@RoseGarden Thank you.x
Dogs are affectionate and amazing we have 3 dogs in our office - all three are adorable!
We do need ‘me time’ occasionally and especially now more than ever - but at least your puppy helps distracting you from loneliness I’m sure.
I know we are helpless without our men - mine used to take care of everything in the house I took it for granted that he would be here forever.
Now I have to learn to take care of everything and it’s so overwhelming!
I must say I feel a little more confident as I have learnt so much in the past 13 months having been thrown in at the deep end! Hopefully one day I won’t feel so overwhelmed.
Take care xx
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I am so sorry to hear your news - I hope that your sister’s husband is recovering in good time. Good thing he was discovered soon enough and was saved! Life is just so unpredictable, you never know what’s around the corner, it makes me think I should try to live my life as if it was my last day!
Take care xx
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You’re very welcome 
Well, sadly we can only do so much for our partners and they are responsible for their own wellbeing too - more so than we should be! I know from my experience that even small things that don’t usually upset me - can multiply and upset me ten times more! So please take care and don’t let this upset you as right now I am sure you agree that you need to focus on your own grief which is already so heartbreaking 
Take care xx
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Have been doing sort of okay for a little while these days, I even feel a little guilty for not crying as much as before - then bang - everything turned upside down with one stressful week at work! Grief seems to creep up on you when you are stress or at your lowest - now I’ve realised!
So one giant step backward, crying, saying sorry and reminiscing over my angel’s last few days before he passed " What I could/should have done that might have saved his life and why didn’t I do that?" I even cried in the middle of the yoga class this morning and nothing I could do to stop it - fortunately, no one else noticed!
Fingers crossed next week will better as the awful week is now over so hopefully I will be taking a tiny step forward again 
best wishes to everyone 
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Hope you sleep well tonight after the trauma of A&E!
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This grief journey we are all in is one long rollercoaster, up days and down days, up weeks and down weeks but one thing for sure our partners are always on our minds even when we don’t even realise it! We just have to take the ups & downs as they come along and deal with them the best we can, I hope next week is better for you and remember our partners would never begrudge us the good days or good weeks because they know deep down we are always thinking of them in everything we do 
big hugs to you xxx
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Please no need to say sorry at all I hope you have now fully recovered from the all nighter in A&E. Thank you I do hope for a better week from next week …
Ah so you did cry at yoga as well…good to know it’s okay and it happens to us all. I must admit crying has made me feel better afterwards, drained but lighter! His best friend kindly came with me to the cemetery today as the memorial plagues were placed on the anniversary of his passing on 2nd May so we needed to tidy up the ground and decorate the grave. We spent a couple of hours there and it now looks so neat and ready for the roses and lavenders to be planted on top once the ground settles. Feeling so accomplished having done that 
Big hugs to you x
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So true, so comforting thank you. I got up this morning feeling a little better, said good morning to him as usual…talking to him makes me feel he is always around by my side guiding and watching over me just like the way it used to be . The sun was shining and that helped lifted the mood too! I do hope next week will be better fingers crossed .
Big hugs to you too 
xxx
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Yes I too get comfort from talking to him every day and saying good morning and good night, I have done that since day one and think I probably always will.
I’m happy you found comfort in what I said, I say the things on here that I feel and think, I am glad it can help, because I have found comfort from many of those who are on this forum!
Thats all we can do on here to comfort and find comfort from others on this same journey we are all on and I know for a fact it helps me greatly, take care & look after yourself as your partner would have wanted you to xxx
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I can totally resonate with your every word. TBH, I don’t know how I would have coped so far without this amazing forum, so thank you so much everyone for reading, sharing and supporting - I am truly appreciative.
Please take good care everyone
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@Angel1309 yes I agree everyone on here has been helpful and supportive
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Yes, we all are going through the same devastatingly sad and lonely journey so we share and support one another throughout this horrible ordeal! Let’s hope that one day it will get better
sending love to everyone
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I talked to my husband to ask why?? Why he left me in this torment ! How can someone say they love you but deceive you and lie for years. Someone you trusted and believed in, lied and cheated. I dont know how im suppose to grief or even how im existing. 
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If he could answer he would probably say he never wanted to leave you and nothing he could do to prevent it from happening!
I’d like to think that our beloved would have loved to be by our sides forever, but sadly what happened it’s completely out of our control so I guess we just have to try and take one day at a time to survive even though life is now so meaningless!
Take care
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I’m always asking my husband that but I’m sure he didn’t want to leave me
Thinking off you and everybody who has lost a loved one x
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The week before last I was so overwhelmed by stress at work so this week managed to approach the work more calmly and tried hard not to multitask - that worked wonderfully 
So glad I got through the week free from stress
Then weekend approached, before I started to panic, I wrote out my to do list and started hitting one by one throughout Friday and by the end of Saturday I managed to cross out everything on the list - feeling so satisfied 
I am now telling myself this is what I should be practicing everyday to help me cope in the long run - keeping busy is the key We all know it helps to keep ourselves busy to take our minds off the grief but the problem is to get up and go isn’t easy so I am hoping and praying that I can do it everyday and especially weekend 
Sorry for blabbering on a bit - just got up very early (5 am now) and the thoughts rushed in to my head 
so had to let it all out!
Best wishes to everyone x
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I feel your pain,it’s 8 weeks to the day since I lost my beautiful wife,I nursed her through 3 years of pain,weekly trips to give blood and chemo praying her picc line would hold out as her veins were shrinking rapidly,she went from a vibrant,self confident woman to a shell,although her mind stayed sharp,we would sit and try to beat each other watching tv quizzes,then the 28th april descended and she was gone,like everyone else I took the news hard,and then the bureaucracy started,all the ininsincere platitudes,sorry for your loss but endless requests for wills,birth marriage death certificates,endless form filling in,many trips to the post office for special delivery,and then probate stepped in,it’s too much sorry for the rant today is not a good day.
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Ron just rant here as much as you want - it’s good to get it all out.
It does feel endless all the sadmin and then as you say the many “ we are here for you “ when actually they aren’t.
Or the “ we will be here for you when you’re ready”. Ready for what I wonder ? Perhaps I should know what that is ???
I got angry at that to begin with - but now I just try accept that people don’t really understand at all unless you have been through it.
I find being in here helps with that - we all really understand and are going through a similar process.
Sending some strength to you and to all struggling today
The suns just come out here so am going to try and see if it lifts my spirit a bit
Xxxx
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