Thankyou.
I am allowing myself to look forward to it
Although I do feel guilty.
Stupid though, Roger would have wanted me to go, he told me to have a holiday
Big hugs
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I certainly hope that is true and I have a feeling it is as in my job with the elderly that I did for 36 yrs on night shift we once had a gentleman who on that night was very unsettled so we were spending time trying to settle him he was looking up at the corner of the ceiling and speaking to someone with his arm out stretched , we couldn’t understand what he was saying but he was smiling the whole time, he eventually settled and we were able to leave his room, when we returned a short time later that man had passed, I have always thought he was speaking to relatives of his that nt who had already passed, I will never forget that nt xxx
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Every single word was/is true,i was a real sceptic on these matters,but my experiences in recent weeks have totally turned that upside down.many hugs for you ps love Scotland.
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Funny same here I have arthritis in various places from working in nursing then with the elderly for 36 yrs when I had to take early retirement a yr before I was due to because my issues were getting worse, have to say they are a bit better being retired till I do too much like weeding !!!
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I was dreading to stay home alone on the first anniversary of his passing on 2nd May so I ran away to Paris to stay the night but found myself crying in the hotel room on the night 
I kept telling myself it would have been worse had I stayed at home, most probably fell apart in the home that was filled with beautiful and loving memories
Hope you have a peaceful day on the day - sending best wishes x
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Totally resonate with that. I am not single or widowed, I am married until I go too - and hope very much he will be there to greet me when the time comes 
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I am sure he would totally agree you deserve a holiday after what you have been through xx
I am so sorry it must have been so traumatic for you to go through months of hoping and uncertainty and then ended up losing him - so heartbreaking.
Sending much love and hugs 
x
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Thank you 
, love to you and all of us on here. Xo
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That’s me to a tee,my neighbours must think I am running out of clothes even though I have a wardrobe full,it’s wear,shower full washer load,dry,iron (only where nessessary) then repeat,think I am turning into a slob.
Our 36th wedding anniversary today 
, couldn’t possibly be moping around at home alone so I ran away to Nice trying to celebrate for both of us the way we used to do! We celebrated every year but last year was still so raw I crashed out at friends couches instead! From this year on, I will try to carry on our tradition and hope he will be by my side celebrating with me….till the day we meet again my love 
Best wishes to everyone x
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I hope your day is as good as it can be, that you find some peace and can recall the good times without too much pain.
It is incredibly brave and positive that you have gone away. I’m sure your husband would be so proud of you and I think it’s a good tradition to uphold if it feels good.
Xxx
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Good for you @Angel1309
I hope you enjoy your break and remember he is with you, always in your heart.
Have as good a day as you can
Remember we are all thinking of you
Love and hugs
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Well done @Angel1309 a wonderful thing to do.
Sure yr husband will be there with you.
Try and enjoy .
Xx
Thank you @roni52 had a pleasant day today in Nice from morning through to evening packed in so many activities. People here probably thought I was crazy walking and talking to myself…I was actually talking to my husband hoping (wishing) he was by my side seeing things that I was seeing and feeling things that I was feeling. It seemed to work quite well as I was not feeling lonely while walking the streets of Nice, just checked my steps couldn’t believe it 29700 steps I walked today more than I ever walked before!
I am not sure about being brave…it’s more of a running away from being sad and alone in the house filled with beautiful and loving memories, which I didn’t think I could handle so I chose the lesser of the devil really. Fortunately, it turned out to be not bad as I had feared. I am now feeling less scared of travelling solo, so hopefully will be less apprehensive about going solo again on his birthday, which we used to go away. It is now my duty to uphold that tradition- I hope he is up there smiling and waiting to accompany me on his birthday trip in September 
I hope you had a peaceful day too, take care xxx
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Thank you @Liro yes I had a good day thinking about him all day and talking to him all day too! Talking to him does help ease the pain and loneliness so I tend to do that every day and every where. Yes I do believe he is with me always, in my mind and my heart
It means a lot that we all understand what each other are going through and thank you for your kind words.
Sending love and hugs back xx
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Thank you @Elite yes I was walking along side me all day today and I’d like to believe he’s always by my side experiencing this most special day with me
I am feeling loved and comforted.
Hope your day has been good as can be, take care xx
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Hi @Angel1309
I’m so glad for you that you had such a good day. I had our 12th Anniversay a week after the funeral and marked it by buying the locket he wanted me to have and having lunch with one of my Granddaughters (we were together 42years and eventually got round to it after 30!)
I think we are better to try and do things to mark these occasions, rather than sit at home crying.
I do quite enough of that.
Like you will have Rogers biryhday in September. I’m not sure yet what I will do, but I will make it special
Love and hugs 
Liz x x
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Hi @Angel1309,
So pleased you have had a positive experience in Nice.
Honestly a really brave and wonderful thing .
Sending love xc
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Wow that was a lot of steps, I’m glad you had a good day yesterday. I am sure your husband was with you in spirit all the way. I have to say you are much braver than I will ever be I could never contemplate travelling by myself but hats off to you brave lady and I’m sure your husband would be so proud of you xx
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