plans for the weekend either, so another sad & lonely weekend, apart from going to the cemetery on Saturday morning for a chat with my angel 
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Take care xx
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We all are going through the same sad and lonely journey - I hate this lonely life without him - everyday is a struggle 
I think as the first counselling session was so good it overrun then, the second one will probably help you even further 
Apparently Saturday is going to be bright and sunny according to the BBC weather report so I am hoping to be sat in the garden as well.
best wishes xx
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Having such a bad day today feel so emotional and lonely some days i just think whats the point ! Then i look at my adult kids / Grandkids and think ive got to carry on taking one day at a time in hope
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We just have to try to carry on for are family and hope things get better for us .It is hard and very emotional most days I go off for a cry and I’m always talking to my steve and that do help me r I write it down as a message
Sending you a hug x
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Yes we have to carry on for our loved ones still here. Its not easy and sometimes I don’t tell them how bad I feel because they dont understand how hard it is for me. Well I think they do but they don’t know what to say
I’m always talking to Roger and sometimes I even tell him off for leaving me. He’s on my mind constantly. I write to him every day and I know my life is never going to be the same, but I will carry on somehow for them, and for him because I told him I would
Love and hugs
Liz x
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Sadly, it was cold and wet through out the day today - I even had my heating on and stayed in all afternoon!
So true, I often think and even say to his and my best friends that I may have lost him but he lost his own life that’s so much bigger than my loss and I feel so sorry that I couldn’t do anything to save him.
I would do anything to have my Sean back in a heartbeat too, I say good morning and good night to him everyday and tell him I miss him and wish he would be here by my side - I find it comforting to talk to him as if he was still around.
Exactly my sentiments - so grateful that I’m still here 
Take care x
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Sending big hugs x
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Angel. 1309.
I totally get that and tell my darling the same sort of thing every day and night 
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@Elite
so glad it works for you in the same way…to feel his presence makes me feel loved again…it gives me the reason to carry on, not living but just existing…xxx
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Bless ya im still lucky to have my mum and dad mum got dementia dad got copd and other health problems , i career for them both dementia is awful i feel im losing my mum bit by bit sometimes she says hurtful things but i just smile and carry on , wish my Chris was ere to give me a big hug and tell me everything going to be ok ! I miss him so much unless someone has lost a partner they haven’t got a clue what impact it has on us , its hard looking after mum and dad but so grateful ive still got them at 85 and 89 x
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